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Unforgotten – Chapter 3

If you haven’t read Chapter 2, here is the link:

https://katiesblog96971617.com/2019/01/21/unforgotten-chapter-2/

Athena’s P.O.V.
‘This is Tanner, leave a message and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.’ As I heard my father’s voice spoke. I waited until the beep sounded.
“Daddy, we need you. Mom’s been drinking and it’s getting worse. Please come back. I love you, daddy.” I said, leaving another voicemail. It’s been a few days since Logan and I read some of our mom’s journals.
I haven’t touched them since, neither has Logan. I think we are scared to read on. I have more questions than anyone I know. Who was this James? Why don’t we see our aunt? And why does my mother think that she’s a vampire?
I took a deep breath and cleared my head as I walked back into school. I went straight to my locker and grabbed my history book. My phone started to buzz and I quickly grabbed it and checked to see who it was. Ricky.
I ignored it. It’s just best. I just don’t want to get into anymore trouble with my mom. I placed my phone into my pocket, but before I was able to, someone shoved me into the locker, causing me to fall and drop my history book and cell phone onto the ground.
As I turned to get up, I saw Hannah, one of the popular girls who really doesn’t like me. “Fucking move freak!” She yelled as her and her other two girls, Casey and Stella, started to laugh with her. “Honestly, you would be better off dead.”
She turned and walked away, a few group of people started to come around us, but I not sure what got into me, but I fought back. I got up, grabbed a chuck of Hannah’s hair and threw her onto the ground. I just kept punching her, before I felt someone pull me off of her.
“Principles office now!” The teacher who pulled Hannah away from me said, but Hannah was able to get one last punch in before I was able to speak. Knocking me right in the face, I could feel the blood coming out of my nose.
I tried to break free, but I then saw Logan, who had his arms wrapped around me, trying to hold me back. “Let me get in one more punch!” I yelled as he slowly started to walk me down to the office. “I then paused and had him look at me. “She told me that I would be better off dead. Please let me get in one more punch!”
Logan loosen his grip as I broke free and was able to give her one last punch, before Logan pulled me back. I got her right in her left eye, it was starting to turn red as we walked away.
Once we were in the nurse’s office, she took a look at my nose, thank god it wasn’t broken, but she said it was going to bruise for a little bit. Logan sat outside the nurses office and I sat down next to him.
“What the hell got into you?” Logan asked as I looked down at my shoes, which had a few drops of dried blood on them.
“I don’t know.” I answered. I really didn’t know. With everything going on, I don’t know why I finally stood up for myself. Now, the only think I could think of was what phone call mom would be getting from her home office.
Hannah walked out of the principles office with a smirk on her face. I glared at her, as I could see her black eye had started to form around her left eye. “Athena and Logan. Get into my office.” Principle LaMore said as we both stood up and walked in.
We both took a seat and Principle LaMore sat down and started to rub his scalp. “Look, I know that this is the beginning of the school year, but we can’t keep having this happen, Athena.” He sighed as I waited to see what the punishment was going to be. “Here is the thing. We are going to suspend you for 3 days, just like Hannah, but if it happens again, both of you are going to be expelled.”
“Wait, what?” I said and then paused for a second. It didn’t make sense. I haven’t done anything to get me into trouble, but for this being the first time I’ve done anything, next time something happens to me, I’m getting expelled? “So, you are saying that if I do something like this again, we are both expelled? That doesn’t make any sense! She has been bullying me since day one!”
“Watch your tone. That is our new policy. In order to keep our school in order, we have to be very strict. You are lucky that all you got was a suspension. Now, I have informed your mother and she is on the way. Go sit out in the office and wait for her.” He said as Logan and I both got up and walked out to sit back in the office.
Logan grabbed something from his pocket, when he pulled it out, it was my phone. It was ringing and it was dad. I quickly grabbed it from his hand and placed it in between us when I answered. “Daddy?!” I said as I waited to here this voice.
“Hey sweetie. Everything okay? I just got a voicemail saying that you guys got into a fight.” Our father said.
“Yes, it’s a long story, but we need you. Mom isn’t acting normal.” I spoke.
“I know, I’m on my way. There is something I need to tell you all. Something very important.” He said as we heard another voice in the background. “I have to go, but I will see you kids soon, I love you both.”
“We love you too, dad.” Logan said as the line went dead. I was about to put my phone into my pocket, but I stopped when I saw our mother approach us.
“Don’t put that back in your pocket, Athena. You both have lost your phone. Now, let’s go.” She said. She seemed back to normal, but not completely. Once we were in the car, it was complete silence. Logan usually sat up front, but this time, he sat out back with me.
I was scared to know what was going to happen. I was never one to get into trouble, but I felt Logan place his hand on top of mine and it made me feel that everything was going to be fine.
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Logan’s P.O.V
Mom, Athena, and I just sat at the kitchen table. Athena’s bruise on her face was darken in. Mom was holding her head in her hands. She had us sit at the table, It’s been silent for awhile.
“So, why are we at the table again?” I asked, crossing my arms. My mother didn’t move a muscle. I sighed, but before I were going to speak again, the door opened and there stood our father.
“Daddy!” Athena shouted and rose up from her seat as fast as she could to hug dad. I got up to hug him too, but mom didn’t move a muscle. Dad hugged us as tight as he could. I missed him. We used to do a lot together, same with Athena.
“I missed you both so much.” He said as Athena and him shed a tear. I saw Dad look up at Mom, but she still didn’t move a muscle. He let go of us and walked over to Mom, throwing his arms around her. “And of course, I missed you, hunny.”
“You lied to me.” I heard mom spoke as she got up, pulled away from dad’s arms and walked away. Athena and I looked at each other and then dad, who threw his hands into the air.
“I should’ve known that was gonna happen.” He said as I gave him a look. He noticed and look a deep breath. “Let me go talk to your mother and fix everything with her and then we can talk.” He left the room and went to go find our mom.
“What did Dad lie about?” Athena asked, but I shrugged. Athena headed to her room, but I decide to listen into the conversation that was about to happen between mom and him. Athena noticed and decided to join me. “We shouldn’t do this.” She said.
“If you don’t want to, I’ll do it.” I whispered as Athena nodded and headed back into her room. I then placed my ear to the door.
“Jade, let me explain.” I heard my father spoke.
“No, you lied to me saying that you were sick, just like your sister and then you come back and don’t tell me about it?!? I have been worried sick and have been working my ass off, since you decided to find your fucking sister!” Mom yelled, I looked into the key hole of the door and could see my mother pacing back any forth.
“I’m sorry about that, but babe, I have some amazing news to share with you.” Dad said stopping my mom dead in her tracks. “James is alive.” My mother looked at him and covered her mouth shaking her head.
“No, that’s impossible.” My mother spoke.
“He’s been with Marie this entire time.” Dad paused. “She turned him before he died. She came back wanting to meet the twins, but wanted to see James and she found him half dead.”
“Then why am I just know finding this out!” Mom snapped. Dad threw his hands up in the air.
“Because I know deep down you still loved him.” Both of my parents stood silent. Mom turn away from him. Until Dad finally spoke. “I knew it. Why don’t you soak up this information while I explain the kids why I was gone.”
Dad was about to open the door, but Mom pulled his arm. I was about to run back to my bedroom. Not before I heard this. “I did love him, but I love you. Please, let me tell the kids.”
The door was about to open, but I ran so fast that my heart was beating faster as I ran towards my room. I had closed my door, before I heard. “Athena! Logan! Can we see in you the living room!” Mom answered. I was not ready for this, I just hoped that both Athena and I seem surprised when they tell us the news.
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Athena’s P.O.V.
Logan and I sat on the couch, waiting for someone to speak. Dad and Mom were whispering to each other, but we couldn’t make out what we were saying.
“So, what is it? I have homework to do.” Logan spoke up and our parents turned to him.
“Okay, so we need you both to just understand where we are coming from when we tell you this.” Dad said as I got a little worried. What if it’s about are Aunt? Or that James guy.
“There is something that we have never told you and we did it to protect you, but now that you guys will be 16 in a few more days, we figured you would understand the situation a little better then when you were littler.” Mom took a deep breath. “Your father has an younger sister.”
“So, we have an aunt?” I questioned.
“Yes, her name is Marie and the reason why she isn’t in our life, is because of her condition.” Dad explained.
“What condition? Why haven’t you told us this?” Logan snapped back, I could see that all this information that we read in mom’s journals, might be true.
“She’s a vampire.” The room was silent.
“You’re shitting me, right?” Logan said. He got up and looked at both of our parents. ” I can’t believe you guys lied to us. Now, I’m kinda glad we read your journal’s, at least they were honest on what had happen to our aunt.”
Mom’s face flushed. Dad looked at her in shock. “Why didn’t you burn them, like we agreed?” I could see Dad getting very annoyed with Mom.
“I-I didn’t have the heart to, because I didn’t want to-”
“Forget him, you mean?” Dad snapped at her.
“I told you that I-” Dad interrupt her. I got up and decided to leave the room.
“You love me, but I know deep down that you wished the twins weren’t mine.” I heard, place my back up against the hallway wall. “I’ve done so much for you, Jade. I’ve kept so much in over the years. I’ve done everything you have asked, but I know you aren’t happy.”
“I am happy, you just assume that I’m not! I missed you so much and I was so pissed that you didn’t include me in why you left in the first place!” Mom yelled at him. I slowly started to walk to my room, I didn’t want to hear any more yelling for today.
I walked into my bedroom and closed the door. I laid on my bed and checked my phone. I then dialed Ricky’s number.
“Thank god you call. Please don’t hang up, can we talk?” Ricky spoke.
“Pick me up at the stop sign on the next street over.” I said as I hung up the phone and grabbed a jacket. I dug in my closet to find the blanket I had crochet for Ricky. I’ve been saving it for something special, but I’ve waited long enough to give it to him.
Grabbing everything I needed, I jumped out of my window, sneaking past my brother’s room and running down the street to the stop sign, where Ricky was waiting. I got into his car. Ricky smiled at me as we drove off.

Chapter 4: https://katiesblog96971617.com/2019/02/04/unforgotten-chapter-4/

 

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Unforgotten – Chapter 2

If you haven’t read Chapter 1, here is the link:

https://katiesblog96971617.com/2019/01/14/unforgotten-chapter-1/

~Chapter 2~

Athena’s P.O.V
“Why are we cleaning out the garage, Mom?” Logan asked as we were all seated at the kitchen table. Mom was putting eggs and bacon onto our plates.
“Because, we need to get rid of some stuff in there. I don’t know when your father is coming back, but money has been really tight and I don’t want to go into you guys college funds to help keep us afloat.” Mom said as she poured herself some more coffee.
“I can get a job. We don’t have to sell our stuff.” Logan said as our mother shock her head ‘no’.
“Neither of you should get a job to help me out. Focus on school and I’ll take care of the bills.” Mom said as I finished breakfast. “Athena, I have some bad news. I won’t be able to take you to the craft fair next week. I’m really sorry, but work has been crazy and I have to work on your birthdays too.”
“That’s okay, Mom.” I said, my expression sadden. It was my favorite event that my mom and I would go to, but I guess we will have to try again next year. I got up from the table and pushed my chair in. “I’ll go start on cleaning the garage.”
Mom nodded, but her office phone started to rang as she quickly ran into the next room. I turned and walked out into the garage.
The garage was a mess, with boxes on top of boxes. Over to the left stood Logan and I’s very first bikes. Dad didn’t want us to get rid of them and that we should keep them for when we have kids.
I walked over to the back of the garage and figured I would start with the boxes that weren’t labeled, but there was something that caught my eye, something I had never seen before. A small wooden chest.
I don’t remember seeing something like this, but I was curious to know what laid inside. I moved a few boxes that sat in front of it. As I got closer to the wooden chest, all I could see was that it was very dusty. Mom and Dad must of forgot about it because it looks like it hasn’t been touched in a long time.
I was about to open it, when I heard a voice. “Athena, you in here?” Crap. It was Ricky. I stayed hidden a little longer, hoping he would just give up and leave me alone. After a few minutes, I heard him walk away. I sighed in relief.
I looked back down at the chest and opened it slowly. I was amazed to see how many books there was in here. As I picked up one and looked over the cover, I saw that there was no title or author on it. I opened the book and saw the inside.
My eyes got bigger when I saw that it wasn’t just any type of book, but a diary. Not just anyone’s diary, but my moms. I quickly put the book back and then closed the wooden chest. I didn’t want anyone to walk in on me reading my mothers thoughts.
I was too curious. I cleaned off the chest and quickly snuck it into my room. I place it on my floor. I then took the chest and placed it in my closet, quickly shutting the door before I heard. “There you are. I have been looking everywhere for you.”
I turned around and saw Ricky, standing in my doorway. “What are you doing here?” I snapped, he gazed at me as faced him. “I have to go clean the garage, so either tell me what you want or leave.”
He sighed as I crossed my arms. “Can we just talk, so I can explain myself?” He asked as I rolled my eyes.
“Fine, but we can talk out in the garage.” I said, pushing him out of the way and walking back outside and towards the garage. I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to him and have him explain that my mother was stopping him from expressing his feelings.
Once we reached the garage I started to go through a box, as I waited for Ricky to say something. It was quiet for a little bit until he finally spoke.
“I know that your brother told you why I couldn’t tell you how I felt because of your mother, but I’m going to tell you now.” He paused and I heard him sigh. “I love you, but I think it’s best that we just stay-” Before he could finish, I had to know. I don’t know what got into me, but I walked over to him and kissed him.
He was my first ever kiss, but it was worth it. It was breath taking. I felt my arms wrapping around his neck and his wrapped around my waist. I didn’t want it to stop, but he finally pulled away. Our foreheads were still pressed together. I finally opened my eyes, both of us still trying to catch our breath.
“Wow.” I said as I saw a small smile appeared on his face.
“Why did you do that?” He asked as I pulled away and thought about it. I then realize that I just kissed Ricky.
“I-I don’t know.” I said, sitting on the cold cement floor. “I just thought that if I knew what it was like to kiss you, I would be able to get over you easily, but I don’t think I can now.” I hugged my knees and covered my head.
I felt Ricky place his hand on my back. Rubbing it back and forth as he sat down beside me. “I don’t think I’ll be able to either.” I looked up at him as he smiled at me. He leaned in and kissed me again. We were so lost in kissing each other that we got interrupted.
“Athena!” We stopped kissing and turned to see my mother standing in front of us. “Athena Rose! Get your ass inside, now!” She demanded.
Never have I ever seen my mother get so mad before. I was scared. I quickly got up and ran inside. I ran passed Logan, I started to cry, but I didn’t know why.
“Athena, what’s wrong?” I heard Logan asked as I shut my bedroom door. I lean back against the door and fell to the ground. I didn’t understand why my mother was acting like this.
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Ricky’s P.O.V.
I stood up after Athena ran inside. I was face to face with her mother. I remember the last conversation I had with her, it was the night of graduation. The night I planned on telling Athena how I felt, but her mother told me it would be best if I stayed away and did my own thing.
“Look, I’m-” I figured I would apologize, but Jade had interrupt me before I could.
“Don’t sorry me! I told you to stay away from her! Now, she is going to think that you too are going to be together forever!” She yelled, a thought popped into my mind. I knew about her past because my mom and her were close friends, but they stopped talking for some reason.
I wanted to say it, but I kept my mouth shut. I didn’t want to bring up James…
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry that I fell in love with your daughter.” I said as I tired to stopped myself, but didn’t. “To be honest, but I think I remember being told that you fell in love with your best friend and your mother didn’t seem to have a problem with it.”
She looked shocked when the words came out of my mouth. I didn’t know what came over me, but deep down, it needed to be said.
“Leave Ricky! I never want you around Athena or this house again!” She screamed as I walked away. Logan caught me, before I got into my car.
“Ricky, wait!” He said as I opened my door. “What the hell is going on?”
I put my head down and looked back up at him. “Take care of your sister.” I got into my car, started my engine and drove off. The one thing that popped in my mind was Athena. How beautiful she was and how her smile brighten my day. Just seeing her, made my world stop.
I felt a tear slip, but I quickly wiped it away. I pulled over and cut my engine. I placed my head on my hand, that was still on the steering wheel. I just hope that Athena was alright.
I pulled out my phone and tried to call her, but it just kept ringing until it reached to her voicemail.
“Hey its Athena. Leave a message!”
“Athena, I love you. Don’t forget that.” I then hung up, turned my engine back on and drove home.
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Logan’s P.O.V.
I walked back in my house, after Ricky left. My mother was in front of Athena’s door. “Athena, get out here!” She shouted.
Our mother has never been a yeller, unless I did something back, but for Athena, she didn’t know how to handle it. I walked over to my mother she turned and looked at me quick, before going back and knocking on her door.
“What are you doing, Mom?” I asked. She turned and glared at me.
“You.” She pointed to me. “You had to keep him around when I told you no! You said that you would keep Ricky away!” She slapped my face.
“What the hell!” I yelled. “What has gotten into you, Mom. What is so wrong about Ricky?”
“He is going to make her think that they will live happily ever after and then break her heart!” She said, I then noticed that she was walking funny.
She was drunk. We have never seen our mother drunk, so this was a first. I noticed that our parents wine collection was disappearing, but I didn’t think my mother had drank almost half of it.
“You’re drunk, aren’t you?” I confronted her. She then turned and walked away into her room.
Once she closed her door. I quietly went to Athena’s door. “Athena, its just me. Open up.” I said as the door slowly opened. As I looked into my sister’s face, her eyes were red from crying. I walked into her room and closed the door.
Athena hugged me as tight as she could. I didn’t mind, but it made me angry that Athena was so scared. “I want daddy.” I heard her say. I missed him, too.
I waited until she finally let go of me to speak, but there was nothing that I felt that would help her. She sat on her bed and I sat down next to her. I noticed something that was peaking out of her closet. I got up and opened it.
“What’s that?” I asked as I looked at the weird little wooden chest. “I’ve never seen this before, where did get this?” I looked back at Athena, as she wiped her tears.
“It was in the garage. It’s a bunch of journals.” She spoke. I looked back and grabbed the chest from the closet and placed it on the floor.
“Who’s journals?” I asked as I opened the wooden chest and grabbed one of the many books that hid inside.
“Moms.” I looked up back at Athena. “I know I shouldn’t of taken them, but I was curious and I feel that she is hiding something from us.”
Athena got down from her bed and sat on the floor with me. “These go back to when she was a teenager.” Athena explained. I opened one of them and she was right. Mom’s name was inside for sure.
“How do you know that?” I asked, but when I looked on the outside of the book, on the edge of the book, was a year. No date or month, just the year. “Have you read any of these?”
Athena shook her head no. “I haven’t yet.” She then looked through and grabbed the earliest year. That must of been when mom started to write in journals. “We should read this together?” Athena asked.
I nodded as we sat together and turned the first page of her journal:

2004 – June
Today, I finally graduated from high school. It took long enough, but I’m glad it’s over. James and I are going to move in to our own place. We figured it would be cheaper than living in a dorm with some strangers.
I wish he knew how I felt about him. I love him, more than he knows. I’m just glad he has stayed by my side after all the stuff that happened the night my sister died.
But I know he only sees me as a friend, nothing more. Or does he?
I figured I would write in a journal as a fresh start. After what happened when I was 12… I know it has been years, but I still have nightmares of that night. The night I lost my sister and my virginity…
I’m glad Lucas is in hell for what he did…

2004 – July
We are moved in, finally! I get to enjoy the short time of what’s left of summer before I have to go back to school.
I got my first job! I’ll be working at the bookstore. My mom knows the owner and thankfully he was hiring. I think that would be a wonderful place to start a job. It’s only going to be part time, so that I can go to college. Not sure what I want to do, but I need to figure out quick…
The night mares just don’t seem to go away… About that night… I feel terrible to abort that baby, but I had too. I wasn’t going to raise a child that came from one night that I was drugged and raped…
James says that I have to move on, but I can’t. So, tonight, we are going to have our first ever party at our house. I figured a night of drinking and dancing with friends can help me forget.
Savannah can’t come over, but that’s okay. She’s got little Ricky to take care of. I feel bad for her…
Connor still doesn’t want anything to do with Ricky that he moved to LA AFTER he was born. I still can’t believe that his parents tried to pay Savannah to have an abortion…
I’ll write later, need to go to work!
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Athena’s P.O.V.
We both looked up from our mother’s journal. I wanted to cry. I never knew that about her or Ricky. Logan pulled out his phone and checked the time, it was almost 2pm. An hour since my mother was caught Ricky and I kissing.
“That’s sad though.” I broke the silence. Logan looked at me.
“About mom or Ricky’s father wanting his mother to get rid of him?”
“About Ricky.” I paused. “I’ve always wondered why he never talked about his dad, now I know why.”
“I know.” Logan replied. “Who’s James?” I wondered about it too. The way mom was talking about him, made me believe that she really did love him, but she never talked about him. What happened to him? Did they fall in love?
“I don’t know, but I want to read the 2008 one.” I said, grabbing it and flipping a few pages until I saw our dad’s name. “Look! Here’s dad’s name!”
Logan looked closely, but once he read a little in, he turned the page. “I don’t think we need to know about that.”
“What was it?” I asked.
“Something that should stay between mom and dad.” Logan replied as I peaked over and read a little before going to the next page. “Yep, let’s leave that there.” I never wanted to picture my mother talking about her first time with dad, but now, it was frozen in my brain.
“Do you want to keep reading?” Logan asked. I nodded as we looked back down on the next page in our mom’s journal:

2008 – January
Tanner took me out, last night, but I ended up in James’ bed. We made love and I don’t know what to think about it.
Tanner has been so sweet to me and has made it clear he wants to be more than friends, but I just don’t know. James took advantage of me when I was drunk and let it happened. It brings me a flashback back to that horrible night when I was 12.
I just don’t know…
2008 – February
Well, I don’t know how to say this, but I’m pregnant…
I don’t know who the father is. I have a feeling it is Tanner’s but still.
I feel like I should be on one of those shows that call out women who sleeps with more than one man and finds out that they are or aren’t the father.
I didn’t mean for it to happen. I’m scared and don’t know what to do… What happens when I tell them? Both James and Tanner.
God, I feel like such a whore. No more heavy drinking… Not just for my health, but for my future baby.
2008 – March
I told them…
Actually, Tanner’s sister saw me buying the tests with Savannah. I moved out, too.
James called me a whore for sleeping with both of them, but he took advantage of me when I was extremely drunk! How is that my fault? I don’t know why I got so drunk, so it’s just as much my fault as it is his.
Tanner has been really sweet towards me. He’s already starting to save up money for the little one. It makes me feel that he is going to be a wonderful father. I have a deep feeling that he is the father of our child.
At least I can try and be a good mom, unlike mine. She decided to not tell me she was getting married and that she was pregnant! Whatever, I’m done being lied too.
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Athena’s P.O.V.
“I can’t read any more, Logan.” I said, putting the book back in the chest. “W-We could’ve been someone else’s kids?” Logan the book from me and went through a few pages and then he then read out loud.
“Don’t worry. James’ isn’t our father, just listen.” Logan cleared his throat. “I found out I was having twins and they are both Tanners. James can’t have kids because of all the abuse he suffered as a child. I felt horrible that James wouldn’t have any kids, but I’m more shocked that I’m having twins.”
“Thank god.” I sighed in relief. “I have had enough reading. Too much we have found out at once.” I said as Logan kept looking back into the book. He was skipping pages, then looked up at me.
“Dad’s never mention in having a sister to you, has he?” I shock my head. Logan took a deep breath in. “She’s alive, sort of.”
“What? What do you mean sort of?” I asked as I took the book from him and saw what he saw.
‘I don’t believe it. The only family Tanner had was now gone… More like dead, as in vampire.’
“Vampire??”

Chapter 3: TBA

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Not Again – Intro & Chapter 1 (Short Story)

Not Again Book Cover

Hey dearies! Here is my next book! I just wanted to give you guys a heads up that this is a short story that I wrote back in high school for one of my assignments. I’m surprised that my English teacher didn’t think I was nuts, but since it has sort of a ‘murder’ theme, I figured this is the perfect time to show it! 

It is a short story and I haven’t had any time to edit at it, so I am sorry if they’re are errors. This is just to hold you guys off until I can get Unclear 2, at least, half-way done. This is a short story, so the chapters will be very short. 

*Warning: Mature Content is advised! Read at your own risk!

~Intro~

It had been a year, since I lost my father. My mother was very upset when he died. He was her true love, her missing puzzle piece, and not to forget, her best friend. Ever since he died, my mother has changed. She started to work from home, not going out anywhere unless I begged her to go grocery shopping. She stopped talking to her friends, and just became a loner.
My older sister, May, and her husband, Nick, moved in because she knew that our mother needed to be safe and with her daughters by her side. Little did we know that she was going to be left from this world into another, until it did happen.

~Chapter 1: Before The Party~

~2 weeks before~
“Honestly, I really don’t want to go to Hannah’s party this weekend.” I told as Sami rolled her eyes. “I’m really not for parties anymore.”
“You need to stop hiding in the dark and have some fun in life! Just because today is the anniversary of his death, doesn’t mean you need to avoid big opportunities in life.” She said as she sat down at my desk, then taking out her phone and playing Angry Birds.
Sami love Angry Birds, she told me that’s how she calms down, when she sees people who she just wants to knock out. Plus she is very good, considering that she is failing Geometry for the 2nd year in a row.
“I know, but it all happened so fast…The cancer that we didn’t know about…” I spoke softly, hold the picture of me and my dad, when I was little. I can still remember that day by heart.
“Let’s not talk about this anymore.” Sami said as I could see she looked very annoyed with me. Goddamn, if I could smack her, I would. “How about we pick out an outfit that Chris will die for!”
Chris was my best friend as well. I’ve known him longer than Sami, but I shared my little secret that really liked him, more than friends. Since I told Sami that, she has been making fun of me for being scared to tell him that I love him. Nevermind that, I can’t even ask him out on a date, let alone tell him that I have major feeling for the guy.
“No, I really don’t want to go, Sami. And besides, he’ll never like me.” I said as I hid my face in my pillow. As if he would understand how I feel.
“You are not going to sit here and be a sour puss. You are coming to that party, whether you like it or not! I will drag you out by your hair if I have to!” Sami said as she was searching through my closet and then stop to pull out a orange summer dress. “You are going to wear this and you are going to look fabulous!”

If you want to check out the finished story, check it out on Wattpad! Just search my username, katieasehl, and not only will you find this work, but other’s I have either finished or I’m currently working on. 

Chapter 2 – Best Night Of My Life:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/15/my-writing-not-again-chapter-2-short-story/

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Mom Talk: Why I Decided To Fix An Old Friendship

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So, if you have been reading or following my blog since April of this year, I talked about how I had to get rid of one of my best friends because it was too much unwanted drama and stress. I didn’t fix that relationship, believe me, it’s not worth fixing, to me.

I’m talking about another relationship that I destroyed back in my senior year of high school. I can’t really remember why I got rid of her as a friend. I believe it was because I thought she was more drama, but I don’t have a set reason on why I did what I did.

I’ve known her since the 10th grade, but we really connected and became best friends in 11th grade. We had many fights, but always fixed them as soon as possible. When senior year was coming to an end, I ended the friendship. Maybe because I didn’t think I would see her as much? Maybe I wanted to end the pain of losing her as a friend?

The only thing I can think of is that I was very immature and everyone in high school can be immature. What really made me look back and realized all the stupid shit I did and all the people I pushed out of my life, was when I lost my son.

When you go through something as difficult and it changes you. You think of things differently, you rethink all your actions, and you become more mature after going through something as difficult as death or anything.

After my son died, I deleted my old Facebook and created a new one a few months after, I wanted time away from social media. Well, in the past couple weeks, I saw her profile pop up on my suggestions list for friends. I debated on whether on messaging her or not, just because on how I ended things so quickly and without reason.

I’ll be honest, when I finally got the courage to message her, I literally had it all wrote out on my phone, planning on what I was gonna say to her. Deep down, I knew that I should at least be an adult and say sorry for all the crap I caused. All I thought she would do is have my ass handed to me, which I totally deserved, but I was shocked.

I think she was shocked too when I sent that message, but I’m glad I did. She forgave me, something I didn’t think that would happen, but she did. It shows how much we have both grown up in the past almost 3 years.

We ended up telling each other everything we have done within the past 3 years. We even talked about our high school days. I was shocked to find out that she had been thinking about me too, wondering why I got rid of her as a friend.

If I looked back at the only really close friendships I had, the one I had with her, was probably the best because we clicked a lot better that I did with my other ex best friend. The ex best friend, we had a few things in common, but I feel I was more issues and drama because she wanted to be center of attention.

I’m glad I took the shot to fix a broken friendship that I ruined. It felt good to know that after 3 years, we clicked back, just like that. Even now, that I have kids, she still would’ve stayed if I just kept her in my life, but the past is in the past. I’m going to try my best to, hopefully, keep this friendship for many more years and years to come.