If you have been following me since the beginning, you know all about my son Liam and how he passed away from complications with HLHS.
A lot of people don’t realize how difficult it can be. This year, it’s 5 years since he has been gone. Which is one of the reasons why I haven’t been as active and that life can get tough when you are going through a lot.
Liam would’ve been 5 years old this year and I just realize that he would’ve started kindergarten this year, which hurts my heart more.
While everyone is taking pictures and getting excited for there kids first day, I’m missing out. Of course I’m not missing out as my daughter will start school next year, but I’m missing out on Liam.
I always wonder how he would act, what his favorite things to do would be, would he be more like me or his father. The questions will always remain a mystery.
Every now and then, I get nightmares of what had happened to him, most of the time I try to snuggle close to his blanket, it’s comfort knowing that he used to use this blanket, that I can still wrap my arms around something of his.
As time goes on, it just gets harder, but I’m grateful for the time I did get to spend with him. Even though it was short, it was all worth it.