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Mom Talk: Dating Is Completely Different As A Mom

Hey Dearies! I figure I would give you guys another life sort of update, trust me, I haven’t found ‘the one’, not yet anyway. I felt ready to start dating about a few months ago, since my ex moved on, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to put myself out there for once.

So, I did what most people do when they are ready to start dating again, I joined a dating app. Let me say, the dating game has changed so much since I was last single, which was almost 7 years ago. I’ll be honest, it was nice to have the attention that I was lacking.

I’ve met a few guys, but most of them were either looking for a piece of ass or didn’t know what they wanted. One of the first guys that I started talking to, I thought there was a real connection, he said the things that he knew I wanted to hear, long story short, I started to have feelings for him, but I guess he didn’t want me and ended up blocking me, without saying a word.

Gentlemen, I just want to give you advice, we women would rather you tell us that you aren’t interested than block us. It not only shows that you have respect for us but shows us that you cared enough to not lead us on. I would rather a guy be honest with me than silent. This other guy that I talked to ignored me for months and basically made me feel like I had done something wrong.

Overall, I’m taking it slow and trying to not put my entire heart and soul with anyone, unless they are going to do the same for me. I will say that over this past year, I’ve learned a lot about myself and still learning who I want to me.

Yes, it would be nice to have someone to be with, where you can go to them when you are troubled or just need someone to hold you and just be there for you mentally, emotionally, and physically. Before you can learn to love someone else, you have to learn to love and expect yourself for who you are.

I think with time, I’ll be able to find someone who will not only love me for me, but someone I can be my silly, weird, goofball self with. Someone who will expect my daughter as their own and who wants to grow with me.

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Mom Talk: Loss Of A Child Is Harder Than You Know

If you have been following me since the beginning, you know all about my son Liam and how he passed away from complications with HLHS.

A lot of people don’t realize how difficult it can be. This year, it’s 5 years since he has been gone. Which is one of the reasons why I haven’t been as active and that life can get tough when you are going through a lot.

Liam would’ve been 5 years old this year and I just realize that he would’ve started kindergarten this year, which hurts my heart more.

While everyone is taking pictures and getting excited for there kids first day, I’m missing out. Of course I’m not missing out as my daughter will start school next year, but I’m missing out on Liam.

I always wonder how he would act, what his favorite things to do would be, would he be more like me or his father. The questions will always remain a mystery.

Every now and then, I get nightmares of what had happened to him, most of the time I try to snuggle close to his blanket, it’s comfort knowing that he used to use this blanket, that I can still wrap my arms around something of his.

As time goes on, it just gets harder, but I’m grateful for the time I did get to spend with him. Even though it was short, it was all worth it.

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Mom Talk: Where Have I Been and Plans for My Blog

Hey Dearies! So, if you haven’t noticed, I haven’t been as active as I would like and I wanted to talk about what changes have been going on in my life. Not to mention, I want to talk about the future of this blog as well.

Currently, I’ve been working on college quite a bit and I haven’t had a free moment to work on my blog, not to mention, I’m also chasing around my almost 3-year-old daughter. I’m working on getting my degree for medical coding and billing.

I originally wanted to become a teacher, I still do, but I don’t want to go through the schooling and then not going forward to be a teacher. It’s something that I’m still interested in doing, but its just something that I’m still debating about it.

I’m still crocheting, if you are wondering and still follow me on Instagram. Since we are getting closer to the holiday months, hookers and knitters, like myself, are preparing gifts for our family and stuff. I’m hoping to have some patterns posted for you all this season, but if not, I’ll have some holiday gifts ideas.

I don’t plan on stopping this blog, but I’m going to try my best to become more active, make sure to share or like any of the patterns that I post or any of my written books or short stories.

Also, I’ve been job searching as well and with lots of applying and searching, I have one! I’m really excited to get back into the workforce after being a stay-at-home mom. I’m really excited and I can’t wait until I begin this new chapter in my life.

So, please stay patient with me as I tackle on the new job, college, and of course motherhood all in one. I can’t wait to post more stuff for both arts and crafts, gaming, and writing.