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Unclear – 5 Months (Chapter 10)

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Happy Friday! Here is a another *sigh* short chapter. I’m sorry that they have been short lately. Here it is though! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 9, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/25/my-writing-unclear-the-father-is-chapter-9/

~5 Months~

Jade’s P.O.V.
I’ve started to get a baby bump. Tanner thinks that it’s cute, but I think that once I get even more bigger, things are going to be difficult for me. I can no longer wear jeans and the only thing that actually fits is sweat pants or leggings.
Tanner and I have been looking for a place of our own. We haven’t told anyone, yet. I know his sister might be a little upset, after what Tanner told be about their parents and how they just left. Lately, he says that she’s been busy with painting, I guess. As long as she’s busy, she won’t be able to question us.
Today was a big day, though. We had just found a place and we also have a doctor’s appointment to find out what the sex of the baby is. I’m really excited! I hoping for a girl and Tanner is too. He told be he always wanted a little girl to call his own. He also said that a boy would be nice too.
As I finished packing the last box, Tanner took it and packed it in the back of the trunk. Savannah was holding Ricky when I came back in.
“I’m really going to miss you.” She said. Tears falling down from her eyes. We were basically like sisters, after my father and sister died. “You’ll always have a place here and if you ever need me, call me. Ok?” I hugged her and Ricky. Gave Ricky a little kiss on the check.
“I will too.” I said as I let go of her. I then looked at Ricky. “You be a good boy for your mama, okay? Maybe if you are good, Auntie might come over on Christmas Day.”
Ricky had the biggest smile and then I grabbed him from Savannah and hugged him. “Auntie, can you bring him too?” As he pointed up to Tanner in the doorway. Ever since Tanner has been coming around, Ricky really likes him. They would do all kind of stuff together. It was really cute and it made me feel like he was the one.
“Only if you are a good boy.” I said and he smiled and shook his head yes. “I love you, buddy.” He then hugged me back. Then he ran over to Tanner and hugged him too.
Once everyone got their hugs and kisses, Tanner and I got into the truck and left to our new place.
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Next chapter will be out on Monday! If you are too impatient to wait, Unclear is avaible on Wattpad. Just look up my username katieasehl. That is where you will find other stories I have written. 

Chapter 11: Its A… What!?
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/02/my-writing-unclear-its-a-what-chapter-11/

 

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Posted in Wrestling (WWE)

WWE Smackdown Superstar Of The Week – Lana

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This day is Lana Day. She is one of the newer superstars that became a wrestler. Her husband, Rusev, is also a WWE Superstar. She would stand by his side, just like how Maryse does for the Miz.

I figured I would pick a wrestler, that to me, doesn’t know how to wrestle very well. Most of the Superstars have been wrestling for years and years, however, Lana doesn’t even have a background of wrestling. She was just used to promote Rusev.

She has only been in the company since 2013 ish. I know that wrestling is very difficult to do, so when the first draft came into play, we were all excited to see how Lana would wrestle, just because we have saw Maryse wrestle and become Diva’s champ in the past, we wondered the same thing with Lana.

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Boy, were we wrong. Her very first match was a championship match against, the current Smackdown Women’s Champion Naomi. If anyone has seen Total Divas, you will know that Lana wasn’t going to have any more matches after the lost against Naomi, but because she went to Twitter and wined about losing, she was granted another match.

And another, which she lost all three times. At this point, if the WWE Universe agrees, Lana needed more work in the ring, but she also needs to know that just because you have a pretty face and great microphone skills, doesn’t mean you can wrestle, just like that and be good.

I’m sorry for those who actually like Lana, but if you have only seen her in the WWE, you have no idea how she is like on Total Divas. Some of the other Women’s Division have called her out on that she can’t wrestle as good as she says she does.

She hasn’t one any titles, yet, but I have a feeling, the WWE writers might just put a belt on her, just to see how the crowd reacts. I think she is better as a manager, not a wrestler. If she had more of a background of wrestling, she might be a little bit better, but her background is basically modeling, singing, and making movies, basically being a celebrity.

Next week, I will go back to the Raw roster and pick another Superstar of the Week!

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Crafty Sassy: Crocheting VS Knitting

Happy Tuesday! I have another Crafty Sassy coming to you! I am going to talk about the difference between Crocheting versus Knitting and how they are different from each other. Let’s jump right in!

So, the major difference between the two is that you don’t use the same tools. For crocheting, you use a hook and for knitting, you use long needles. The better thing about crocheting is that you can see more progress than you can knitting, depending on what you are knitting.

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Crochet

Now, I’m not an pro at crocheting, but I have managed to crochet a granny square and I am working on a granny square blanket for my fiance. To me, at first, crocheting looked very difficult. Even when I tried to practice a single crochet square, I always seemed to mess up, somehow.

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After trying for a while, I gave up. More so, I took a long break and headed to YouTube. I am one of those people that can’t just read the book and look at pictures to do something, I have to physically see them doing, what I am trying to learn.

I figured I would start simple and look for a video to make a granny square. I found the best tutorial by the Nervous Knitter. Link for the video – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDdXrZB1FOE

Since crocheting can be very fast, she slowed it down every step and it was much easier to follow. I watched the entire thing, twice, just to make sure I did it right and know, I know it almost by heart.

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With crocheting, once you get the pattern down, it’s like riding a bike, you don’t forget it very easily. Crocheting, you can do so much, the best part is that you can see your progress, so working on a granny square blanket, I see the progress, which makes me excited to keep on going!

Once I am finished on my fiances blanket, I will post a picture on here and show you how to do a granny square tutorial, as well!

Knitting

Knitting was the first thing that I ever did, or tried out. I knitted my son’s first blanket. It was very simple to do and, at that time, I preferred to knit versus crochet. The only problem with knitting, it felt like my project was never going to be finished.

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Don’t get me wrong, knitting was very basic and was easier to start out, but once your project gets bigger, you don’t have very much, to me, encouragement to keep going. Plus, I also seemed to lose a stitch or two and my project would come out all uneven, and with me trying to make things perfect, I would restart multiple times.

But there is also another way to knit, without using the needles. You can loom knit as well. I just got a giant set of different looming sizes and shapes. (Next Tuesday, I will be going a tutorial on how to loom knit a scarf!)

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Knitting was something that I did for my latch hook pillows, the backings of them. I knitted them like I was making a blanket, but the needles can only hold on so much, unless you have the needles with the wires, which I don’t currently have.

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Although, knitting was a easier way to have my projects looking a little neater, not perfectly neat, but neat as a way, there was not unwanted holes, just a solid pattern. Knitting, to me, is more for making a really great scarf or, if you have the knitting needles with the wire, a hat or even a blanket.

Which one would be better for beginners?

I would trying out knitting first, just because the concept is more simple and easier to follow versus crocheting. Try something simple, such as knitting a scarf or a square, just to get some practice.

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Once you feel like you know the basics for knitting a simple scarf, try challenging yourself and try to crochet a granny square. If you are like me and need to physical see what is going on, I am going to try my best and make little tutorial videos to help you guys out.

If you get really frustrated with any of it, take a break. Taking a break from your work is okay to do! Especially, if you have children and they are making it difficult to work on anything. Your work will still be there when you want to go back to it.

Another tip that really helped me out, before jumping in on crocheting or knitting, or any project, take a step back and just watch videos of people doing those things. Watch how they do their work and whatever tips or things they do, that you feel or know that would help you out, use them!

Watching other people crochet and knit, I’ll pick up the little things that they do, so that I can used to my advantage or help better myself into crocheting or knitting different things.

Also, if you aren’t sure what kind of knitting needles or hooks you should get, try some out. I prefer metal ones, just because it’s easier, although, I haven’t tried out the wooden or ones with handles. I literally, just bought a set off of wish and have stuck with them ever since, although, because they don’t have a handle, my hands can get sweaty and it makes it harder to work the yarn.

I do recommend trying them out and seeing with ones you think, for yourself, make it easier to crochet or knit.

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One thing that I highly recommend, is to work with bigger yarn! I know a lot of people say not to because it will make it harder to work with the less thicker yarn, but it will let you be able to look, up closely, how it is done. So that if you feel you made a mistake, with the less thicker yarn, with the bigger yarn, you will be able to see clearly what you did to mess up.

So, next Tuesday, I will be doing a step-by-step on how to loom knit and simple figure 8 scarf.

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Unclear – The Father Is? (Chapter 9)

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Good morning, guys! Here is another chapter of Unclear for you! Now, I won’t be on at all today because it is my son’s birthday and it is a very difficult day for me and my family. I have this scheduled to appear for today. Anyway, I did actually Google if you can get a paternity test while pregnant, which you can, its just really dangerous, or Google was wrong and now I just sound dumb. I think I just wanted to let you readers know who it is so that we can move on from this ‘love triangle’ we have going on. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 8, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/22/my-writing-unclear-it-was-me-chapter-8/

~The Father Is?~

Jade’s P.O.V.
A week later, I was finally called into the doctors office. They had finished the DNA testing to see who the father was. I told Tanner that I wanted to go by myself and that I would tell him when I left the doctors office.
I sat in the waiting room, waiting. Why the hell is it taking so damn long? I honestly thought that they were going to send it in the mail, but I guess not.
“Jade Roy?” A nurse finally came out and called my name. I got up and followed her to my doctor’s office. My doctor was sitting at his office chair, with my file on hand. I sat down in one of the two chairs that sat in front of his desk. The nurse then closed the door.
“How are you feeling, Jade?” Doctor Locke asked.
“Fine.” I answered. I just wanted to know who the father was. “Why didn’t you just send me the results?”
“Well, I thought that it would be better if you got the results in person.” Doctor Locke then pulled out the paper and handed it to me. “Mr. James Miles had a lot of drugs in his system that we couldn’t really get a good test from. However, Mr. Tanner Homes DNA showed that he is in fact the father of your child.”
I looked down at the paper. He was right. Tanner is the father. I couldn’t believe it.
“Wait, why does it say that for James?” I asked because on the paper, next to his name, it said that it wasn’t possible for him to ever have kids. “Why did you test them both to see if they were able to have children or not?”
“Well, you see. We needed to find out first if Mr. Miles and Mr. Homes could have kids. Mr. Homes could, but unfortunately Mr. Miles can not.” he explained, but I still didn’t understand. “We do this with every paternity test and if they are able to have children, then we take their blood and test it.”
“Well, thanks anyway, Locke.” I said as I got up and went over to the door. I then looked back at him. “Wait.” He said as he stood up from his seat. “Be careful, he’s coming for you.”
I knew who he was talking about because Mr. Locke was my doctor when they did the rape kit for me. I just wanted to forget all about it, but I can’t. I need to find a place of my own and soon. Otherwise, he’ll threaten Kayla and little Ricky. First things first, I need to tell Tanner that he is the father.
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Tanner’s P.O.V.
I ended up going to see James, he said he had the money he owed me. I just hope that this time, he wasn’t going to give me cocaine as a payment, again. I don’t do that because my best friend, Thomas, died from cocaine. That’s why I only grow and sell pot. I do smoke it, but since I found out that I might be a father, I’ve stopped. I’ve just been selling. Jade knows because she used to smoke too.
I knocked on James’ door and then walked in. I saw him on the couch, fucking some girl. I then looked at him and he knew that I was going to let him finish first. I just hope that Jade doesn’t come over while he’s doing that.
I sat down at the island in the kitchen and waited. I then heard the moans come to a stop and then James walked in with just sweatpants on. He then opened the fridge and grabbed a beer.
“You got my money?” I asked. He better because most of the money I’ve been making, I’ve put away in the bank for the baby, just in case it’s mine. “Who’s that in the living room?”
“Yeah, I got it.” He said as he reached in his pockets and pulled out $300 dollars. “Here. There’s a little extra for maybe a bag.”
“Yeah, I guess, but none of this I.O.U crap,  I’m not letting you have a tab anymore. From now on, you’ll pay me in cash and only cash.” I said as I took the money and counted $300 exactly. Then the girl that James was having fun with, came in with his tee shirt on and underwear.
“I got it, man. ” James said, taking another sip of beer. “And this is Becky, my girlfriend.” He hugged her and gave her a kiss on the check. She smiled and then went back out to the living room.
“You haven’t told Jade?” I asked.
“No, and she don’t need to know.” He then grabbed a bottle of Gin and started drinking it straight up. He should’ve told her. Before you know it, she is going to find out the hard way. “She never cared, so why should I? And besides, I can’t have kids so the baby is gonna be yours.”
“You can’t have kids? Who told you that?” I was surprised.
“Jade’s doctor. He said that the reason why I didn’t have to do blood work is because I can never have kids. Which is fine with me, I can always adopt a China baby.” He started laughing and laughing. “Jade’s better off with you than me. Just look at me. I’m a mess and you have you’re not. Can I have more pot or what?”
“Here.” I gave him a bag of pot and left.
As I got into my truck, Jade was calling me. As soon as I closed my truck door I answered.
“Hello?”
“Hey, so I found out.”
“Yeah? Is it mine or James.” I had a feeling that I already knew it was mine, but then again, James was drunk and doesn’t know what he was saying half the time.
“It’s yours. James’ can’t have children.” Once she said those words, the biggest smile came on my face. “I also have a question.”
“Shoot.”
“Do you think that it would be a good idea if we were to live together? For the baby’s sake.” Really? I mean, I was going to ask, but I thought that it might be too soon, I mean, what’s the worst that could happen?
“Yeah, if you want to. I’m all for it. Do you want me to come over and we can start looking for a place?” I asked.
“Yeah, meet me at my house in 10?”
“I’ll be there.”
“I’ll be waiting. Oh, and one more thing.”
“Yes?”
“I’m really glad that the baby is yours.” And then she hung up.
I couldn’t believe that I am going to be a father. I really can’t believe it. I was so happy that I ended up beating her home. I sat in my truck and waited for Jade to get out of her car.
“I promise, little one, that I will always be there for you. Always and forever.”
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Marie’s P.O.V.
“LET ME OUT YOU CRAZY BITCH!” Lucas said as he was banging on the bars and trying to open them, but there was no point.
“Don’t get your panties in a bunch.” I said as I was looking into the mirror. Trying to see if there was another way for me to break this curse. Then it hit me. Why don’t I use Lucas to create my child? I then looked over at him, he was pissed. “Now, I have a question for you.”
“What now? First you promised me that I would get Jade, then told me she killed my baby, and then locked me up because she’s pregnant with some fags baby??” He said. “What more do you want from me?”
“I need you. I have a deal that I want to make with you.” I said, walking back to my spell book. “Since, she killed your baby and broke your heart. I can make you forget her.”
“Here it comes.” He said crossing his arms.
“But, I need to have a child, otherwise I will die. So, what I was thinking…” I paused and then looked up at him. “I make you fall deeply in love with me that you’ll forget her. Then we can run off together. One big happy family.”
“You think that anyone would ever fall in love with a freak like you? Ha!” He started laughing and that pissed me off more. I then came to the cage and grabbed his throat. Lifted him off his feet and then started to choke him.
“Unfortunately, you don’t have a choice. You are going to fall in love with me and you will forget all about Jade. Then we are going to have a child. Got it?” I then left go of his neck and he fell to the ground. “Oh, and if you wanted a son or daughter, I can make that happen, as well. Or we can just have both.”
I than walked over to my spell book and read over how I was going to make him forget about her. All I need is a piece of her hair, which I already had, and a piece of his hair. I walked back over and plunked a hair from his head.
“Now, while you are recovering from the chokehold that I just gave you, I will be creating this love potion that you will drink.” I said as I started to go down the stairs. “Oh, one more thing. You can scream as loud as you want, but no one will hear you .” I grinned and started to laugh.

Next chapter will be out on Friday and it won’t be scheduled, like today’s was. Thank you guys for reading and as always, if you can’t wait for the next chapter, you can always read my book Unclear on Wattpad. Just look up katieasehl or Unclear and you will find all the books that I have written or currently working on. 

Chapter 10: 5 Months
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/29/my-writing-unclear-5-months-chapter-10/

Posted in Mom Talk

My Little Heart Warrior

**WARNING**

*This is a very true story. Tissues might be needed. It was difficult to write this, but it is something that helps me express what had happen with my son and his short journey. Please, just take caution when reading.*

There are a lot of ‘Mom Blogs’ out in the web. Some talk about how to take care of a child or their experiences with their child’s first achievements in life. But I haven’t seen very many that talk about the experience of having a child with a heart disease. Let’s just say that it’s very much an emotional rollar coaster.

Well, that’s what it was for me. My son was diagnosed with HLHS (Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome) when I was 22 weeks pregnant with him. Basically, HLHS is when the left side of their heart is either underdeveloped or never formed. Once he was born, he would have to go into surgery within the first week of life.

Altogether, he would have to go through 3 major surgeries with in the first 3 years of his life. Now, I was 18 when I was pregnant with my son, Liam. Image being me at 18, and being told that there was a very big change that he wouldn’t make it. Liam’s everyday life would be either life or death.

The happy family that my fiance and I imaged had changed. We didn’t know if he would make it to his first birthday. We had so many unanswered questions. Would he be able to play sports when he gets older? Would he need a heart transplant in the future if his starts to fail? Or the big question that we wanted to know: Would he ever make it home from the hospital?

Because of how serious his disease was, we weren’t able to have him, in our state. We were recommended to go down to Boston Children’s Hospital. We were told that they deal with congenital heart defects everyday. It made me and our family feel a lot better about having Liam there.

Once Liam was born, he was the most beautiful baby boy that I ever laid eyes on. You couldn’t see that there was anything wrong with him, but on the inside, there was a struggling heart that we would of never noticed.

As soon as I hear him cry, I started to cry myself. They cleaned him up and gave him medicine, to keep the values from closing. We could only hold him for a minute before they took him up to where he needed to be.

I finally got to hold him longer, later that day. I wanted to keep holding him because I knew that once he had his surgery, it would be a very long time until we were able to hold him again. They planned for his first surgery to be on June 27th, 2016, 3 days after his birth.

My fiance and I spent the entire day with him, holding him, getting as much closeness as we could. Until, the morning of his surgery came. We walked down with him, until we got to the point we weren’t able to go past. We both kissed his and held his little fingers. Praying that god would watch over our little boy.

During that day, we got out of the hospital, trying to get our minds off of the fact that they were doing surgery on our son. I wanted to wait all day, but my fiance and I agreed it would be best to go out and get some fresh air. We got frequent updates, while Liam was in surgery. It made me feel better that someone cared enough to let us know that everything was going smoothly and that they would keep us posted until he was our of surgery.

Once they called to let us know that he was doing great, they told us that he was all set to see visitors. I was nervous and scared to see how he looked. Even when we got closer to his room, tears already started to pour down my face.

As a parent, you never want your children to go through surgery or be hooked up to anything. Seeing Liam for the first time out of surgery, was life changing. His chest wasn’t closed, they keep the chest open for a few days to make sure everything is working out fine before they close it. Every time I would go to see him, I asked that they covered his heart, just when I was in there. I don’t know why, but I felt uncomfortable.

As weeks went passed, they finally closed his chest and slowly started to take him off some medication and his breathing tube. We were finally able to hold our son again, after about 4 weeks from his surgery.

We thought that things were going great, he was able to leave the NICU and move over to what they called was ‘The Floor’, meaning that Liam still needed nurses, but not 24/7, like he did in the NICU. The doctors said that once he was able to start eating from a bottle or breast and a few other things, he would be able to go home.

Day 2, of being on ‘The Floor’, was the most horrible day of my life. The nurse had come in to give Liam his medicine and he was being fussy, so she suggested that I pick him up and rock him. All of a sudden, my worst nightmare had happen. He stopped breathing in my arms.

The nurse took him and pressed the code blue button, 7-8 other hospital staff rushed in to help, they took him back over the NICU. I followed them, shocked and frighted. My fiance rushed over to the hospital, they wouldn’t allow both parents to stay in the room together, so he had to stay at a place that was a mile away from the hospital.

My hands wouldn’t stop shaking. I didn’t know what to do, they had a nurse stay with me until my fiance got there. All I could say was, ‘he stopped breathing in my arms.’

They did CPR on him for 45 minutes until they were able to get on bypass. They didn’t know what happened. They figured it was a blood clot that blocked blood from reaching his heart. The told us that they were going to try and take him off bypass slowly and hope for the best, but if he was still on it after a week, there was a good chance that Liam wouldn’t make it.

During the time he was on bypass, Liam had brain damage, from getting CPR for too long, kidneys and liver were starting to fail. We ended up sitting down with a few doctors and his surgeon. We also got our immediate family to come up, for the support. They said that once we can get him off bypass, that they would be able to determined if he would still have brain activity, but by the looks of what they were trying to read, he had little to none brain activity.

My fiance and I looked at each other and prayed that god wouldn’t take Liam from us. He did. On July 23rd, 2016 at 4 in the morning, our son had passed away. When they took him off bypass, he was doing fine, but slowly started to decline. My fiance, his mother, my mother and I, were with him when he passed. I held him until his heart stopped beating.

Everyone I knew, their baby got to come home in their car seat,  but Liam never even left the hospital. He didn’t come home in a car seat. He came home in a box. Every mother’s worst night mare.

It was really hard to write this, but I think it’s time that everyone knows that not every baby born in this world is perfectly normal. I rather tell people my experience than let every mother or soon-to-be mother think that everyone’s child is born healthy.

Because my son wasn’t born healthy. His heart disease was something that not even doctors know how it was caused. I’ve googled it thousands of times, no one know’s why HLHS happens or any congenital birth defect.

This year will be two years that Liam has been gone. I’ll never get to see him on his first birthday or see him walk or talk for the first time. He was two days shy of being a month old.

But there is one thing that I want to let everyone know. Whether your child was on this world for a day, month, or years, you can’t just get over it. People think that because Liam wasn’t even a month old, that I can just get over it.

To this day, I still cry about him, not as much as I first did, but I do still cry about him. I always will. He is my little Simba and I miss and love him so much.

On a happier note, Liam gave us a surprise from up above. We were blessed with our daughter, Isabella on October 25th 2017, our rainbow baby. I believe that he knew we were ready to be parents, as cheesy as it may sound, and gave us our healthy daughter.

Every year on his birthday, we release balloons, in honor of him. In honor of our heart warrior, our little Simba. Now, our Simba is looking down and watching over his little sister from up above.

Liam Michael (June 25th, 2016 – July 23rd, 2016)

Liam Michael
Our little heart warrior

 

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Unclear – It Was Me (Chapter 8)

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Happy Fridays! I am really sorry how these chapters are becoming very short! I think I was having a writers block, around this time. There was a lot going on, but then again, I started this back in high school and never really fixed it, but I am hoping to fix it after I finish one of my other books. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 7, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/18/my-writing-unclear-3-months-chapter-7/

~It Was Me~

Jade’s P.O.V.
The next day, Tanner called and asked if I wanted to go to the library. He knew how much I loved to read. I was really excited because I wanted to get started on some reading about the baby. Tanner picked me up and we drove to Medow Lane Library.
“You know who my favorite author is?” I asked Tanner as we walked in and started looking at the books.
“Let me guess, you are a Stephen King fan?” Tanner smiled. I smiled back. I did like Stephen King. I would have to say that the Green Mile was my favorite.
“I do like him, but he isn’t my favorite. Sarah Dessen is.” I then pulled out one of my favorite books that she has written, Lock and Key. “This is my most favorite one that she’s written.”
“Well, I perfer reading Stephen Kings ‘The Green Mile’.” Once he said that, my mouth dropped and then I smiled.
“I love that one. I really like the movie, Tom Hanks did very well in it, but Mr. Jingles was my favorite.” I said. We laughed when I said Mr. Jingles.
“We should watch it together sometime.” He asked as we were checking out the books. “Maybe we can watch it tomorrow after your doctors appointment?”
“Sure, do you want to come with me? To my appointment?” I smiled.
“If you want me to go, I’ll go with you.” He answered. “I can pick you up if you would like.”
“I’d like that.” I smiled as we walked out of the library into Tanner’s truck. Then my phone started to go off. The caller I.D. was an ‘unknown’ caller. I didn’t answer because I knew it was James trying to talk to me again. I didn’t want to talk to him because I knew what he was doing. Drinking and doing drugs. I didn’t want to be around that and if this was his baby, I didn’t want my child to be around that. “It’s James, again.”
“I thought you blocked his number?” Tanner asked.
“I did. He’s using a different number. He started doing that about a week ago.”
“Well, he did call me last night.”
“He did?”
“Yeah, he needed me to tell you that a guy named Lucas Miller was bailed out of jail. James said he killed your sister and rapped a minor.” Once Tanner mentioned Lucas’ name, he could tell that Lucas and I had a history. A very bad history.
“No. That’s impossible.” I said. Tears started to fall from my eyes. “Can I tell you something? You can’t tell anyone I told you.”
“Of course you can. I promise.” He said. I had a feeling that I could trust him with anything. If I did want a relationship with him, I should at least tell him about what happened with Lucas.
“After we got the news that my father died, my sister got really depressed, to the point where she got a new groups of friends and started partying, drinking, and doing drugs. That’s how she met Lucas. He was 21, at the time. He would provide everything. Mandy and him started dating, but she wouldn’t have sex with him because she knew that’s what he wanted.”
“Why didn’t she?” Tanner asked.
“She didn’t want to get him into jail. One weekend, my mother left to go visit my father’s parents to see how they were about their sons’ death. Lucas told Mandy that since my mother was gone for the weekend, that they should have a party.” I paused and looked up at Tanner. “While the party was going on, Lucas came into my room and gave me something to drink. I blacked out. When I woke up the next day, I was tied to my bed, naked, with Lucas laying next to me. I tried screaming, but he had gagged me.”
“I’m so sorry, Jade.”
“I’m not finished.” I said. “That was also the night that Lucas killed Mandy. He drove her into another car. She was dead when they found her. The police came in and saw me tied up and took him to jail. I had a rape kit done and Lucas was guilty for rape of a minor and the dead of my sister. He was sentence to 25 years in jail.”
“I won’t let that bastard touch you, ever.” I could see how angry Tanner was. He must really care about me.
“There’s one more thing.” I said as Tanner looked up from the truck floor to me. “I ended up getting pregnant and ending the pregnancy. Lucas thinks that I had the baby and that I kept it. I had to get rid of it. I was only 13 and I didn’t want to raise a child that the father had raped me.” Tanner came over and hugged me, so tight. I loved that he was comforting me. Especially after I told him about my past.
“Don’t worry. I’ll protect you, no matter what. He will never be around you ever again. I promise.” Tanner said as he kept hugging me in the truck.
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“NO, Tanner!” I said, looking through my mirror. He was hugging Jade, promising that he would protect her from Lucas. This changes everything. When Tanner makes a promise, he means that promise.
“The hell you yelling at a mirror for?” Lucas asked, carving something out of wood. “When do I get to see her and my baby!?” He threw the knife on the ground and came up to me.
“Your baby gone! She got rid of it the moment she found out she was pregnant.”
“What? No, not my baby!” Lucas threw his hands in his hair. “How could she?”
“You raped her. Why would she keep it?” I said. I knew about Jade’s past a long time ago.
“She loved me. She would never do that to me! We belong together and you’re going to take me there, NOW!” Lucas said taking the knife and threating to kill me.

“You will, soon enough.” He then took the knife away from me and sat down on the couch. “Now, things have changed, since you have been in jail. She’s pregnant.”
“WHAT?! Who’s the father??”
“My brother. She doesn’t know and neither does my brother, but they will find out in a week.”
“How do you know this? You some kind of a freak?” He said. I hated that word. Everyone in high school always called me that, until my grandmother showed me the art of being a witch. I had the gift that my mother never got. I calmed down, I could hurt him. He could still be some use to me.
“I’m a witch and if you still want to see her, you better start being nicer to me.” I said and then created a jail cell with a bed, toliet, and sink. “Or, you can stay in your little cage, until I need you. Got it.”
“Yeah, yeah, how much longer do I have to wait for her?” Lucas asked.
“When I say so. I won’t let you take away my niece’s mother away from her.” I said. That pissed off Lucas. He then came witht the night to try to hurt me, but he missed and I transported him into the cage. “I’m alot stronger and smarter than you are.”
“You bitch! You lied!” Lucas yelled. “Get me the fuck out of here NOW!”
“No, I have a better idea on what I’m going to do with you.” I grinned. He might be the one who can give me the baby I need, before next year. I have to hurry soon, I only have 2 more full moons left.

Next chapter will be out on Monday at around 7am. That is also my son’s birthday, so I won’t be active on that day at all. I will have it scheduled in advance for you guys because the day is going to hard enough.

As always, if you don’t want to wait and for the next chapter, the book is on Wattpad. Just search katieasehl and you will find Unclear and a few other stories that I have on Wattpad. Thank you for reading! 

Chapter 9: The Father is?
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/25/my-writing-unclear-the-father-is-chapter-9/

 

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WWE Raw Superstar Of The Week – Dana Brooke

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Play time is over! Yes, Dana Brooke is the Raw Superstar of the week! I figured I would switch it up a bit and talk about a Superstar from the Women’s Division.

Dana Brooke made her first appearance to the WWE spotlight, as a protegé for none other that the Nature Boy’s daughter, Charlotte Flair. As usual, not many people will like you if you help the champion keep their title, but the more we booed, the more Brooke would interfere with matches.

Now, I will only be talking about Brooke being on the WWE roster, not her past in NXT.

Being Flairs protege only lasted for so long, until Brooke finally had a new story line, where she was no longer by Flairs side and went against her. After that, Brooke hasn’t been in many story lines, since being on the side of Flair.

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It sucks because that’s all we really remember of her. Currently, she is apart of Titus World Wide, waiting her talent as a side show clown, as I like to call it. She has been in a few matches, but as this point, Brooke is a sitting duck.

When you become a sitting duck in the WWE, usually, you are going to be let go anytime soon, but who knows. Maybe one day, we will be surprised and see her go in a feud with Nia Jax or even Alexa Bliss.

Brooke was in a relationship with Dallas McCarver until he passed away in 2017. Unfortunately, Brooke hasn’t won any titles in the WWE, yet, but I am hoping that they make her champ, at least once.

Tune in next Wednesday for the Smackdown Superstar of the week!

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Crafty Sassy – Intro to Latch Hook Projects

I mentioned that I have worked with a few latch hooks, but I never went in detail on what they really are. Latch Hooks are like rugs that are made up of yarn on a grid. There are many things you can with latch hooks. I personally, like making pillows, but they are a lot of hard work.

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The picture above is what a latch hook looks before you start or add on anything. Also, that is the tool you use to ‘tie on’ the yarn. Now, if you are intersected in making one of these and you are just a beginner, I recommend buying a latch hook kit. It will come with everything you need: the grid, the cut up yarn, and the hook tool.

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Not all kits are the same! The picture above shows what you would get in a kit, but be warned, not all kits have their colored yarn organized perfectly like this! Some grid might actually have the print of the picture already on the grid, to help guide you through the process.

Also, if you haven’t noticed, most of the latch hook grids have multiple blue squared on them, that helps with knowing where to start, it you aren’t lucky enough to have a kit with the picture printed on the grid. Most of the squares are 10×10, by counting them, but some grid might be different and be like a 10×9 or 9×10.

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The process is very simple. I didn’t think so, at first, but it is very easy to do. The picture above with show you a little better than how I explain it.

  1. Take a piece of yarn, whatever color you need and wrap it around your hook, your latch hook tool.
  2. Take the hook, while holding on to the yarn that is wrapped around it, and insert into the grid, just the hook and make sure that the hooks open, as shown above.
  3. Next, take your end pieces of your yarn, remember, you still have it wrapped around you hook, and pull it into your hook, making sure that your latch hook tool flap, we will call it, doesn’t close. You have to make sure that stays open for this step!
  4. Then, take your latch hook and pull it through that square, where you want to place the yarn. The hook tool flap will close to keep the yarn in it’s place when you pull through the square.
  5. Last, but not least, tighten the knot and make sure it is on tight!
  6. Once that is done, you keep repeating until the project is done!

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Sorry, if I didn’t explain it very well. This picture above does a better job, but I figured I would give it a shot and try.

When you finish your project, you will noticed that you have extra strands of yarn leftover. Some kits will add more than enough to finish, other’s might give you enough to just barely finish the project. If you are like me and keep everything, keep the extra strands, just in case you need them for another project, you never know.

If the kit didn’t give you enough yarn, there is another way to get some more. You can always go to a craft store, or look online, and find the color yarn and cut it yourself, but using the size of what the kit gave you. Or, some craft stores will have the yarn cut up already for you, so if you are making the latch hook for someone, they have it for you to grab and go.

Latch Hooks is great for all ages, plus, if you are just starting to get into crafts and such, this would be the way to start out. You can do so much with latch hooks, they don’t just have to be a rug. They can be pillows, stuff animals, wall hangings, etc. They even have blank grids that you can freestyle.

The only downfall with the latch hooks, is that it can take up a lot of your time, sometimes. It’s nothing that you can pick up and finish all in one sitting, maybe if you are quick and did it all in one night, or had a small one to work with. This type of project is a pick up and finish later type of project.

Anyway, I will had a few pictures below of the latch hooks that I have finished. So far, I have made two pillows and two pillow cases. None of which have been for me, but all the ones I have given away, have loved them. Not because I did a great job, but it was something that I made for them and those are the best kinds of gifts!

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If you are very intersected in wanting to make one of these, check out your local craft store. You won’t have much luck at a Walmart or Kmart, but Amazon does have a very wide selection!

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Unclear – 3 Months (Chapter 7)

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Happy Monday dearies! Another chapter is out! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 6, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/15/my-writing-unclear-i-need-to-tell-them-chapter-6/

~3 Months~

I can’t believe that I’m pregnant. 3 months pregnant. I finally moved out of James’ house. I now live with Savannah, even tho I told her that I would try to move out before the baby s born and I’m so not going back to my mother’s house.
Tanner and I started hanging out more, he isn’t as bad as I thought he was. He’s really sweet and so kind. I think I’m starting to fall for him. I don’t know what it is, but I haven’t felt this way about anyone other than James, but James and I are better off as friends, unless the baby is his.
James’ still tries to call and text me, to the point where I changed my number completely. Plus, I heard that he started drinking more. Tanner saw him outside the gas station, drunk and begging for money. Honestly, he did it to himself. He shouldn’t of brought that up.
As I walked into the house, Savannah was sitting and watching T.V.. Ricky must be asleep for his nap. Savannah looked up at me as I closed the door.
“So, how did it go?” She asked.
“It went really good.” I answered and then sat next to Savannah.
“See? I told you Tanner was a nice guy!” She said changing the channel to MTV. Reruns of Silent Library was on, that was one of our favorite shows. “So what did you guys do?”
“Well, we went to go get lunch and they we ended up going to the mall for a little bit.” I answered, I really did have a good time and I honestly can’t wait see Tanner again.
“Wow, sounds like fun. You got a phone call from the doctors office, they wanted you to make sure you were okay to have the paternity test.”
“Yeah, I am. Did they say when they want Tanner and James to come down?” I’m so glad that they called today because I really want to know who the father really is. It’s driving me crazy!
“Whenever, they said. Basically, walk in and walk out.” She said. Great. How the hell am I going to let James know? He doesn’t have my number anymore. “Don’t worry, I already called James and told him. I knew it would be hard for you after he said that.”

 

“I couldn’t believe he brought him up.” I started to picture the fight we had in his living room. Tears were starting to form under my eyes.
“Jade, Lucas is locked up. He will never be able to get you, I will make sure of that. After what he did to you and your sister, I won’t let him anywhere near you.” Savannah gave me a hug and I started to cry.
Lucas Miller was Mandy’s boyfriend, at the time before she died. Mandy wouldn’t have sex until after high school, but Lucas kept pushing. One night, my sister had a little party for just her and her friends. My mother was visiting her parents and preparing for the funeral for my father. I was in my room playing the piano, when Lucas came in and gave me a drink.
I barely remember much from that night, than again, I never want to remember that night ever again.
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James P.O.V.
It’s my fault that Jade left. I called her some stuff that isn’t even true about her. Especially, when I brought up her last pregnancy. I wouldn’t call that a pregnancy, ever. I’ve been drinking a lot more and started doing some pot and cocaine . They made me forget about Jade and I thought about my father.
Let’s just say that the way my father makes money, is wrong, but if he wants to star in porn films, be my guest. That’s why I left. I didn’t want to follow in my father’s footsteps, but look at me now, drinking and doing drugs.
I turned on the T.V. and started to roll a blunt. I was watching ‘That 70s Show’, until a reporter cut in the middle of the show.
“This just in, Lucas Miller  was just released from jail on bail. Miller was charged with rape of a minor and murder of Mandy Roy,  who was a victim of a drunk driving accident 10 years ago. More on this story at 5.”
Then it went back to the show, I lit my blunt and then picked up the phone to call Tanner, since Jade changed her number. I should at least be the nice guy to let her know. I owe her that much.
“Did you need more pot?” Tanner answered. I looked down at my coffee table, I was running low, but this is no time to do a drug deal.
“Later, but this is really important, it’s about Jade.” I said, taking another hit of my blunt.
“What about Jade?” He asked.
“You know about how her sister died, right?”
“Yeah, drunk driving accident, right?”
“Yes, but there is more to the story that the public doesn’t know.” I said putting down my blunt and taking a sip of my beer. “Lucas scared Jade for life. And now, he was just released out on bail. You got to let her know.”
“I will, and do you have my money? You still owe me $230 bucks, dude. I’m not gonna give you any more until you have paid me off completely. After that’s paid, no more loans from you anymore.” Then Tanner must of hung up the phone because the line went dead. Shit, how the hell am I going to get $230 dollars?!
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Marie’s P.O.V
Lucas and I walked into my secret room. I had bailed him out, since I need him for my plan. I had to keep him hidden until it was time.
“So, are you going to tell me who you are?” Lucas asked, as he lit a cigarette.
“Marie and you are going to help me.” I said as I smiled. “There’s someone in the way of my happiness and you already killed her sister.”
Lucas looked up and his eyes grew big. He knew who I was talking about. I then walked to the mini fridge and handed him a beer.
“Well, then.” He said taking the beer and opening it. “Now, tell what has happened with my girl and my baby.” He grinned.

As always, if you can’t wait until Friday for another chapter, head on over to Wattpad, search my username (katieasehl). There, you will find Unclear and more written work that I have either finished or working on. Next chapter of Unclear is coming out Friday!

Chapter 8: It Was Me 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/22/my-writing-unclear-it-was-me-chapter-8/

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Unclear – I Need To Tell Them (Chapter 6)

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I hope everyone’s Friday is wonderful! Of course it is! You are getting another chapter today! Sorry for the chapter being so short. Enjoy! 

If you haven’t read Chapter 5, here is the link! 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/11/my-writing-unclear-uh-oh-chapter-5/

~I Need To Tell Them~

It just kept running through my mind, ‘You’re going to be a mother.’ All night long. I had called the doctors office and made an appointment the day before. After the doctor came in with my tests. She smiled and told me that I was going to be a mother.
I got up from Savannah’s guest room bed and got dressed. I then headed out to the kitchen to see Savannah playing with Ricky on the floor. I smiled when Savannah saw me walk in. I’m so glad to have her as a friend.
“How you feeling?” Savannah asked and Ricky smiled up at me.
“Well, it’s not the first time I was told I was pregnant. I just can’t believe that this is happening now.” I said as I placed my hands over my eyes. “How could I be so stupid?”
“You made a mistake. It happens. Nobody is perfect. Just look at me, I got pregnant my last year of high school. Did everyone hate me for it? Yes, but the best thing that happened to me, was Ricky.” She said and I looked down a Ricky. He looks so much like Savannah. “So, when are you going to tell them?”
“I don’t know, I though I could hide out here until the baby was born and then tell them.” I smiled.
“You can’t do that! First thing first, you need to have both of them take a paternity test. Then, you need to figure out who’s it is. And when that is all done, then we find out what you want to do with the baby.”
“I’m joking. I’m just scared, Van.” I then went over and pour myself a glass of milk.
“I know you are. I was too. And do you know who helped me out through my pregnancy? The one who kept my spirits up when my family abandoned me? You were. No one else was, but you. Now it’s my turn to be your guardian angel.”
“Thanks, Savannah.” We hugged and then I looked at her and questioned her. “Guardian angel?”
“Hey, I can be a little cheesy when I want to.” She said and we laughed. “If you don’t want to live with James, you are more than welcome to live here.”
“Thanks, Van. I think that might be a better idea, it’s really weird living with him. He always wants to talk about us.” I hugged her again, then my phone started to go off.
“Speak of the devil, is that him?” She asked, I shock my head yes. James texted me.
‘We need to talk. Now.’ As I reread what he said, I had a bad feeling about this.
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I parked into the driveway of Jame’s house, well, it will be his by the end of the day. I got out of the car to notice that Tanner’s truck was parked right in front of the house. I took a deep breath and then enter the house.
Tanner and James were sitting, all eyes on me. I closed the door and then sat down as well.
“So, what did you want to talk about?” I asked. Tanner looked right at me and then spoke, “Well, why don’t you tell us what’s up?”
“Nothing is up. What the hell are you talking about?” I asked again. Did they already find out?
“Well,” James said and cleared his throat. “Marie was out with her friends and she saw you and Savannah buying some pregnancy tests.”
“W-what?” I was completely frozen.
“Are you pregnant?” Tanner asked. I looked in his eyes, god they were really cute. I couldn’t lie to those eyes.
“I found out yesterday, but I don’t know if-.” James’ cuts me off. “Wow, Jade. This is a low for you.”
“What is that suppose to mean?” I asked. What the hell? Why is he acting like this?
“Well, coming from a whore, such as yourself, you think that it’s okay to sleep around and get knocked up, again, and then lead but of us on.” I then noticed the Bud Light he had in his hands./
“That wasn’t my fault, James, and you know it.” Tears started to fall down from my cheeks. God, why did he have to bring that up?
“James, enough. Let her finish.” Tanner said and then stood up in front of James. Their faces were close enough, to the point that they might get into a fight. I then stood up as well. “After what you just did to her, I should beat the living shit out of you.”
“You know what? I’m going to get going.” I looked at James, “By the way, I’m moving out.” I then looked over at both of them, “Oh, I will be letting you guys know when you can find out if this baby is one of yours.” I then left. I needed some ice cream and some girls time.

Again, sorry for the short chapter. As always, if you don’t want to wait until Monday for another chapter, you can find me on Wattpad, katieasehl, and finish reading my book Unclear. I also have a few other books that are out on there as well! 

Chapter 7: 3 Months –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/18/my-writing-unclear-3-months-chapter-7/

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Mom Talk: Why I Don’t Co-Sleep

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I know reading the title already makes you want to voice your opinion about the topic. Some parents prefer co-sleeping, other, well, would rather not risk losing their bed. I, for one, do not co-sleep, here is why.

As a mom, giving into have your child sleep in bed for a night is one thing, is another thing when its every night. I don’t co-sleep with my daughter. My fiance and I both agreed that we would not allow our child to sleep in our bed unless they were sick or had a nightmare.

Since day one, my daughter has not slept in our bed with us and won’t start now. Having kids sleeping in our bed makes it difficult to spend time with our spouses. If its not a problem with you, great! For me its a different situation.

My fiance works second shift and we don’t get to see him very often. Him coming home to a kid-free bed, makes it easier for him to go to sleep. Me as well. I also have a fear that if my kids ever slept in our bed, one of us would roll over on them, which we both move around in our sleep a lot!

I want my kids to know from day one that they have a bed and that mommy and daddy’s bed isn’t where you go to sleep. They have their own bed for a reason. Plus, at ever doctors appointment, the doctor will remind me all the time that co-sleeping is a no, even though I have told him multiple times that I won’t and will not co-sleep.

They aren’t just saying it because that’s how they feel, they have to tell you because of the fact that so many babies die from being suffocated because of co-sleeping.

Now, if you are parents that do the whole co-sleeping, great! If it works for you, do it. I’m just voicing my opinion that I won’t ever really co-sleep. So, please don’t take it to heart that I’m telling you or trying to convince you otherwise.

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WWE Superstar Legend Of The Month – The Rock

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Can you smell what the Rock is cooking? The Rock or as everyone else may know him as Dwayne Johnson, started his career the ring, before he was even an actor. He was know as the ‘Peoples Champion’, even when he wasn’t a champion.

He become more popular in the Attitude Era, just like many great legends have started, such as: Edge, Triple H, Randy Orton, etc. The Rock never backed down to a fight, calling out ever one of those ‘candy asses’, that didn’t want to step in the ring with him.

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To me, he was a legend on the mic. One of the very few wrestlers who had the talent of being a great fighter, but knew how to talk some smack. He was a wrestler everyone love. Who didn’t love The Rock! Especially, when we all learned to do the ‘Peoples Eyebrow’.

Once he got into acting, wrestling became a forgotten memory of his past. Only the true fans knew how he started out. In the past couple years, The Rock as become very popular and famous in the movie business. He has also became a father earlier this year as well!

The Rock is one of the most bad-ass celebrities that we have today. To think it all started in a WWE ring. Maybe some day, we will see the Rock back in action for a Wrestle Mania match, so he can show the world that he can still kick some candy asses!

Here is a list of titles he has won:

  •  WCW World Championship – 2 times
  • WWF/WWE Championship – 8 times
  • WWF Intercontinental Championship – 2 times
  • WWF Tag Team Chamionship – 5 times – with Mankind (3), The Undertaker (1), and Chris Jericho (1)
  • Royal Rumble Winner – 2000

Surprise! I figured I would talk about a Superstar that hasn’t yet been in the Hall of Fame, yet, but I am hoping that really soon, he should in the Hall of Fame.

Anyway, thanks for reading! Next Wednesday, I will pick a Superstar from Raw, I will be picking someone from the Women’s Division. That’s for me to know and you to find out next week!

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Unclear – Uh, Oh (Chapter 5)

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Happy Monday dearies! A beautiful day to have another chapter! As always, mature content might be in the scene, I can’t remember. I’m going to forewarn you, this is when the story starts to jump around, a lot. Happy Reading!

If you haven’t already read Chapter 4, here is the link! 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/08/my-writing-unclear-whats-wrong-with-me/

~Uh, oh~

~One Month Later~
It was a sunny day for once, this week. It has been rainy for the past couple days. Since, the sun was finally shining out, Savannah and I made a plan to go shopping. I honestly didn’t feel the greatest, but being stuck inside all week because of the rain. I had to get outside. Plus, James has been bugging me about going out with him. I want to, but I just don’t know what I’m feeling right now. So, I’ve been kinda avoiding him.
As Savannah and I walked into Kmart, my stomach started to turn, again. It’s been like that for the past weeks or so. Savannah grabbed a shopping cart and looked up at me.
“Are you okay? You don’t look so well. Actually, you look like crap.” Savannah said as we started walking through Kmart.
“I don’t really know. I was fine, up until now. I feel like I’m gonna puke.” I said as I felt something coming up my throat. I ran to the restrooms as fast as I could. Once I got in a stall, that was it. I was puking for the 100th time.
After I was done, I heard the door open and saw Savannah’s high heels in front of the stall I was in. I opened the door and walked over to the skins and washed my hands and face. All I could taste was vomit.
“Are you sure you don’t want me to bring you home? We can go shopping another time, when your feeling better.” She said and I turned around to face her.
“No, I promised that we would hang out, and I’m not going to cancel it because I’m sick.” I said as we both walked out of the bathroom and headed down to the baby isle. Savannah wanted to check out some more cute outfits for her son, Ricky.
I started looking at some of the clothes as well. Then it hit me. Could I be pregnant? I makes complete sense. I haven’t been feeling good for the past few weeks. I’m tired and exhausted all the time. Plus the other day, I had a weird craving for tuna fish and I normal don’t even touch that stuff, but I do have to admit that it was really good.
I looked over to Savannah, she picked out a cute outfit that make me smile. ‘If Mommy can’t get what I want, Auntie will.’ That’s what the shirt said and I smiled to Savannah.
“That’s really cute. He will look so cute in it.” I said.
“I know! I think I’m gonna get it, its only 9 dollars.” As soon as she said that, my stomach started to turn again. What the hell!? It’s only been 11 minutes and I have to puke again? So, I ran to the restroom and puked, again. Then saw Savannah waiting for me outside the bathrooms.
“Okay, we need to talk. I think I know what’s wrong with you.” She then dragged me over to wear all of the medicines were. As we walked by, I noticed that we were in the isle with pregnancy test and prenatal stuff. “When’s the last time you had sex?”
“About a month ago, why?”
“With who?” She questioned me. I felt my face get red.
“With Tanner and then with James.”
“In the same day?!” She said shockingly.
“No, no, It was first Tanner and then it was James a week later.”
“Oh, okay. Well, were they protected?” I looked up at her and I honestly couldn’t remember. I was so drunk that I couldn’t even remember barely anything. I just wanted to cry, but I held it in.
Savannah hugged me and then said, “It’s okay, it happens. If you want, you can stay with me and Ricky.” Then she pulled away. “First thing we need to do is find out if you are pregnant, then we will take it day by day. You helped me, when I got pregnant and I’m gonna do the same for you.”
Then my phone started to go off. It was an unknown caller.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Is this Jade?” A male voice spoke.
“Yes this is. Who is this and what do you want?”
“It’s Frank, your stepfather.” What the hell did he want now? “Your mother is in the hospital.” My eyes got wide.
“What?! Where is she? How is she? And why are you calling me instead of my mom?”
“I called because your mother went into labor and lost both of the babies. She needs you, Jade. You are the only child she has left.” Tears started to pour from my eyes. ” And another thing, we don’t have enough money to pay the hospital bills and we were wondering if-” I hung up the phone. Of course she marries a gold digger.
I looked up to Savannah and gave her the ‘we need to leave’ look. But, before we left, she grabbed 3 pregnancy tests. I just hope that I have a stomach flu and not pregnant with a baby, that I don’t even know who the father is.

 

James POV
It’s been one month since that night. When I made love to the girl that I love. Now, everything has changed. She has been avoiding me since that night. I just want to talk to her. I want to know how she feels. I want to be with her.
Then the door bell goes off. I get up from the couch and open the door to find Marie standing there. I kinda forgot about her ever since that night. She used to send me messages and call me, but I blocked her number.
“Hi, James.” She said, smiling.
“Oh, um hi.”
“Can we talk? I’ve tried to call and text you, but I never got a response. So, that’s why I’m here.”
“To talk about what? Why I dumped you?” Once I said that, it got Marie’s attention. “Really? Why don’t I answer your calls or texts? It’s because I want nothing to do with you. I’m in love with someone else.”
“I-I thought we had something. Don’t you feel that spark that we have?” She wasn’t wrong. We did have a spark that kept me from thinking about Jade. I really didn’t want to end it, I had to. It was my only chance show Jade how much I loved and cared about her.
“There’s nothing. No spark. Not anymore.” I said and tears started to form under her eyes. God, I hate to see her like this. I have to. I have to find out if Jade and I will work out. “I think, it’s time for you to leave. Now.”
She wiped her tears and then ran to her car. I then slammed the door shut and went into my room. I don’t know what’s going on with me. First, I’m all about Jade, then I meet Marie, then I sleep with Jade and fall head over heels for her. Then Marie comes back. Why did she have to come back now? Couldn’t it waited a few more years?
My phone vibrated, it was a message from Jade.
Spending the night at Savannah’s house.
Of course. Avoiding me as usual. I really think that I need a drink because I don’t think I can handle the events of this day.
Jade’s POV
After Savannah put Ricky down for his bedtime, we both went into the bathroom. She gave me the first test and then left the bathroom. God, why did I have to be put in this situation?
After I took the first test, I gave it to Savannah. We then waited the 5 minutes and then she gave the test back to me.
“It’s a plus, Jade.” Savannah said. As I looked down at the test to see a plus sign. “You’re pregnant.”
“Give me the box. There must be a mistake.” As I took the box from Savannah and read the back of the box. She was right, I’m pregnant. “Oh, god.”
“I know, I was shocked the first time that I found out I was pregnant. Then again, you are in a totally better situation than I was.” She said, tears started to fall from my cheeks. She came over to me and hugged me real tight. “I’ll be here for you. There are options if you don’t want to keep the baby. I’ll support you 100%. You can even move in and I can help you out with the baby.”
“Thanks, Savannah. I think I just want to lay down and process this all in.” I said as she let go of me and smiled.
“You’re welcome, just lay down and if you want to talk, I will be all ears.” She said as she then got up and walked out of her bedroom.
I just sat there. Thinking that I’m pregnant, but I don’t know who the father is. I really hope it’s James, but then again, that would mean I would have to tell him that I’m pregnant. What if the baby is Tanners? What am I going to do now?
First thing first, I need to go to the doctors soon. I have to know if I really am. Then, I’ll have to tell them both. Tanner and the James. I just wish I knew who the father really was. The sooner I tell them, the sooner that I will find out who’s the father.
Why did I have to be so stupid?

Thanks for reading! Next chapter will be out Friday! If you can’t wait for the next chapter, find me on Wattpad and search katieasehl. You will also find others works that I have written as well. 

Chapter 6: I Need To Tell Them –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/15/my-writing-unclear-i-need-to-tell-them-chapter-6/

 

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Unclear – What’s wrong with me? (Chapter 4)

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If you haven’t already heard, I will be posting a new chapter every Monday and Fridays! I have had such positive reviews that I figured I would give you guys an extra day for an extra chapter! View at your own risk, mature content is advised. 

If you haven’t read Chapter 3, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/04/my-writing-unclear-does-he-love-me-chapter-3/

~What’s wrong with me?~

I woke up feeling hungover and someone’s arms wrapped around my waist. Shit, what the hell happened last night? All I could remember was that I was dancing with Tanner on the dance floor, at the club. Did I fuck Tanner, again? I thought, but the only problem was, that is wasn’t Tanner that I slept with, it was James.
I carefully moved James’ arms from around my waist, to realized that I was completely naked. Great. I quickly gathered my clothes, from his room, and went into my room. I finally found my phone and checked the time. 5:43 in the morning?! What the hell was I doing up? I tried to go back to sleep but, I couldn’t. So, I decided to get dressed and go make some coffee.
As soon as I walked into the kitchen, James had already gotten to the kitchen before me, again. When he saw me, he smiled and poured me a cup and handed it to me.
“How you feeling, today?” He asked.
“I could be better. I just wish I didn’t drink that much, but then again, Tanner was buying me drinks.” I said as James’ handed me the cup of coffee.
“So.” He said. I knew it was coming. One of us was going to bring it up sooner or later. “What would you like for breakfast?”
Breakfast? What the hell? I was hoping he would’ve asked me how my night was. Well, you know. I went to a club with Tanner, got drunk, and then came home and slept with the guy I’ve loved since the first time that I met him.
“Eggs, bacon, and toast sounds good.” I said, taking another sip of my coffee. James started to gather the stuff and started to cook. It was silent for a long time. I waited, hoping that I wouldn’t be the one to break the silence.
“So, about last night.” James said as he was putting the eggs, bacon and toast on plates. “I’m sorry that I took advantage of you last night. We shouldn’t of did it last night.” He then handed me a plate and he then sat down next to me and began to eat. Advantage of me? I was drunk and I’m pretty sure  I agreed to it.
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t of gotten that drunk last night.” I said. God, now I just screwed everything up for us.
“It’s not your fault. I should’ve gone with you.” he said as we looked at each other. Why couldn’t I kiss him again? It just felt so good and right. I never thought that he would be okay with it, but he is a guy with needs. “But I have something that I want to ask.”
“Okay, what is it?” I asked as he took a sip of coffee and then began to speak.
“Do you have feelings for me?” I froze in my seat. Shit! I’ve never been confronted before, or like this anyway. What was I going to say? Well, you know, I’ve loved you since I’ve gotten to know you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship, but your more of an older brother type. Oh, and I lost my virginity because I knew that you wouldn’t be the one who would take it.
I took another sip of coffee and began to clear my throat. “Well, if you want the truth, then yes I do have feelings for you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship or make anything weird between us. Last night was just a mistake.” Great, I guess I’m going to have to start looking for a new place to stay.
“To me, last night, wasn’t a mistake, but a beginning. I loved you since I first laid eyes on you, Jade. You were my best friend, a person I knew that I would always be with. To be honest, it killed me inside that that creep got to have you, before I even got a chance.” He then took a sip of coffee and faced his half-eaten plate of eggs. See, I knew this was going to happen. Fucking stupid drunk I am.
It was silent, again. I didn’t know how or what to say. I just finished my breakfast and then left the house. I had to get out of there before I say something that I might regret.
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Marie’s POV
“Please just answer your phone, James. ” I said, tears falling down my cheek. He dumped me last night, without any reason to why. Plus, he made Tanner tell me that it was over? I just didn’t get it. I’ve been in my bed, since last night and it’s almost noon. I didn’t want to eat or sleep, nothing. I just wanted to know why.
“Knock, knock. You okay?” Tanner said knocking on my door and entering my room. He sat down on the side of my bed. “You hungry? I’m thinking about going out for lunch and I was wondering if you want to come with?” He wiped my tears away and I gave him a small smile.
“Yeah, I need to get out of the house anyway.” I said. “Plus, I was also wondering if we could stop by James’ house.” I got out of bed and went to my dresser and picked out an outfit. Tanner got up from the bed and started to head to the door.
“I guess we could stop by. I’ll be waiting downstairs when your done getting ready.” Tanner said as he left my room. I then quickly got dressed and met my brother downstairs. We then got into his truck and drove to Sandy’s. Sandy’s was like a old fashion restaurant that felt like home. I was my favorite place to eat.
As soon as we got it, we were seated right away. It wasn’t very busy today. Tanner order his usual, Bacon Cheeseburger with fries and I order a salad with Shrimp Pasta.
“So, Tanner. Do you know exactly why James broke up with me?” I said to break the silence after the waiter left with our orders.
“He loves someone else, Marie. I told you he was no good and besides, there are other guys who are better for you then he is.” As soon as Tanner said that first sentence, my heart started to hurt. Why would he lie to me?
“Oh,um, do you know who he loves?” I asked, Tanner took a sip of his drink and then began to speak. “He’s in love with Jade.” Tanner looked upset too. What wouldn’t he just tell me this by him own mouth? I would’ve understood.
“What’s wrong with you, Tanner? Seems like you and her had a little history going on.” I said. Then the waiter came out with our lunch and then left.
“Let’s just say, I really like her, but I can’t have her.” he said and then started to eat his burger. I have to do something, if not, then I wont be here anymore…

Another new chapter will be out Monday! If you are still not patient and want to know what happens next, look up Unclear on Wattpad or search my username, katieasehl. You will also see some other books I have written as well!

Chapter 5: Uh, Oh –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/11/my-writing-unclear-uh-oh-chapter-5/

Posted in Wrestling (WWE)

WWE Smackdown Live – Randy Orton (Superstar Of The Week)

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The Viper, Randy Orton, has been in WWE since the Attitude Era, which was one of my favorite Eras of WWE. Currently, we haven’t seen much of this Superstar due to an knee injury. Randy was never one to disappoint in the ring.

I think that we can all agree that we got pumped up and excited for him to give anyone a RKO. Plus he was the youngest Superstar to every become a WWE Champion. Orton has been a fan favorite for years, and his Championship list is quite impressive, too.

Orton is a father to 3 girls, 1 from his first married and two from his second. He was also one of the many Superstars that were involved with the WWE Steroid case.

He has had feuds with the Undertaker, Triple H, etc. His last feud was with Bray Wyatt, and he basically became a part of the Wyatt family, then burned down sister Abigail resting place.

The Viper is known to be the badass of the WWE roster. Raw or Smackdown Live are lucky to have him. Now, we just have to sit and wait until he is medically cleared to get back into the ring. My guess, is that he is going to go after Jeff Hardy, but who knows what WWE Creative Team will direct Orton.

List of Champions:

  • World Heavy Weight Champion – 4 times
  • Tag Team Champion with Edge – 1 time
  • WWE Champion – 9 times
  • WWE Intercontinental Champion – 1 time
  • WWE Smackdown Live Tag Team Champion with Bray Wyatt and Luke Harper – 1 time
  • WWE United States Champion – 1 time
  • Money in the Bank Winner – 2013
  • Royal Rumble Winner – 2009 and 2017

Check out next Wednesday for another Superstar of the Week! Every other week I will switch between the two. Once a month, I will talk about a Hall Of Famer, which will be a surprise! Keep an eye out for those as well!

Posted in Arts and Crafts

Crafty Sassy!

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Crafters and Artists, welcome to another new topic! I know there haven’t been any activity on this page, yet. I wanted to give you guys a heads up on when I am going to start posting stuff like this!

So, as you know, I love to work with my hands, so I love doing projects. In the past couple months, I have been working really hard on a latch hook gift that needed to be completed ASAP.

Now, that is done, my hands a free and I have been taking the time to get a little bit of writing done on my blog in general. Starting next week, I plan on taking the time and making my Crafty Sassy a new topic to people who love to work with their hands and create something new!

Every Tuesdays, I will be posting Crafty Sassy stuff! It can be of anything, from knitting to DIY or to even cute little ideas that you can do with the kids. It is going to be a little bit of everything.

If anyone is a crafty person, like myself, and there was something you wanted me to try out or show how to do, leave a comment down below or contact me and I will give it a try!

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Unclear – Does He Love Me? (Chapter 3)

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Good Morning my dearies! Ready for Chapter 3? Well, here it is as our usual Monday thing that we do on my blog! 

If you haven’t read Chapter 2, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/28/my-writing-unclear-chapter-2-the-mistake-chapter-2/

*Warning* There may be some mature content. I did write this back in high school, so this isn’t my very best work! I do believe there is a few dirty scenes, so read at your own risk! And of course enjoy!

~Does He Love Me?~

I decided that I didn’t want to sit and mope about my mother. So, I decided to go get some coffee. I ordered the same thing every time, Mocha Frappe. I ended up siting down, at the Cafe, and going through my Facebook. God, everyone was just so bitchy. I really do hate social media. It’s only good for one thing, starting drama. It makes me think of my old high school days, fighting about boys, looks, preps, and trying to state your opinion.
Honestly, I’m glad that I had James and Savannah by my side, otherwise, I wouldn’t have been able to make it through high school. Speaking of VanVan, I might as well text her. I was just about to text her until my phone started to ring. It was my mother, again.
“Doesn’t she get that I don’t want to talk.” I said silently to myself.
“Ignoring someone?” A familiar voice spoke and as I looked up from my phone, Tanner had already sat down next to me with a cup of coffee in his hand.
“Oh, hi, Tanner.” I said. Didn’t he get that this was totally awkward?  Well, for me it is because, since I am a normal human being, I respect myself and don’t go bragging about who I slept with.
“Hello, Jade. So, who is being ignored, by a beauty, such as yourself.”
“Actually, it’s called, ‘ignoring my mother because she apparently thinks that it’s okay to not tell me things, such as the truth.” I looked up at Tanner, but I didn’t notice how beautiful his eyes were.
“Well, if it makes you feel any better, my parents walked out on us, almost 3 years ago.”
“I’m so sorry about that. Have they made any contact to you?” I felt bad, knowing that his parents walked out on him and his little sister. I can’t imagine that happening to me.
“I’m here, if you want to talk about parenting problems.”
“No, I’m fine.”
“You sure?”
“Yes, I’m fine. Can you just stop asking me if I’m fine?” God, this guy is caring way too much about me. Homeboy is getting attached.
“Okay, calm down, I’ll stop.” I was glad that he stopped and took a sip of my iced coffee. “The real reason why I came over was because Marie wants to do a double-date. Her and James, and I’ll be your date. James is all on board with the idea.” A double-date?? With HIM?? I just wanted one night of fun, not a serious relationship. Not yet, anyway.
“No thanks, I’ve got a boyfriend.” I lied.
“Really now? You suddenly have a boyfriend now? It was less than a week ago that we slept together.” My eyes widen. What did I ask him to do? Never to mention this! Fuck!
“Don’t say another word about that night. It was a drunken mistake. Just forget about it.” I said and got up and walked out of the Cafe and over to my Jeep. Of course, Tanner follows me right out to my car.
“Wait, Jade. That’s the thing, I can’t stop thinking about that night or you.” I stopped in my path. Oh, god. I turned to face him. God, his eyes were so dreamy. I then went ahead and spoke.
“You need to. It was a mistake. If you want a booty call, go ask the neighborhood sluts, not me.” I then turned back around and got into my car. He then came over to the drivers side window. Was he not fucking done talking?
“Why are you pushing me away? I know you felt something for me, that night. You can’t lie about that.” I couldn’t. It was true. Even though, I didn’t remember the full night, some parts aren’t too blurry. Being with him that night, was honestly, the happiest I’ve been in a long time. I didn’t want to feel good. I just wanted to have fun and being in a relationship, right now, is not the plan.
“I’m sorry, I have to go. I’m not doing this, Tanner.” I said as he backed away from the car and I pulled away. God, why does love hurt so much? Plus it’s also so confusing.
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I then drove back to the house. James was home, but I wasn’t in the mood to talk to him. I then walked to the shore. I took my shoes off and sat down on the sand and felt the cold ocean water touch my toes. This was my only escape. The beach. Honestly, the only reason why I lived next to my mother, was because she lived by the beach as well.
But, what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I stop thinking about Tanner and James? I love James, but Tanner doesn’t want to be, just my friend. What if I give him a chance? Will it be weird? I know better than that to fall in love. I’ve made that mistake once, and he still doesn’t know. But, what if he loves me? I just wish that everything was back to normal. Mom was single and not pregnant, James wasn’t talking to other girls, and Mandy and Dad were alive and well.
I was thinking so hard that I forgot to notice that there was someone behind me, which, by the way, scared the shit out of me.
“Well, JJ. What’s wrong, girl?” I knew that voice. It was Savannah, my other best friend. She sat down next to me and gave me a side hug. “I’m sorry I couldn’t make it to your party, last week.”
“I know, it’s fine. How’s Ricky?” I smiled. She then looked at me and smiled back. “He’s doing good, but he misses his auntie.” I laughed.
“Well, of course he does! I’m the cool aunt that gives him everything that you can’t.” I smiled, she knew I was joking around.
“Well, at least you want to make an effort to see him.”
“Still no word from Connor?”
“Nope. He never wanted a kid to begin with.” I hated Connor from the moment I met him.
Connor DeVoid was a player and a spoiled brat. His parents would let him get away with anything. He would also have the biggest parties in high school. He still does now, but he moved to L.A., to get away from his duties of being a father. What really made me and Savannah hate him even more, was that his parents tried to PAY Savannah to get an abortion. I knew Savannah couldn’t do that. Ever since we were little, she would always talk about being a mother, someday. She did, and still is today.
After a little long silent pause, Savannah looked up at me and I knew what she was about to ask. “So what’s going on with your Mom?” I knew it. James spilled the beans to her about me being upset about my mom. The good thing about having James as a friend, was that he would never lied about what was going on.
“Well, you know how I moved out 5 months ago?”
“Yeah, what about it?”
“Come to find out that my mom has been seeing this guy, ‘Frank’, for over a year now. And that they decided to not tell me that they were engaged or that they were planning on eloping until last week.”
“What?! Your mother isn’t like that.” Savannah looked as surprised as I were when I found out.
“I know, but to top it all off.” I paused and looked at the ocean to find someone sailing by on a sail boat. “She’s also 5 months pregnant with twins.” Savannah’s month dropped.
“OH MY GOD! Are you serious, right now?!”
“Yup. I found out all of that, last week. That’s why I didn’t answer you very much on the night of the party.”
“Ah, that’s why. James ended up texting me that you were fine, but forget about that, how was the party?”
“It was a fun-hungover-blurry night. I met someone, too.”
“Oooo, details!”
“Well, I don’t remember much, but I did get really drunk and had sex with Marie’s, older brother.” I then covered my face in shame.
“Wait, James Marie??”
“Yes…” I said very quietly.
“Jade!” Savannah shouted.
“What!?”
“Does James know?”
“Yes…”
“Well, for fucks sake! I thought you loved James?”
“I do, it’s just, he doesn’t like me that way and I was too drunk not to say no.”
“What are you feeling now? About everything?” When she asked me that, I didn’t know what to say. I loved James, but Tanner makes me feel, I don’t know…special.
“I actually don’t know.” Then my phone went off. It was a text from Tanner. I forgot that I gave him my number the morning after the party.
Tanner: Hey, you busy tonight? I was wondering if you wanted to hit up the club tonight. No funny business, I promise.
“Speak of the devil. Who is it?” Savannah asked. I frowned and showed her the message. She looked up at me and smiled. “Go out tonight. Have a good time and I promise that I will make a day where it is just us.”
“I really don’t-” Savannah stopped what I was saying and helped me up. “No, you are going. Now, get something nice on and go have fun! I’ve got to go, but I will text you tomorrow for the details of last night.”
We hugged each other and I walked her to her car and then went inside to get ready to go clubbing with Tanner. I texted him saying to pick me up at 7. I’m just wondering how tonight will play out. I breathed and then said to myself, don’t make the same mistake last time.
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As soon as Savannah left, I took a sip of wine and then went upstairs to get ready. I thought that tonight would be a good night to wear a dress. Hey, I felt like dressing sexy, nothing wrong with that other than people judging you, but at this point, I couldn’t give two shits. I just wanted to get drunk tonight and see what happens with Tanner.
Once I was done getting ready, I went into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of wine and sat down at the island, while I waited for Tanner to come and get me.
“So, someone’s going out tonight, I see.” James said as he came in and grabbed a beer out of the fridge. “You going out with Savannah?”
“Nope, actually I’m going out with Tanner, tonight. Savannah couldn’t, she had to leave because she got a call from the babysitter that Ricky wasn’t feeling good.” When I mentioned Tanner’s name, he froze.
“Oh, um, why are you going out with him?” He looked a little upset, but if he was upset, he was hiding it pretty well. But why the hell did he care, now? He didn’t seem to when he found out that we fucked, about a week ago.
“Well, since you and Marie are dating now, I thought that I should get to know him a little better. He seems like a nice guy. Don’t you think?” I took another sip of my wine.
“I guess. I don’t really know him well enough. Just be careful tonight, okay?” He looked worried and I nodded. Then I heard Tanner’s car pull up to our house. I heard a car door slam. Oh, great. He decided to come in and make the whole situation awkward.
“Well, looks like he’s here. I’ll see you later.” I said as I finished the last bit of wine and started walking to the door. I saw Tanner, who looked rather hot this evening. He smiled when he saw me as I opened the door.
“Wow, you look,” He paused for a moment and then pulled out a rose from behind his back. “Beautiful.”
I felt my face warming up when he handed me the rose and our skin touched each others. Oh, god, I’m blushing so much!
“T-Thank you, but is it okay for me to got put this in a vase? You can come in and sit on the couch while I go take care of this.” I asked and Tanner came in and sat down on the couch.
“Yeah, that’s fine, but hurry up, I’ve got the car running.” As soon as he said that, I found a vase and placed the single rose in the vase. God, this reminded me of my dad. He used to give us girls roses every year for Valentines Day. Even when Valentine’s Day was on a school day, he used to call Mandy and I down to the office and hand us our roses.
I placed the vase on my bed-stand and walked back out to the living. Come to find out that Marie was here. Why is she here? I frowned, but then took a deep breath and placed a smile on my face. Marie was sitting next to James, but once Tanner saw me coming down the hall, he got up and walked over to the door.
“Ready?” He smiled and I nodded my head. We then both got into his car and drove to the only nightclub in town.
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James’ POV
“I wonder what time they’ll be home by?” Marie said as we were cuddling in my bedroom. It was nice to have Marie around. We have so much in common, but there’s one problem, Jade.
I’ve started to get feelings for Jade our Junior year in high school. The only reason why I haven’t told her my feelings, is because I don’t want to lose her or this friendship. I just wished I wasn’t so scared to tell her.
I looked up at Marie and smiled. “I’m not sure, but the clubs will start to close soon, anyway.” Marie then smiled back at me.
“Hey, James?” She spoke after a few minutes of silence.
“Yeah?”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Of course. What is it?” I asked. I wonder what she’s thinking?
“Well, I was wondering why you haven’t kissed me yet.” Marie sat up and so did I, but we have only been going out for almost a week. I was planing on kissing her for the first time tonight, but ever since Jade has gone out with Tanner, tonight, I kinda just want go to sleep and forget the night.
“Well,” I said, “I was waiting for the perfect moment.”
That was a lie. Well, not completely, but I’m just not in the mood for romantic stuff tonight. Come on, Jade, get back home.
Marie turned and faced me. “Well, how about we make this night a perfect moment.” The she closed her eyes and she came closer to my face. Fuck! I can’t kiss her! Then I heard a door open and Jade’s high heels clicking against the floor. Well it’s about time she’s home.
“I-I’m HOMEEE, BITCHES!” Jade shouted and then tripped walking on the carpet. Tanner was trying to keep her steady, but when Jade’s drunk, that’s impossible. Believe me, I know.
“I’m guessing your drunk?” I said as I looked up at Jade. She smiled and then fell down again. Tanner then picked her up and handed her to me.

“D-drunker than a s-skunk!” She then burped and then rested her head on my neck. It felt perfect. I quickly snapped out of it and looked at Marie.

“Well, I got to take care of her, but I will talk to you tomorrow?” I asked and she nodded and kissed me on the check. I then started to walk down the hall to the bathroom and laid her on the floor. I knew she was going to start puking soon. “I’ll be right back with some water, okay?” She nodded and rested her arms around the toilet seat.
I then walked out of the bathroom to find Tanner still here. I thought he would’ve been gone by now. “What are you still doing here?” I asked.
“We need to talk about Marie.” He said. Now what? I thought he was fine will Marie and I dating?
“About?”
“You need to stop this before it gets worse.”
“Stop what?” What the hell was he talking about?

“You need to break up with Marie. I don’t want her to be with someone who is going to lead her on, when you are in love with someone else.”
“What? I’m not in love with someone else. Leave, now.”
“Not until you break up with my sister, now.” He said as I could hear Jade starting to puke. “She’s in the car. I’ll take care of Jade.” I stopped right in front of him. “Move out of the way.”
“No. She is my best friend, I’ll take care of her.” He looked pissed off.
“What about my sister?” He asked I heard Jade puking even louder. I turned around, so my back was facing him. “Just tell her it’s over.” I then walked into the bathroom. Jade was laying on the floor and as soon as I walked in, she smiled.
“How are you feeling?” I asked as I helped her up.
“B-better, can you come w-with me to m-my r-room?” I nodded and she then walked out of the bathroom to her room. “W-wait, o-outside.”
I sat outside her room, waiting for what was going to happen next. My phone went off and it was a text message from Marie. I’ll answer her later, right now, Jade is the only important thing. When I looked up from my phone, Jade came out of here room and was only in her bra and underwear. She looked beautiful, but I know that I shouldn’t take advantage of her like that. She then posed in a some-what sexy drunken pose.
“Y-you like what you s-see?” she spoke. Of course I did, but I didn’t want to do something that she might regret in the morning.
“I’m gonna head to bed, now. So, sleep tight and I’ll see you in the morning.” I said as she frowned. I then left her room and climbed into bed. Why did she had to be drunk? I just didn’t want to take advantage of her. I then turned my alarm on and closed my eyes.
I started to fall asleep, but I felt someone get in the blankets and on top of me. I looked up, it was Jade.
“What are you doing, Jade? Go back to bed.” I said as she then placed a finger over my mouth. she leaned in closer and said: “Don’t talk. Just k-kiss me.”
When her lips touched mine, it was like sparks. I couldn’t get enough of it. This was the first time that Jade and I have ever kissed. I just didn’t think it would feel this good. I then flipped her on her back on my bed and kissed her again. She would laugh when I would place kisses on her neck. I loved her laugh.
She then started to take off my shirt. I stopped and looked at her beautiful eyes. “Are you sure you want to continue?” I asked.
Jade brought my head down to hers, our lips, almost touching and then she spoke.
“I’ve b-been wanting this for a l-long time.” I smiled and she smiled back. “Now, shut up and kiss me!”
I did what she said to do. I couldn’t believe that I was going to make love to the woman that I’ve loved for 7 years.

Tune in next Monday for chapter 4! If you aren’t so patient and want to read the rest, check out the rest of ‘Unclear’ on Wattpad. Just look up my username, katieasehl!

Chapter 4: What’s Wrong With Me?
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Mom Talk: Is It Wrong For Parents To Express Themselves?

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Everything in the world today is changing. Especially how we raise our children. What about the parents who have tattoos? Or piercing? Or colored their hair? A lot of the other generations judge these parents who express themselves. Why is it that we can’t express ourselves as parents?

It’s not typically to see a mother with bright pink hair and tattoos. A lot of the older generations would say that its very immature to have tattoos and brightly colored hair and be a mother. Or they might say that’s what’s wrong with this generations upbringing.

I believe that parents who get piercings, tattoos, or dye their hair, they are showing their children that its okay to express yourself. So what those parents have tattoos that show. Who cares? They are expressing themselves.

I have always wanted to dye my hair a dark maroon color, ever since high school, but I was afraid to because I didn’t want anyone to thing that I was copying them. To this day, I still haven’t dyed my hair that color.

Not only that, I have always wanted to get a tattoo of my son. See, a lot of people think that tattoos are a waste, but there is always a meaning to each one. My fiance has a beautiful tattoo that was for our son.

As parents, we have a right to show our children that expressing ourselves is not wrong to do. We, as parents, want our child to express themselves like when we were younger. Never tell your child that they can’t express themselves.

I wanted to have my nosed pierced and more of my ears or dye my hair, but I never really was able to. I was more afraid to ask and get shot done.

Now, as an adult, I can do these things. I don’t care if my fiance and I walk down the street covered in tattoos and have dyed our hair or got more piercings. As long as our children have everything they need and bills are paid, there is nothing wrong spending some money on ourselves.

After all, we only live once.

So next time you see parents that have dyed hair, tattoos, and piercing, don’t judge them. They are just showing that expressing ourselves is completely okay to do.

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Mom Talk: Dealing With Being Frustrated

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As all parents know, we are bound to get frustrated with our kids, lifestyle, work, etc. How to deal with it, can be very difficult. Especially, when you are a stay-at-home mom. It’s even worse when you suffer from depression.

I get frustrated. I can admit that. A lot of people can’t.

I get frustrated over little things, that I can do nothing about. I get frustrated over the bigger things that I can’t fix. Sometimes, there is nothing you can do, until the time is right to fix something. Or in my case, money always frustrates me.

Sometimes I get very frustrated with my daughter. I get frustrated when she cries and there is nothing I can do to help her. Do I take it out on her? No. I put her in her crib, play pen, or anywhere where I know she won’t hurt herself. I then take a deep breathe, count to ten and then go back to my daughter and try to take care of her the best I can.

Another reason why I get very frustrated is that I haven’t felt comfortable to leave my daughter with anyone, yet. I bet you are all thinking or saying that I need a break. I do, but with my past history, it’s very hard to do.

Losing my son, is making it difficult to leave her with anyone. I feel that if I do, I am going to freak out, if she were to spend the night somewhere, or I would get that call that something is wrong. The only people that really understand what I am going through, are mother who have lost a baby.

My daughter is 7 months old and I am starting to realize that she just wants me, which frustrates me because I want to get stuff done in the house. I know it’s my fault, but it’s hard to let go. It’s like when your child goes in for their first day of preschool, its hard to watch them go.

Anyway, being frustrated doesn’t mean you are a bad parent, it means you need to take a step back and try different ways to relax your frustration. I’ve counted to 10, that has helped. Closing your eyes, working out, doing a hobby, or if you are in a pickle, closing your eyes and relaxing them to a second.

Meditation is what I’m going to try and get into because of the fact that I still don’t feel 100% comfortable to leave my daughter with anyone, yet.

If you are like me and can’t leave your child, for whatever reason, start with an hour. Leave your child with your spouse and see how you do. Try it out with different family family members and then slowly leave them for more that an hour or two.

When you know that baby is comfortable and you finally feel comfortable, then leave them with family for a night. You just have to get to, not only your comfort zone, but your child’s as well.

Another way to deal with frustration, is to talk to someone, someone you know that wouldn’t mind listening to whatever is frustrating you. Airing it out is a lot better than keeping it in. I know how hard it is to talk to someone, but you don’t want it to keep it all in.

Before it’s too late and then you end up screaming at someone.