Posted in Wrestling (WWE)

WWE Raw – Superstar Of The Week (Zack Ryder)

I’ve decided that until I can get back on track with the WWE Recaps, I will post once a week of a different Superstar. This week will be Raw and next week will be Smackdown. 

Zack Ryder has been in the WWE for quite some time. He is known for his ‘woo, woo, woo’ chants.  Currently, we haven’t seen him as much, lately.

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He is one of those wrestlers who was given a weird catchphase, but it as become popular in the past years it’s been used. Kinda like the Miz ‘awesome’. Annoying to hear, but very catchy.

This Superstar has one the following titles in WWE:

  • WWE Intercontinental Championship – 1 time (2016)
  • WWE Tag Team Championship with Curt Hawkins – 1 time (2008)
  • WWE United States Championship – 1 time (2011)

So, he hasn’t had much of a Championship luck as other Superstars do, but hopefully, Vince will want to give him a bigger push. He almost had another Tag Team Title, with Mojo Rawley as part of the Hype Bros, but unfortunately, Ryder had gotten injured and was out for several months after.

At this point, it doesn’t seem that Ryder has been pushed very much, like every other Superstar, he is currently in a feud with his ex Hype Bros partner, Mojo Rawley. He did have a match for the next contender for the United States Title, but he wasn’t successful.

As much as I love this Superstar, I have a feeling that he will be released soon, due to him not getting a big enough push. Worst comes to worst, he might end up like all other former Superstars.

Anyway, lets get down into his personal life. Something that I didn’t know about Ryder, was that he was suffering from and overcame cancer that was in his foot and spread to his lungs, back when he was in high school.

Ryder is also a big fan of Ghostbusters and started to date Laurel Van Ness, who is also a wrestler, not for WWE.

If you want to see Zack Ryder, he also has a YouTube channel where he currently vlogs. It’s called Long Island Iced Z, Ryder started the series to promote his character on WWE. Unfortunately, he hasn’t had a new video in over 2 years.

If you haven’t checked it out, click this link here: https://www.youtube.com/user/LongIslandIcedZ/featured

That’s a wrap up from the ‘Woo Woo Man’. Next Wednesday, keep an eye out for the Smackdown Superstar of the week. once a month, I will surprise you with a WWE Hall of Famer of the Month. Since the month of May is coming to a end, keep and eye out in June for that!

 

 

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Mom Talk: The Aftermath Of Having Babies

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Babies given our life full of joy, over-tiredness, happiness, exhaustion, etc. We carried them for 9 months, experienced all of their movements and felt them grow inside us over time. No one really talks about what happens after birth, what happens to us mother after the baby is born.

I think that no one wants to see the aftermath of having a child because it’s not pretty. I’ve had natural births, so I don’t know if it is the same aftermath with a c-section. Forewarning you, some of this stuff that I will be talking about might be really gross for some of you, so if you don’t have a really strong stomach, I wouldn’t continue to read.

Once you get to the end of your pregnancy, you might be at that point where you just want your kid to come out. No joke. For me, that statement was 100% true. I loved being pregnant, but the further you get, the more uncomfortable it is. Especially if you were pregnant during the summer.

With my son, I was induced, due to his condition. Being induced was a bitch. It was a lot more painful vs. having your child naturally. My daughter wasn’t needed to be induced, thank god.

When you start to go through labor, from my view, its not bad until you hit that 6-7 cm. Then you kinda just want to grab your spouse and want to punch them in the nuts, but don’t really do that.

The pain and everything went away when I had my children in my arms, or once I saw them. Everyone things that it’s such a happy time, well, you are dead wrong. If you have your children naturally, be prepared to bleed for the next couple weeks.

That pregnancy glow you once had, has changed to a Walking Dead add on. To this day, my daughter is 7 months old, and I still look like a Walking Dead extra. Then again, pj’s are my best friend.

Your boobs hurt, if you are breastfeeding, I was only able to do it for a little bit, but to this day, they will always leak. Not to mention that it hurts to go to the bathroom, to me, I felt that I was in labor again after the first time. For that first month or two, you feel like shit. You feel even worst when baby blues or depression hits you at the same time.

It’s all worth it in the end, they tell you. Well, the one thing that isn’t worth it, and I still have this issue, peeing when you sneeze. You are stuck with that in the end too. Hell, I have to hold my sneeze unless I want to pee myself. At this point, you are better off wearing Depends now.

 

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Unclear – The Mistake (Chapter 2)

Happy Monday dearies! Here is the next chapter! Warning, the next couple chapters might have some mature content. Again, I wrote this back in high school and it’s not completely proof read, so try not to judge as much. I have been thinking about rewriting this, but haven’t have enough motivation to do so. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 1, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/21/my-writing-unclear-10-years-later-chapter-1/

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~The Mistake~

Then, I bumped into this person.
“Hey, I’m s-shaking my ass here, d-dude!” I know when I’m drunk when I start talking like that, but I didn’t care. I was having the time of my life right now.
“I’m sorry. I must of not seen you.” A deep voice spoke, it sounded like a guy, but he was nice enough to help me up.
“Thanks, but y-you own me a-another drink.”
“I think you have had enough.” He said taking my empty glass away and placing it on the bar. He then came back with a water bottle in his hand. “Here, this will help.”
“If this a-ain’t alcohol, I d-don’t want it.”
“Just drink it.” I then did what I was told and drank some of the water.
“I-I think I need to g-go to bed, n-now.” I said as I turned around and walked up to my room. The guy, who helped me, came up with me. Of course, I didn’t care. I was way too drunk to care. All I know, that I wanted to throw up and then, maybe, make-out with someone. Anyone. I didn’t care who.
I then felt the vomit coming up my throat and I ran into my bathroom. He followed and held my hair up for me.
“I-I’m s-sorry.” I felt that I needed to apologize for puking. Nice going, Jade. I thought to myself.
“Don’t be sorry. It happens when you drink a little more than expected. I’m Tanner.” He said as I got up and brushed my teeth. I liked him. He was totally hot, plus he seemed like he used to play on the football team. “And you are?”
“Jade.”
“That’s a-” Before he could finish his sentence, I stopped him. I went up to him and started to make-out with him. After I pulled away, he looked surprised. I then pointed my finger at him and told him to follow me.
Once we were in my room. It was on. Hardcore make-out section and clothes were starting to come off. Of course, I wasn’t thinking, but all I wanted was someone to fuck me. And this guy, was perfect for the invite. The only thing that wasn’t on my mind, for once, was James.
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I woke up the next morning with a killer headache. My head was killing me. I didn’t remember a thing last night. I’m glad that I didn’t, but I was paying for it now. I felt arms around my waist, as I turned to find a guy in my bed. Shit. I slowly got up and went to the bathroom, hoping that I didn’t wake up my unexpected guest that was in my bed.
I got dressed and then walked back in my room to find, the guy, gathering the rest of his clothes.
“Well, good morning.” He spoke and I sat on the edge of my bed.
“Who are you?” I honestly couldn’t think of his name. Let alone, remember last night.
“You don’t remember?”
“Not really.”
“I’m Tanner. Marie’s older brother.” I froze when he said that last part. Did I just have sex with Marie’s older brother?? Oh god, I’m so dead when James finds out.
“Right.”
“I guess I should go now.” As he threw his shirt over his head.
“Yeah, I’ve got to get ready for work.” I lied as I made my bed.
“Well, it was nice to meet you, Jade.” Before he could leave, I stepped in front of the door.
“One more thing.” I said as he waited for me to finish my sentence. “Can you not tell anybody about this?”
“Of course. Bye Jade.” He said as he left my bedroom.
I just couldn’t believe that this Tanner guy, is Marie’s older brother. I am so stupid!
As soon as I calmed down, I went downstairs and made myself a cup of coffee. Once the coffee was ready, I headed into the living room, to find James watching the news.
“Well, well, how are you feeling?” James said as he knew I was hungover. He loved to pick on my for that.
“Haha, very funny.” I said in a sarcastic tone. “I feel like shit. How was your night?” I said, taking a sip off of my coffee.
“It was alright. Marie and I talked all night long.” He smiled. I hated it when he talked about other girls. Why couldn’t that be me? I’ve loved James since I met him. He was always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. We’ve been best friends for over 7 years. Losing him, would be losing my whole world. I just wish I had the courage to tell him how I feel.
“Cool.”
“Yeah, we are even official.” As soon as he said those words, my heart dropped. He only knew her for a month and they made it official? I nodded and took another sip of my coffee. I just couldn’t believe this!
There was a little of an awkward silence, until I had the guts to speak. “I met her older brother.” I said as he looked towards me and then spoke his name. “Tanner?” I nodded my head and then he turned and faced the T.V..
“I bet you did get to know him, alright.” He smirked and I punched his arm.
“So? It’s not like you haven’t had a one-night-stand before.”
“I have, but I think you like him.” My face got red. He knew it would. I get embarrassed when he assumes that I have a crush on anyone.
Before I could answer him, my cell phone started to go off. As I looked at the screen, I could see the caller I.D. to be my mother calling, again.
“Ugh, doesn’t she know to give me space.” I said as I hung up on her. I didn’t want to speak to her. She knew that, but knowing my mother, she thinks that I have all the space in the world, just because we live right next to each other.
“Who did you just hang up on?” James questioned as I placed my phone on the coffee table.
“My mother.”
“Why? Does this has something to do about yesterday?” Of course, I forgot to tell him about what went on between my mom and I. I took a deep breath and then began to speak.
“Long story short. She started seeing someone and didn’t bother to tell me, but as soon as I move out, she has this new guy move in.” I paused as James kept looking at me. His eyes are so beautiful. I quickly snapped out of it and then spoke again. “Not to mention that she and this ‘Frank’ guy, ran off and got married without me.”
“Wow. Anything else?” James looked surprised as I was when I found out. I then placed my coffee mug on the coffee table.
“She’s also 5 months pregnant with twins.” I then started to cry, a little. I just couldn’t believe my mother would forget to call me or message me to say that she was getting married. It hurt a lot. Especially, when she told me all of that yesterday.
James saw my tears and wiped them away. “I’m so sorry, Jade. I wish there was something I could do for you.”
I hugged him close and then looked up at him. “Never leave me. Like Mandy and Dad did.” As soon as I said that, waterfall of tears came down my cheek.
“I promise.” Those were the only words that he spoke, but I kept repeating it in my head. I promise. Hopefully, he will never break that promise.
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Marie’s P.O.V.
Where the hell is he? It’s almost 10 in the morning! I don’t even know if he came home last night. Maybe he left? Just like Mom and Dad did. He can’t. He’s all I got. I sat there and started to cry, thinking about the day my parents left us.
It hurts just thinking about it.
All of a sudden, the door opened and Tanner walked in. I wiped my tears and ran to Tanner. Hugging him as tight as I could. He hugged me back. He smelled like alcohol. I pulled away and crossed my arms.
“Where were you!?! I thought you left me!” I yelled at him. Tears started to fall down on my face when I said that last sentence. Tanner hugged me again.
“Calm down. I would never leave you.” He spoke and I stopped crying. I looked up to my brother. “Where were you though?” I said as he and I walked into our living room. I sat down on the couch and Tanner took off his jacket and threw it right next to me.
“I drank a little too much and I ended up passing out on your boyfriends couch. I’m sorry. I should’ve texted you, but I will make it up to you.”
“Oh, that was nice of James. Speaking of which, I’m gonna go out to the sun room and call him.” I said as I got up and smiled.
“I’ll be upstairs if you need me.” He said as he walked up the stairs to his room. As soon as he was out of sight, I ran outside to the the sun room. My mother and father build it for me because they wanted be to a great painted, like my grandmother. The only issue was, my grandmother wasn’t just a painter, she was also a witch.
I learned everything from her, but my mom, dad, and Tanner should never find out about this. They would disown me for good. The only reason why my grandmother showed me about her secret, is because she wanted me to find the love of my life. Since I didn’t get my good looks from my mom, my grandmother cast a spell to make me beautiful, but there is only one issue.
Before my 21st birthday, I must do three things, otherwise, I will die and my family will be cursed forever. Since my grandmother cast that spell, it wasn’t just for good looks, I also must produce a baby with the one I cast a love spell over.
And so, that is why I met James. He is the one, that I’ve chosen to create a child with. Sadly, it might be harder than I expected. You see, I can’t cast a spell on someone who is already in love with someone else. I could, but it’s dark magic. My grandmother told me that if I keep using dark magic, my heart will slowly begin to turn black.
Sadly, that’s how she died. Too much dark magic she was casting.
There must be another why to have him fall out of love with Jade.

Next chapter will be out next week! As usual, if you don’t want to wait for the next chapter, look me up on Wattpad for the story ‘Unclear’ by katieasehl. Thanks for reading!

Chapter 3: Does He Love Me? –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/04/my-writing-unclear-does-he-love-me-chapter-3/

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Mom Talk: Dealing With The Loss Of A Child

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As you all might know, or will find out, I lost my first born son, before he turned a month old. His birthday is next month and I wanted to talk to you about the loss of a child. Whether they were on this Earth for 5 years or two days, it still hurts the same.

June 25th, is coming soon, which is also my son’s birthday. He would have been two years old. As the month has been coming up, I haven’t been the same.

Last year, this time, I was working and was pregnant for my rainbow baby, my daughter. Work distracted me from the fact that I would celebrate his first birthday without him here. This year, he would have been two, and now that I am a stay-at-home mom, it has been really difficult.

You see, losing a child is very difficult to cope with, even at my age. I was 18, when I had him. I was 18, when we lost him. And because of losing him so soon, it made my fiance and I grow up a lot. What was the reason, you ask. Well, let me tell you.

When I was pregnant with my son, Liam, we found out he had a very serious disease, HLHS or Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. Meaning the left side of his heart was underdeveloped. At first I never even hear the term, but after watching a lot of Grey’s, they talk about it all the time.

They don’t have enough research to explain why it happen, but it just did. ‘It was the way cells formed’, is what all the doctors would tell us. None of us wanted to believe that it was true, but the ultrasounds said otherwise. Once he was born, he was going to be going through a lot up until he turns about 3. Well, as you know, he didn’t make to 3. He didn’t even make it to his first birthday.

Everything went well, with his first surgery, but a blood clot stopped his heart and he just went downhill from there. Another reason why it’s even harder to deal with the lost of a child, is when you are holding them when their heart stopped, not just once, but twice.

That story is for another day, which I haven’t decided whether to post it or not.

He died on in my arms, I know a lot of people might think I’m crazy, but to me, I wanted him to know that he was going to heaven in the comfort of his parents arms.

One thing that a lot of people tell me is to get over it. I can’t just get over it. It’s not something you get over with, it takes time to cope with the fact that they are no longer with us. I though, I believe he is always watching from up above.

Please, if you know anyone who has ever lost a child, don’t ever tell them they need to ‘get over it’. You are a terrible person for even thinking that, just saying. If anything, we need to comfort those who have lost love ones.

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Unclear – 10 Years Later (Chapter 1)

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So, here is the first chapter from my book! Last Monday I explained a little bit of what this is. If you haven’t read the intro, click on this link ——> https://katiesblog96971617.wordpress.com/2018/05/14/my-writing-unclear-intro/

Every Monday, I post another chapter of my book, that is on Wattpad, as well. If you want to read more and can’t wait, go to Wattpad and look for the book ‘Unclear’ by katieasehl. Enjoy!

~10 Years Later~

8:56 a.m.
I woke up and just laid in my bed. Ugh, why can’t I just sleep in? I didn’t have to work at the bookstore today, then why did I wake up so early? Then the smell of waffles entered my nose. Well, someone is up. I thought to myself.
James Grey was my best friend and my roommate. He has helped me through a lot, especially when I told him about my past. He had a kinda similar past, but his dad or older sister didn’t die. He lost his mom after she gave birth to him and ever since then, it’s been just him and his dad.
I finally got up and out of my warm cozy bed and went to shower and dress. After that I walked down the stairs to find James cooking waffles. He is such a great cook, I swear he should’ve became a professional chef. Then again, he is a wonderful musician.
I sat down at the island and watched him cook. I noticed that he had bags under his eyes, again. Someone stayed up late, again.
“Well, someone stayed up late, again. I’m surprised you didn’t sleep in.” I said as he started to mix another batch of waffles.
“Yeah, I was talking to someone last night.”
“Was it a girl?” I said with a smirk.
“Yes, if you need to know.” he said, placing the waffles on to a pan and into the oven.
“So, what’s this lucky girls name?”
He was quiet for a little bit, like he didn’t want to tell me, but I knew he would, eventually. Then he turned to face me and smiled. “Her name is Marie and she is perfect.”
“Is this the same girl that you have been talking to for over a month, now?”
“Yeah, I’m actually going to meet her tonight.” he then opened the oven and pulled out the waffles, just in time and then placed them on a plate.
“Wait, you haven’t met her yet?” I said as we both walked into the dining room with a plate of waffles and sat down.
“Not in person. I met her online.”
“So, your telling me that you are going to meet this “Marie” girl, that you met online? What if Marie is a he? Or a stalker? Or a murder?” I knew I was exaggerating, but I didn’t trust meeting people online. There are way too many creeps on there.
“JJ, calm down. Just because you had a bad experience with online dating, doesn’t mean it will happen to me. Plus I know what she looks like. We have been texting each other pictures of each other. Don’t you worry.”
“I worry because I care about you, James. I don’t need you getting screwed over by some lying bitch, pretending to be someone else.” I then started to eat and think about James situation. What would be a way where James can meet Marie, but not so private? “I’ve got it!”
I nearly scared the shit out of James. He looked up to me and gave me the look he always did when I had an idea.
“Let’s throw a party! It’s perfect because then you can meet her in a more public place and I can still make sure that you don’t get kidnapped. Plus, I have tonight off and I really want to party.” James looked at me like I was crazy. He never really liked to party unless he was really drunk or he was dragged along by me.
“Alright, but just this once. I think of it as a house welcoming party.” Of course he would. Sometimes I wonder why I’m friends with a party pooper.
“Yes, oh, and my mom is coming over today. She needs to tell me something.”
Any time my mom has to tell me something, it’s either good nor bad. Plus she hasn’t came over since James and I moved into our new house. I know something is up. I really don’t want to know what it is.
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After breakfast, James and I cleaned up our plates and then I waited outside on my porch for my mother. She said she would be here around 10 a.m., then again, she can be late sometimes.
James went back upstairs to play his drum set. Sometimes, that can become very annoying, then again, he’s not that bad, but I would rather him play his guitar.
Then I saw my mother walking over to my house. Since we live right next door from each other. My mom looked really big. She must of put on some pounds since I last saw her. As soon as she got closer, I could see that she wasn’t big, but looked like she was pregnant?!? When did this happen? Why didn’t she tell me about this? I couldn’t believe it.
“Hey sweetie! I’ve missed you.” my mother came up and hugged me tight. I hugged her back, but then pushed her away. She paused and then she caught my eye’s staring at her stomach. “Well, about this.” She rubbed her stomach.
“A-are you p-p-pregnant??” I thought I was dreaming. I even pinched myself, but this was all real. Way too real.
“Yes! Isn’t this exciting! You’re going to be a big sister!” She smiled and then placed her hands together. As I saw her fingers, the engagement and wedding ring that dad got her were replaced with a new wedding ring.
“What did you do to your engagement and wedding rings that dad gave you?” I wasn’t just upset, but finding out all of this now, was pissing me off.
“Well, hun. I knew you had been busy for the past few months, working, studying, and going to college. That I didn’t want to bring all of this up right away.” I crossed my arms and looked away from my mother. I couldn’t even stand to look at her right now. “Frank and I thought that we should tell you before the babies were born.”
Did I heard that right? Did she just say babies?! First I find out that she’s pregnant and that she’s remarried? Why didn’t she tell me this? I’m her daughter, why didn’t she tell me this when it all happened?
“Who the hell is Frank? And babies?! And you got remarried without your only daughter to witness it? What the hell kind of mother are you?” My mom then sat down next to me and tried to comfort me. I got up so fast that she had to blink a few times to notice I was standing, facing her. “What about dad? Did you ever think about him when you did all this?”
“Jade, your father has been gone for 10 years. I’ve learned to move on and I’m sure he wants me to be happy. I loved your father so much. After he passed away, all I had left was you. It’s time that we all moved on, hunny.” she spoke like she did when I first had a crush and he denied to go out with me.
“Then why didn’t you even tell me you got married?”
“Well, Frank and I thought it would be an amazing idea if we ran off and got married.”
“Without telling me. You didn’t even tell me you were seeing anyone. When did this happen?” I really wish dad was here, he would know what to do.
“We met about a year ago. We wanted to keep it a secret because I didn’t know how you would react to it. We got married after you moved out. Then about 5 months ago, I found out that I was pregnant.”
“You got pregnant after I moved out, 5 months ago?!? And you never even bothered to tell me? What is wrong with you! I’m the only thing you have left of dad and what you are doing, right now, is pushing me away. Go live your new happy life, mom. I can’t even look at you.” I was just about done with this conversation. I need a drink.
“But Jade-” I cutted her off. “Just leave. I don’t want to see you.” I then walked inside and poured myself a glass of wine. I needed it. This was all way too much.
I sat down on the couch and just sat there, thinking about everything that happened. Why would she do this to me? I thought she cared about me, but clearly, she doesn’t.
James then came downstairs and saw me crying, holding the bottle of wine in my hand. He sat down next to me and held me close. After a few minutes of silence, James spoke.
“I heard you yelling. You wanna talk about it, JJ?” I shock my head no and he nodded. James knew I would talk about it later. That’s why I’m always so grateful to have him in my life. He doesn’t just understand me, but he is always there for me, whenever I need it.
Right now, I was more focused on having a good time, tonight and I’m gonna drink until I forget about today.

Next chapter will be posted next Monday! If you can’t wait, you can always check out Wattpad and look up ‘Unclear’ by katieasehl. 

Chapter 2: The Mistake –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/28/my-writing-unclear-chapter-2-the-mistake-chapter-2/

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Mom Talk: Dealing With Depression As A Mom

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A lot of people think that having a baby will bring you joy and happiness for your family. Which is does, but a lot of people don’t understand that there is a lot going on then just taking care of a baby.

I have been dealing with depression since I was 13. It’s been a long rocky-road for me. Sometimes, I just wish that I could just be happy, but having depression, makes you want to do nothing. Be nothing. You are always sad inside and no one will really know unless you talk to them about it.

When you have a baby, after the baby is born, some mom struggle with, what it is called, ‘baby blues’. It usually happens to a lot of moms within the first month of their baby being born. That’s why a lot of OBGYN’s ask you about ‘baby blues’, at your 6 week post-postpartum check up. They want to make sure that you and the baby are in good hands.

As a mom who has already lost a child and just had another one, it’s really difficult for me to watch my daughter grow because my son died when he was only a month old. It’s started to hit me a few days ago, that’s why there hasn’t been a lot of blogging going on.

Not just with the depression, stress and other issues are also on my mind. It makes it worse, especially when you have a little one that needs you every waking minute. There are days that I don’t want to get up, but my daughter gives me the kick that I need to get up and go on with my life.

It makes me sad that I can’t see my son reach the milestones that my daughter is, but she gives me a sense of hope. Just because I lost my son, I can’t get up on the fact that he’s gone. I always know that he will always watch over my daughter and any future children that I may have.

Before you say that a newly mother can’t be depressed, think about this. Have you ever had a child? Have you ever thought of the crying to never end? Have you ever go nuts, in your mind, because your baby is crying and you don’t know why?

I give praises to newly mothers, especially ones that have babies or children with birth defects. I also want to praise all the mothers that try their best, when they think their best isn’t good enough.

You moms are doing amazing!

It’s good to hear a good thing or too. To me, it makes me feel inspired and more confident to shoot for the stars.

But the one thing that I always do, when I’m feeling depressed or down, I talk to someone. Whether it is a friend, family member, or my fiance. I talk to someone. I rather people know what’s going on, versus keeping it all locked inside. As much as I sometimes would rather not talk to anyone, I know that I should.

If you are a mom, who’s struggling with depression or ‘baby blues’, talk to someone or talk to your doctor, they can give you some medication that will make it easier for you to handle. As much as some people don’t like taking medications, I am one of those people, it does work.

I am always an open ear. Seriously, if you need someone to talk to, go to my Contact page and send me a message. It’s better to open up to someone, rather than no one.

To all those moms, you keep doing what you are doing, better days are sure to come.

*If you really need help and need to talk to someone or a medical professionally, click on the link below. It gives a list of hotlines and explains depression in depth. The hotline is there and is completely anonymous.

https://www.mentalhelp.net/articles/depression-hotline/

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Mom Talk: Dealing With Family Drama

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Drama is very difficult to avoid or stay away from. It’s its apart of our life, no matter what. Whether you are single or are in a relationship, drama is sure to find you.

Especially, if you are a parent and have children. However you decide how to raise your children, there will always be someone who talks behind you back about how much they really don’t like how you raise your children.

For me, I’ve got drama everywhere I look. In our house, if we have a problem, we sit down and deal with it and then move on. However, on both sides of our family, there are a few family members that haven’t really grown up yet, even with children.

Which, for me, I’ve grown up a lot, and I’m only 20. Losing my son, made me realize that I life is short and that we should make each day worth living for. It also made me realize that I’m too mature, even though sometimes I don’t act mature, that I don’t want to be around the drama.

I will admit that I am nosey, if it is about anyone else. Everyone can be nosey at some point in their life. You may or may not admit it, but it’s true.

What I am really getting at is that sometimes, the drama can children in the middle of it. I’m talking about when the adults get into an agruement and they ignore each other, preventing the children from bonding and creating a friendly relationship.

It makes me feel sad that cousins can’t have a good bond, like I do with my cousins, because one or the other parents have issues with a agruement.

I think that drama should be let back in high school. You either need to suck it up, buttercup. Or take you and the drama that follows, back to high school, where it belongs!

Families need to stick together through thick and thin. If you can’t get over an issue between your family members, think about your children and how it would effect them because the children should be the first thing that is thought about, not what issues you have with your family.

Unless, you are like me, and have that one person that did something really bad to you, that you don’t even want them to be in your or your childs life. Keep in mind, and I always have, it is your choice on who you want in your life and your childrens life.

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Mom Talk: Mother’s Day vs. Father’s Day

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I know its a day behind, but I wanted to say Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms, moms-to-be, step-moms, and all the other moms who stepped up when the dad didn’t.

A lot of mom’s think that because it is Mother’s Day, they will have a clean house, don’t have to do dishes, or laundry. For some families, they do that or they make breakfast in bed for their moms.

I wanted to talk about the real meaning of Mother’s Day. It’s not just for mom’s, its for all the woman that acted like a mother or was a mother to you in your lifetime. I also want to say that Mother’s Day is a day for the mother’s and that Father’s Day is for the father’s.

There are tons of mom’s that are single and play both parts, but Mother’s Day is for all the mom’s, whether you loss a baby, had a miscarriage, or adopted a child, that day is for you.

What really upsets me, is that single moms or moms who play both roles of mom and dad, think that Father’s Day is about them too. NO. Just no. Father’s Day is for all the fathers or dads, not for those moms who play both parts.

For example, I’m going to use my family as an example. I don’t speak or talk to my father because he was never a real father to my siblings and I. He has always been in and out of our lives that I don’t considered to say anything on Father’s Day.

My mom has been raising us and caring for us since day one. My father does it when he feels that he needs to be, not when he should be, which would be all the time. That’s why I don’t tell my father, Happy Father’s Day. I say it to my mom’s dad because he was there for my siblings and I when my father wasn’t.

Anyway, Happy Mother’s Day to all the MOTHER’S out there, this is your day, NOT Father’s Day.

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Unclear – Intro

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So, in my spare time I write on Wattpad. I have a few stories on there, but I figured that I could share a chapter a week. Every Monday, I will upload a chapter from one of my books. If you don’t want to wait for another chapter, you can find it on Wattpad (You do have to sign up in order to read anything).

Unclear was one of my first books that I posted on Wattpad. When I upload them, they might be different from the original book that is on Wattpad. I started writting back in high school, so there are a few errors here and there. Here is just a little info of what the book is about.

Jade Roy has always thought that bad things wouldn’t come to her, but she was wrong. At age 11, her father died in the military. After that, her older sister died in a car crash 6 months after her father passed on. It has been her mother and her.

She hopes that things will get better… Or will they?

10 years later, Jade moves in with her best friend, James. She has always loved him, but never confessed her love to him. She’s scared to open up and love someone, but when James meets this new girl online, Marie. She starts to think that they will never be together. Or will they?

Here is the intro of Unclear. I hope you all like it.

~Intro~

My name is Jade Roy. I used to live with my father, mother, and older sister, but that all changed when my father was recruited into the war. We all didn’t want him to go, but he had to. For us. He always wanted us to always be safe, but that all changed when he was shot and killed in the war.

My mother didn’t think it really happened, but when the officer came to our door and gave us the sad news about my father. My older sister, Mandy, started getting into drinking and smoking cigarettes. My mother didn’t even know what was going on until 6 months after my fathers death.

We got a call at 3 a.m., saying that there was a car accident and that Mandy was involved. My mother and I both rushed to the hospital to see if she was okay, but she wasn’t. Mandy ended up dying from losing so much blood.

Mom and I held each other close and she promised me that she would always protect me. I made that same promise to her, as well. It was just us now. I also promised myself something else, as well. I will never fall in love, unless I know that he was the one.
Kinda extreme coming from an 11 year old, right? It wasn’t to me.

I wanted to make sure that my mother’s happiness came first, before mine, but I never wanted to see Mom with someone else. I just wanted it to be me and her. No one else, but us against the world.

I just wished things would change for the better.

If you want to read more, check out Unclear on Wattpad. Just look for out for my username katieasehl. You will have to sign up if you aren’t a member already, but if you don’t want to go through all that trouble, the next chapter will be out on next Monday!

Chapter 1: 10 Years Later –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/21/my-writing-unclear-10-years-later-chapter-1/

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Mom Talk: Being or Becoming Engaged

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Being or become engaged to your significant other is a huge step in any relationship. It’s a promise that you are going to one day,  going to marry the person that you plan on spending the rest of your life with.

I am currently engaged. My fiance proposed to me last year on Christmas Day. We have been together for almost 4 years. We have been through a lot during those years. Losing our son bought us closer than ever before. I’ve never been more happier in my life.

Anyway, the reason why I wanted to bring up the topic of engagement, was that I wanted to talk to you about was how long should you be engaged for.

As soon as we got engaged, I started thinking of a date, which we planned on getting married in 2020. Ever since then, I have been thinking of colors, themes, what my dress will be, who will be my bride maids, etc. I’ve always wanted to get married to the love of my life, so when he finally popped the question, I have been so excited to plan our wedding.

When some people get engaged, they might wait a year or two, maybe to save up for the wedding or waiting until they are able to take the time off, anything, but if you have been engaged for more than 5 years, people can start to question why.

I completely understand if you are trying to save up money on a wedding, don’t get me wrong, but weddings are very expensive, but when people started to ask why, I think of many this person isn’t ready to make that commitment or they don’t want to make the plans of a wedding.

There could be so many reasons why. Some people get engaged or plan on getting married for the kids, which you shouldn’t do, you should marry because you love the person you are with.

I grew up in a home with my mother was always unhappy because she was married to my father. It took her 11 years to finally stand up and want to find happiness. My parents got divorced and my mother has been so much more joyful, that was almost 7 years ago. My mother felt that she had to stay because of the fact that she wanted to keep our family together.

She didn’t want us kids to grow up in a broken home, but she knew that she didn’t want us to grow up with parents who were happy, too. So she made a change. My mother married my father because, yes she was in love with him, but they also had me too. She married and stayed with my father because of us kids.

If you aren’t ready to take that next step to get married, then you should talk to your love one and talk about why you don’t want to get married. For me, I only want to get married once and I think a lot of people only want to get married once.

A lot of people are pressured into married their significant other because of family or friends. You shouldn’t marry anyone you know that you don’t want to spend the rest of your life with. It should be because you are madly in love with your significant other, you love all their flaws and looks, but most of all, you see a future with them.

 

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Mom Talk: Teething

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Usually, I have been able to post a blog a day, but at the moment, my 6 month old is going through the favorite and fun stages of teething. So, I figured I talk about something that every mom has to go through with their kids.

Teething, is very frustrating for not just baby, but for mommy too. About a week ago, my daughter, she was on her normal schedule and was fine, chewing and putting everything in her mouth like a baby will do, but this week. She has been teething bad!

Because of the teething, it is throwing her way off schedule. She has been eating less and has been taking longer naps. I am one of those moms that has to have a schedule planned out, I have an app on my phone that helps me track her feeding, diapers, and sleep patterns.

It makes me nervous because she has had weight problems in the past, but the doctor says that it is totally normal for her to not eat as much because of teething. Since, her gums and jaw hurt a lot, its difficult for her to want to eat. Since I’m new to this stage, I freaked out.

And of course, I know what you are thinking. You asked Google, didn’t you? Yep. I did and it turns out other moms had the same issue when it come to teething. I was really relieved. Just reading about another mom struggle or freak out about a new stage and got help from other moms, it really helped me out.

But, this is only the beginning of teething. Here we go, just about two more years of this, until she’s got all of her teeth. So not ready for this, but at least I know that I am not the only one struggling on it.