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New Schedule For Katie’s Blog!

Hello dearies! As we are reaching to the end of the year, I just wanted to give you guys some heads up on the new schedule for my blog. I know that you guys want content, which I am working on for the upcoming year!

For the past week, I have been working on a way on how I can make myself become more active on my blog. Figuring out what I love to do and what I really didn’t care or have enough excitement to do. Meaning, I don’t want to write or blog about stuff that I don’t have enough of an excitement to do.

So, let’s begin!

-Art & Crafts and/or Crafty Sassy

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So, this topic, is not going anywhere. I love to try and make new things and this challenges me, which I love to do! Crocheting, of course, will be my top project and I will keep posting on Tuesdays, like I have done normally on Tuesdays. HOWEVER, I have stuff planned out in advanced, so that I don’t run out of ideas on what to do next.

That being said, here is what is going to be ‘new’ for Crafty Sassy:

  • Temperature Blanket
    • This is something I have found and I am very excited to try it out. Basically, you are crocheting a granny square a day of what the temperature was that day.
    • I plan on giving you guys updates once a month, so that you can see my progress.
  • Project of the Month
    • This is something I want to try out. Every month, I will make a project of the month, which the design is going to represent each month.
    • These’s will be done for the first week of each month with a different project for each month.
  • Bookmark of the Month and/or Coaster of the Month
    • I’m still debating on whether to do this or not, but for bookmarks, there are a lot of ideas I would love to try, same goes with coasters.
    • Either way, these’s projects would be done for the last week of the month.

The rest of the weeks, I will ask you guys on my Facebook Page on which I should do and go live showing you OR have a pre-made video on ‘how-to’ make that particular design. This also gives you guys a chance to let me know what project or design I should do next.

-Gaming

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This was another topic that I barely posted about, but I am going to try my best to make a change to post more. First off, I would like to start going live or stream live, but I still have to look into it and make sure I know what I am doing before I jump on it.

For the time being, gaming stuff might be tips or updates on my Sims Series or reviews in general. Like I said, this one might take a little longer to get started, but I plan on post/streaming Sunday’s. Make sure you like my Facebook Page, that would be the best place for me to give you guys updates on this.

-Mom Talk

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This one has been off and on, but I will try my best to add more. It is very difficult because when I first started, I had so much to talk about, but now, I find that it might be harder for me to post about ‘Mom Talk’ stuff.

Is it something that is ending? No! I will try to post one of these at least once a month, but don’t quote me on it. When I first started out doing it, it was a way to let me release my fears or answer someone’s questions about parenting, but in my sense of style.

-My Books

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If you haven’t noticed, I have been working on some changes to my blogging website. If you are looking for my books, they are in that tab, but let’s talk about what’s going on with that.

Now, I am currently in the middle of a book, which is on Wattpad. I’m trying to get as much as I can done before starting the new year, and no, I’m not rushing it. I have a lot of ideas for it and just never had the time until now.

If you are wondering why I’m not posting very much, that is why. I’m making sure that this next book will last, at least, a half of the year to a year. What I mean by that, I need to have enough chapters to post on Mondays and Fridays, but because I am trying to become a better creative writer, my book chapters will be posted on Mondays only.

The reason why I posted them on Mondays and Fridays was that I saw a lot of people checking them out more on those days, so I made it more for my readers, but once I realized I didn’t have enough work for my audience (you guys), I had to come up with a better plan.

So, for the New Year, chapters of my next book will be published on Mondays. Sorry for the long ramble, but writers tend to do it.

-My Writing

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This was where I labeled my books ‘My Writing’, but that is changing. Which I will be going back to EVERY chapter for each book and getting rid of the ‘My Writing’ title because I have something bigger and better planned for it.

Here is what is starting to go in this category:

  • 365 Days of Writing
    • I saw it on Pinerest that some of them where doing writing prompts for every day for 365 days of the year, which I am very excited to start the beginning of this upcoming year!
    • Basically, I will be posting something everyday, for my writing prompt, but what it is about is a surprise for you guys!
  • Friday’s Short Stories
    • Every Fridays, I will be picking a theme or genre and writing a short story on that particular theme or genre.
    • If you know me, I love writing about romance and love, but I am very excited to try this out, as well! I will also be posting what theme or genre I will be doing on my Facebook Page, so if you guys want to try it out with me as well!

-Reviews

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This is something new that I want to try out. The reviews can be on anything, from books, T.V. Shows, movies, products, etc. I have a plan that I want to try and split it up, so that the reviews aren’t about just books, or just movies.

I don’t have a plan on what day I planned on doing them on, but I think Thursdays, once a month, I will do a review, if not, every other week. Like I said, this is something new and I will also make a video to go with it as well, than just a normal written review.

-Wrestling (WWE)

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So, for me, it was very stressful to do a re-cap of Raw and Smackdown, that’s why I stopped and the fact that I don’t watch them until the weekend. It didn’t make sense to keep doing it unless I was posting the same day that Raw and Smackdown aired.

Superstar of the Week and Hall of Famer of the month was also very stressful, but let’s talk about why. When I thought about doing it, I thought it was a great idea, I loved the fact that I picked a male and female superstar and talked about them, but I felt that I was rushing each one.

Instead of taking the time to write about them, I felt that I didn’t take the time to really write about them. I’m sorry if that doesn’t make any sense, but as a writer, I like to make sure that everything I post is something that is worth reading and I really rushed those ones.

Here is how I’m going to learn from my mistakes:

  • Superstars of the Month
    • These are going to be written a month in advance, but twice a month, I will post a male superstar of the month the first week of the month.
    • And a female superstar of the month the last week of the month.
    • January, we will start out with the Raw brand and then switch off every month. I will still post on Wednesdays for this topic.
  • Pay-Per-Views
    • So, instead of recapping Raw and Smackdown, I will be doing it for the PPV’s. Which are usually on Sundays and I usually watch these live.
    • I figured this would be a little easier for me to do, than trying to recap Raw and Smackdown.

-Podcasts/YouTube Channel

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Yes, podcasts are still a iffy. I am not sure that I will bring them back or not. It is something that I would still love to do, but I have realized that it might be better with another person with me.

So, for podcasts, they are currently not in the plan for the New Year, but if you want me to keep doing them or thing they were worth me putting the time in, then I will possibly think about it.

My YouTube Channel will become more active in the New Year. I am going to make sure that any craft projects, reviews, and my Sims Series are uploaded more. I have a plan to make sure to work on my Sims Series more and make sure that I upload a new episode every month, if not, twice a month.

For the craft projects, basically a how-to’s and updates to any of my finished projects, especially the temperature blanket. Like I said, I have a lot to plan in the upcoming new year.

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There it is! The plan for the upcoming new year. I will try my best to post more stuff, but thank you for all being so patient! If I do post anything, it might be for my store or new craft projects. I do want to have some new patterns for you guys!

 

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What’s Going On For My Blog, YouTube Channel, and Facebook Page?

Hey Dearies! It has been awhile since I’ve posted a blog post and I wanted to chat up with you about what has been happening in my life and the future of my blog, YouTube channel, and Facebook page.

I’m NOT done! Making this very clear! I ain’t quitting any time soon!

I’ve had a lot going on in my personal life and we also had a death in the family. I’m doing my best to mourn over our family’s lost, it’s a lot easier said than done. So, if I’m not able to post stuff on here or any of my social media platforms, please be patient with me.

Another thing that is happening is that there is a lot going on in my mind. The holidays can be very difficult for me because of the lost of my son. It can be difficult to do some stuff with my daughter and realize I won’t ever be able to do it with my son.

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Anyway, that’s what has been going on, but let’s talk about what the future is going to be like for the following platforms of mine.

My Facebook Page/Online Business (Katie’s Craft Studio):

I’m very active, when it comes to my Facebook page, so if you are ever looking for an update, check it out! It is where I will mostly post any updates or when blog posts are going to be out.

The online business, I am trying to get some more stuff together, working on a logo and business card. If you want to order anything that I offer, you can send me an e-mail or message me on my Facebook page for the time being.

I am currently working on a online order form for my small business, but it is still in the works. I’ll update the status of that on my Facebook page. I have thought about Etsy, but I want to offer more products, but I need to have the clients to order them first. Again, I’ll be posting an update on it.

My Blog: 

Yes, I will still be doing my blog. I have a couple new ideas, just to make sure that I am active everyday. I am also still working on Unclear 2, which I will explain that in a second.

Starting January 1st, I will be doing the 365 blog posts, it’s like a writing prompt which can help be become a better blogger and writer, so that will be public for your viewing pleasure.

Unclear 2 is in the works, it is out on Wattpad and I have been updating it, very slowly, but I will be doing a ‘short story’ of the month where I have a set theme and I have to write a short story on that theme or topic.

I’ll start doing reviews about anything. From books, TV shows, movies, or products! I’ve always wanted to do this, so for next year, I’m going to try my best to make it happen, at least once a month!

As for Crafty Sassy, I am going to have a plan on what items I would like to show every Tuesday. I can go live on my Facebook page, but I feel it would be better to give you guys an actually video on how to make some of the stuff, but more edited and clear to understand. Which will be posted on my blog and on my YouTube page, but we will get to that.

For wrestling and WWE stuff, I’m going to try and figure something out with that because I still love watching it, but it might just be for the pay-per-views and what I thought about the matches. I have thought about doing just a Superstar of the month and not every week because I feel like I have rushed most of them and I want to take the time to make them better.

The gaming part of my blog will be more active! I have a few ideas and I am actually going to try and live stream for my YouTube channel. I will also record myself showing how to’s- for Minecraft, Sims, etc.

YouTube Channel (KatiePurrPurr):

Nope, I’m also not done for this either. Although, I am working on getting a better camera because the one I have isn’t the best, when it comes to going live. So for now, I’ll try my best to ‘work with it’, but it isn’t going to be the best thing ever. I also need to get some better lighting as well.

The Sims series, I am working on it, right now, I do have a problem with the Sims because I need them to get to the weekend days, so that I can film. I will also have different idea for the series, I’m going to ‘free film’, basically filming without having a script. I’ve never done that before, but it will be new to me!

The second episode is in the works, I just need to film it and then I will go from there.

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So, a few things are changing for my platforms, but I’m not done! I’m not giving up! I just need to get back on track, which I will be on January 1st of 2019. For the time being, I will do my best to post stuff, but it might just be Crafty Sassy stuff.

Thank you for all that have supported me and have stayed with me through this progress!

 

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Not Again: List of Chapters

Not Again is a short story that I wrote back in my Junior year of high school. It isn’t the best, but I just haven’t have the time to go back and edit at it because it really does. Anyway, here is the list of chapters, just so you don’t have to scroll through all of them.

Intro and Chapter 1:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/12/my-writing-not-again-intro-chapter-1-short-story/

Chapter 2:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/15/my-writing-not-again-chapter-2-short-story/

Chapter 3:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/19/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-3/

Chapter 4:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/22/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-4/

Chapter 5:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/26/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-5/

Chapter 6:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/29/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-6/

You can always check out Wattpad for the full book, but I have heard that posting a list of chapters, especially to long books, helped out a lot of you and I find that it was easier to find a chapter you are looking for.

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My Writing: Not Again – Short Story (Chapter 5)

Not Again Book Cover

*Warning Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 4, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/22/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-4/

~Chapter 5~

As soon as I got off the phone with the police, I then called May and Nick. I know May won’t take this very well because she was always a mama girl. Anywhere my mother went, May would follow her.
“May?” I said as I heard her pick up of the other line. I tried to hold my tears back, but I just couldn’t.
“Yeah, are you alright?” she said as I then wiped my tears away. “What’s wrong, honey?” After she called honey, I started to ball my eyes more. My mother would call me honey all the time. “Alexis? What is going on?”
“Just get here. Come home now, please, I need you. Mom needs you.” I cried even more. Just mentioning her name, was getting me even more upset.
“I’m turning on our street now, but why is there a bunch of cops outside our house?!?!” She said as I heard the door opened. I then hung up the phone and looked up to find an officer and paramedics in front of me. I looked back down at my mother and cried.
Then May and Nick rushed into the house as soon as I saw May,she was in tears. May got down on the floor and she took and hugged my mother’s lifeless body in her arms. She then looked up at me and then hugged me.
“Who did this to her?” May spoke after a few minutes of hugged me. I then looked down at the bloody floor and the piece of paper that I threw on the floor. I went over and picked it up and gave it to Nick. He opened it up and read it, then gave it to May.
“I can’t believe she did this. That spoiled brat and of course our mother didn’t fight back! She was weak and sadden by the lost of her husband. She is going to pay for what she did!” May was angry and I was afraid that she might do something that she might regret.
“Let the police take care of it. She’ll get what’s coming to her.” Nick said, helping her up from the floor as the paramedics took my mother away. “Why don’t you go upstairs and take a bath? I’ll be right up there.” May nodded and then went up stairs to go wash herself off.
May is a strong person. Even though our parents are dead, she has been strong. Even when she went through break-ups and the death of her first baby. I never thought May would ever get over that, but she did. She wouldn’t do anything for weeks, until she then moved on from it. I was about to go upstairs, but Nick wanted me to tell the police everything that had happen.
“Do you know where Samantha is living?” One of the officers asked me. I nodded and then told them where she lived. I hope that she get’s what’s coming to her.

This book is also on Wattpad, if you would like to check it out on there, just search my username katieasehl.

Chapter 6 – Sami’s P.O.V:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/29/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-6/

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My Writing: Not Again – Short Story (Chapter 4)

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*Warning: Mature Content. Read at your own risk, especially if you hate reading about blood or murder.*

If you haven’t read Chapter 3, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/19/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-3/

~Chapter 4: The Second Worst Day Of My Life~

“Mom! May! Nick! Im home.” I shouted and walked into the house. All the lights were off. Maybe they went shopping. I then looked on the fridge and saw the note that May left for me.
Alexis,
Nick and I went out to have dinner. Mom knows where we are and I should be home around 8.
May & Nick

I then turned on the light to find a trail of blood on the kitchen floor. I slowly followed it until I reached a puddle of blood with my mom. Dead. Tears started to come down like a waterfall. I ran to her and cradled her in my arms, hoping that this was all just a dream. I pinched myself, but I wasnt dream. My fathers dead. Now my mother is. Who else will be taken from my life now?
I sat there, holding my mothers lifeless body, and wanted someone to take me too. Take me away from all of this. I want to be with my mother and father. I wanted all the bad karma to go away. I looked down at my mothers body, a knife was still in her heart. She was wearing a sweater with a pocket that was on her left breast. There was something white sticking out of that pocket. I reached out and pulled it from the pocket.
It was a folded piece of paper that was addressed to my name. I unfolded the piece of paper that was written in my best friends handwriting. Well, ex-best friend, but a best friend. As it read:
You made me do this. If you had not made out with my boyfriend,
she would still be breathing, now shes not nor will she ever. You
dont deserve to be happy. I do. Ive been through everything. And
yet, you couldnt help but be slut. I hope you die with your stupid mother.
And yet, she didnt put up much of a fight. Shes weak, just like you.
Stay away from me and my boyfriend.
Sami
I ended up crying even more. My mothers killer was Sami, my former best friend. She hasnt been through shit. She has gotten everything that she has ever wanted in life. Boys, clothes, cars, cellphone, laptops, and even flat screen TVs. She is nothing but a spoiled brat. I first lost my father, now my mother.
I end up crumpling up that paper and tossing it onto the floor. I then grabbed my cellphone and dialed 911.
911, what is your emergency? the 911 operator spoke as I wiped my tears and cleared my throat.
“Theres been a murder at my house. My mother is dead.” I spoke.
“Are you okay? Is anyone else hurt? We are sending help your way.”
“No, Im not hurt. Just hurry.”

If you can’t wait to finish this book, feel free to check it out on Wattpad, just look up katieasehl, not only will you find this work, but others that I have either finished, or I’m currently working on. 

Chapter 5:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/26/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-5/

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My Writing: Not Again – Short Story (Chapter 3)

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If you haven’t read Chapter 2, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/15/my-writing-not-again-chapter-2-short-story/

*Warning, Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

~Chapter 3: It Wasn’t Me~

I woke up the next morning with someone pounding on my door. Ugh, what did May want now? I looked over at the clock, 10:15 a.m., I might as well get up anyway. I got up and answered the door. It was Sami at my door and she looked pissed. She slapped me across the face really hard. What the hell was that for?
“You are such a slut!” Sami said as I rubbed my cheek. Boy, did she slap me hard. “You knew how much I loved Ty and then you go ahead and make-out with him in front of me! He was my boyfriend and you had to have him, didn’t you?” I looked up at her, confused, as I was. I left the party to go get food with Chris and then he dropped me back home.
“I left the party, Sami. I bumped into Chris and we went to go get Chinese food. And after that, he dropped me off home.” I said as Sami pulled up her phone. “I didn’t even go inside.” She then she showed me a picture of a girl, who was wearing the same dress that I was, that night, making-out with Ty.
“You ‘left’ the party alright.” Sami said as she was getting sarcastic. “You are going to pay for this.” She said and then slapped me one more time and left.
I left the party when Chris did. I know that wasn’t me. I would never do that to anyone, especially to Sami, but to be honest, she kinda did deserve it. I mean, I was her only real friend who cared about her. Now she was on her own, I guess.
I then got dressed and walked downstairs to find my mother sitting in her chair reading a book. She looked up from her book and smiled at me. I returned the smile.
“Hey, mom?” I said as she placed her book down and had her attention at me. “Is it okay, if I go to the library to study with Chris?” I asked.
“Of course you can. Just be home before dinner and please make sure you get home safe and sound.” She replied as I grabbed my backpack and my car keys.
“Don’t worry, I will. I’ll be back for dinner.” I said opening the door. My mother then went back to her book and continue to read. I’m glad that she is doing better today. I then left my house, excited to meet Chris at the library. I’m so glad things are changing, hopefully for the better.

If you can’t wait til the next chapter comes out, feel free to check it out on Wattpad, just search my username, katieasehl, not only will you find this book and others that are either finished or I’m currently working on.

Chapter 4:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/22/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-4/

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My Writing: Not Again – Chapter 2 (Short Story)

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If you haven’t read the intro or Chapter 1, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/12/my-writing-not-again-intro-chapter-1-short-story/

*Warning: Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

~Chapter 2: Best Night Of My Life~

Tonight was Hannah’s party and I was already nervous because I’m going to tell Chris how I feel tonight. Sami was already on board with the idea, but then again, when she goes to any party, she always wants to dance and have a good time.
I was waiting outside for Sami to come and pick me up when she pulled up into the driveway. I got in and she drove us to the party while listening to Rihanna, on the way there. My stomach was already turning. Ugh, why was I so nervous? I felt like I was going to throw up, but it was too late to back out now, we had just got to Hannah’s house.
“Do I have to go?” I asked as we stepped out of the car. “I’m feeling sick, please take me home.” Clearly, Sami was ignoring me because she was making sure that her hair make-up was okay. Then she looked up at me.
“You’re fine and you aren’t leaving until I want to go. And that will give you enough time to talk to Chris.” She said. I just wanted to leave. I can talk to Chris later. As soon as Sami walked inside and into the party, I started to turn around and walk home when I bumped into something.
“Oh, I’m sorry Alexis. I didn’t see you there.” As I heard a familiar voice, it was Chris. I looked up to see his hand reaching down to help me up. The butterflies were fluttering like crazy inside my stomach.
“Chris, I was actually just leaving.” I spoke as he helped me stand on my feet. We both stared at each other’s eyes. Like there was a real connection.
“It’s a shame that you aren’t staying, but then again, the only reason I did come, is because of you.” Chris smiled as I could feel my cheeks blushing. Did he just say what I think he just said?
“R-really?” As I said and looked at him in surprise.
“Yes, really.” He smiled once more. “Do you want to go get some Chinese food? My treat.” Chris knew that I loved to eat Chinese food all the time, if I could. I smiled and nodded my head. Hoping that tonight would be the best night of my life.

If you can’t wait until the next chapter, check it out on Wattpad! Just search my username, katieasehl, and not only will you find this book, but other’s that are finished or I’m currently working on. 

Chapter 3:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/19/my-writing-not-again-short-story-chapter-3/

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My Writing: Not Again – Intro & Chapter 1 (Short Story)

Not Again Book Cover

Hey dearies! Here is my next book! I just wanted to give you guys a heads up that this is a short story that I wrote back in high school for one of my assignments. I’m surprised that my English teacher didn’t think I was nuts, but since it has sort of a ‘murder’ theme, I figured this is the perfect time to show it! 

It is a short story and I haven’t had any time to edit at it, so I am sorry if they’re are errors. This is just to hold you guys off until I can get Unclear 2, at least, half-way done. This is a short story, so the chapters will be very short. 

*Warning: Mature Content is advised! Read at your own risk!

~Intro~

It had been a year, since I lost my father. My mother was very upset when he died. He was her true love, her missing puzzle piece, and not to forget, her best friend. Ever since he died, my mother has changed. She started to work from home, not going out anywhere unless I begged her to go grocery shopping. She stopped talking to her friends, and just became a loner.
My older sister, May, and her husband, Nick, moved in because she knew that our mother needed to be safe and with her daughters by her side. Little did we know that she was going to be left from this world into another, until it did happen.

~Chapter 1: Before The Party~

~2 weeks before~
“Honestly, I really don’t want to go to Hannah’s party this weekend.” I told as Sami rolled her eyes. “I’m really not for parties anymore.”
“You need to stop hiding in the dark and have some fun in life! Just because today is the anniversary of his death, doesn’t mean you need to avoid big opportunities in life.” She said as she sat down at my desk, then taking out her phone and playing Angry Birds.
Sami love Angry Birds, she told me that’s how she calms down, when she sees people who she just wants to knock out. Plus she is very good, considering that she is failing Geometry for the 2nd year in a row.
“I know, but it all happened so fast…The cancer that we didn’t know about…” I spoke softly, hold the picture of me and my dad, when I was little. I can still remember that day by heart.
“Let’s not talk about this anymore.” Sami said as I could see she looked very annoyed with me. Goddamn, if I could smack her, I would. “How about we pick out an outfit that Chris will die for!”
Chris was my best friend as well. I’ve known him longer than Sami, but I shared my little secret that really liked him, more than friends. Since I told Sami that, she has been making fun of me for being scared to tell him that I love him. Nevermind that, I can’t even ask him out on a date, let alone tell him that I have major feeling for the guy.
“No, I really don’t want to go, Sami. And besides, he’ll never like me.” I said as I hid my face in my pillow. As if he would understand how I feel.
“You are not going to sit here and be a sour puss. You are coming to that party, whether you like it or not! I will drag you out by your hair if I have to!” Sami said as she was searching through my closet and then stop to pull out a orange summer dress. “You are going to wear this and you are going to look fabulous!”

If you want to check out the finished story, check it out on Wattpad! Just search my username, katieasehl, and not only will you find this work, but other’s I have either finished or I’m currently working on. 

Chapter 2 – Best Night Of My Life:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/15/my-writing-not-again-chapter-2-short-story/

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My Secret Love: List Of Chapters

Hey Dearies! Since I did a list of chapters for Unclear, I figured I would do it for My Secret Love. Best part about this, is that it will be at the top of the ‘My Secret Love’ page!

So, at the end of a new book, I’ll then do a list of chapters, since it will be easier for people to find chapters or even jump back to a chapter they haven’t read!

*If any of the link aren’t working, let me know! I’ll fix them as soon as I know!*

Chapter 1:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/03/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-1/

Chapter 2:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/06/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-2/

Chapter 3:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/10/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-3/

Chapter 4:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/13/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-4/

Chapter 5:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/17/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-5/

Chapter 6:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/20/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-6/

Chapter 7:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/24/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-7/

Chapter 8:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/27/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-8/

Chapter 9:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/31/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-9/

Chapter 10:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/03/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-10/

Chapter 11:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/07/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-11/

Chapter 12:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/10/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-12/

Chapter 13:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/14/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-13/

Chapter 14:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/17/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-14/

Chapter 15:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/21/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-15/

Chapter 16:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/24/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-16/

Chapter 17:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/28/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-17/

Chapter 18:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/01/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-18/

Chapter 19:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/05/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-19/

Chapter 20:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/08/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-20/

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 20)

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*Warning: Mature Content! Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 19, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/05/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-19/

 

~Chapter 20~

I parked on the side of the road, crying. I didn’t know that my life would turn on me like this. My father and brother were dead. I killed my ex-fiance. And I ruined a amazing relationship with Michael.
I was a terrible person. I was too emotional and blamed everything on him. I looked up from the wheel, in my mirror and saw another vehicle parked behind mine. Then I realized that Michael was coming out of the car.
I wiped the tears from my eyes as I rolled down the window.
“Can I get in?” He asked. I nodded and he went around to the car and got in.
“What?” I said.
“Please, just let me talk.” Michael spoke as I shut my mouth for once.
“Listen, I know you are going threw a lot, with your father and brother dying and you killing your fiance, its a lot. I know, but I still love you.” He paused for a second. “If you need to take it out on me, go for it. I can take it, but I can’t take not being with you. You need me and I need you. I have always been there for you. Please lets get another fresh start. We can leave this place and never look back. What do you think, Elizabeth?”
Fresh start didn’t sound that bad. After all, I was a murder. I killed my ex. Leaving this place wouldn’t be too bad.
I looked over at him and took off his sun glasses. I leaned over and kissed him. It felt so good. I felt the same spark I did the very first time he kissed me.
Michael pulled away and gently graced my cheek. “I take that as a yes?”
“Yes.” I then pulled him into a kiss.
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~3 weeks later~
Michael and I moved into a little 2 bedroom cottage that was right next to this beautiful lake. Our cottage was basically in the middle of no where.
With everything that we have been through, I was very scared, but Michael has his buddies always on watch, just in case something were happen to me or the baby.
Yes, that’s right, I’m pregnant! I took a test today and it came out positive. I folded up a oneise that I ordered online, waiting for this moment to give to him. I walked into our little kitchen and placed the oneise on the table and the pregnancy test next to it.
I looked out the window and saw Michael, no shirt, cutting firewood. I opened up the screen door and walked over to him.
“Why don’t you come in for something to drink? I’ll get you a beer.” I smiled as he dropped the ax and placed his arm around my neck.
“A little break won’t hurt.” He said as we walked up to the cottage.
I opened the screen door and walked towards the fridge and grabbing a beer for him.
“What is this?” Michael said as I turned around and placed the beer on the table.
“Surprise? I took the test today.” I said.
“We are going have a baby?” he smiled as I nodded. He wrapped his arms around me. He got down on his knees and held my stomach. “No matter what, I will always protect you, my little son, or daughter.”
He came back up to his knees and gazed in my eyes. “I love you so much, Elizabeth.”
“I love you too, Mikey.” I smiled.
“Marry me.” He asked. He got back down on one knee and held out a beautiful ring. “I was going to do this tonight, but I think now would be a better time. Elizabeth, I love you so much. There is nothing I wouldn’t do to protect you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you and our beautiful child to be. Will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”
I started to cry and nodded my head. “Yes! I will marry you!” He placed the ring on my finger and kissed me.
After everything that had happen, I couldn’t of been more happier in my life. I am now engaged to a wonderful man and pregnant with our first child.
I just wished my brother was here to see me now. I know he is looking down on me, smiling from up above.
-The End-
Or is it?

Yes, this is the end of the book and I don’t have a sequel in mind. Although, I am working on a sequel for Unclear, but for now, I think everyone is wondering what is the next book I’m going to put out, well, that is a surprise!

I will also be doing a post with all the chapters on it, just so if you are new or can’t find a chapter, they will all be in one place! If any of the chapter links aren’t working, let me know and I’ll fix them as soon as possible!

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 19)

*Warning: Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 18, here is the link!

https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/01/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-18/

~Chapter 19~

“What the hell is your problem?” I woke up to someone screaming in the next room. I looked over, to see if Dylan was next to me, but he was gone. I rubbed my eyes and got out of the bed.

“My problem is that you can’t just fuck her for the fun of it!” Once I heard that voice, I knew who it was. I ran out of the bedroom to find Michael and Dylan yelling at each other.

“We didn’t fuck! You need to relax and let her be her own person. I would never do that to her. I cared about her-” I stopped Dylan in the middle of his sentence.

“What’s going on?” I asked, Michael walked over and hugged me.

“I have been looking everywhere for you!” I pulled away from his embrace. “We are leaving.” He grabbed my arm, trying to pull me to the door, but I pulled away.

“No.”

“No?” Michael spoke.

“No, I’m not going. You need to leave me alone. I can’t forgive you for what you did.” Michael threw his hands in his hair and walked back and forth.

“It wasn’t my fucking fault! Whatever, blame it on me because I wanted to save your life so that we could be happy together. I’ve tried, I’m done.” Michael then slammed the door.

“I’m so sorry about that. I didn’t think that he would go all through this trouble to find me.” I said. I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door.

Dylan followed. I could hear his footsteps following me.
“Please don’t go.” He paused when I turned around. “Is there anything I can do to help you?”

I nodded and he lead me into the garage. “You can take my Jeep and go where ever you want.” He handed me the keys and I got in and just drove. I never wanted to look back.

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Chapter 20:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/10/08/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-20/

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 18)

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*Warning: Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 17, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/28/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-17/

~Chapter 18~

I haven’t talked to Michael in over a week. I have been inside the house, crying over the death of my brother and drinking to heal the pain of losing him.
I walked into the kitchen and poured myself a shot. I downed it and poured another one. I saw Michael was still sleeping on the beach, he had gotten himself a tent and has been camping out on the beach until I welcomed him back in. Which I haven’t.
I missed him. I felt so stupid for blaming him for something that wasn’t completely his fault. I downed the second shot and looked at the time. It was only 3 in the afternoon. I figure I should get out of this house. I downed another shot and went to go get dressed.
I grabbed the car keys and walked out the front door. I wasn’t able to go to far because Michael was just about to knock on the door.
“Hey, how are you?” He asked as he looked down in my hands and saw the bottle of tequila and car keys I had in my hand. “Where are you going?”
I was silent and slowly walked passed him. I didn’t know what to say, but cry at this point.
“You shouldn’t be driving with that.” He said as I then turned to him and tossed the keys to him.
“Fine, I will walk.” I said before turning around and muttering ‘asshole’. I took another sip and walked down the boardwalk. It wasn’t that busy for a Friday, but it looked like it was going to rain. I still kept walking, taking sips of the bottle of tequila while people stopped and stared. I could care less. My life was coming to be pointless.
I found an empty bench that was facing the ocean, I just sat and watched the sun set. Someone came up and sat next to me. “Elizabeth?”
I turned and saw Dylan, the guy I met at the nightclub. I turned and faced the ocean again. “Are you okay? You look like you have been crying. Is everything okay?”
I took another sip and muttered ‘No’. I started to cry some more. “What can I do to help you? I’m not gonna leave you here to be drunk.”
“Can you bring back my dead brother?” I asked, looking at him.
“I can’t.”
“Then there is nothing you can do for me.”
“Where is your boyfriend? Do you want me to go find him for you?” I laughed.
“I never had one to begin with.” I said, still laughing that he thought that Michael was my boyfriend.
“Okay, well, what do you want to do?” He asked as I got up to stretch. “Get drunk with me.” I downed the rest of the bottle and handed it to him. I started to walk down to the nightclub, where we first met. Dylan followed and threw the bottle in the trash and grabbed my hand. I held onto his hand, not caring if Michael saw.
“I want some shots!” I yelled at Dylan, while we were standing at the bar. Dylan nodded and ordered some for us. Once they were in front of me, I looked at Dylan and grinned. “I’m gonna warn you that I’m already pretty drunk and that I might take your shots.” He then downed his and mine once I finished speaking.
“Hey! Now you need to order more!” I said, Dylan laughed and I smiled. I haven’t smiled in such a long time that it felt good to smile.
“Bartender, I need two more for her.” Dylan said as the bartender poured another two shots. I downed them both and looked up at Dylan. “Do you want to go back to my house? I’ve got a hot tub.”
“Yeah! I don’t have a bathing suit though.” I said Dylan paid the bartender and we started to walk out.
“That’s okay, I can buy you one or you can go in your bra and panties.” He smirked. I grabbed his hand as we walked down the boardwalk to his house. His place was huge, like a mansion, almost. “Dude, I didn’t know you were rich!” Dylan laughed as he opened the gate and held open for me. “Who do you think owns the boardwalk?”
“Shut up! No way!” I said as we walked up the path and entered into his home. We walked upstairs to his room and on the balcony was a hot tub. He started to take off his shirt and looked at me. “Well what are you waiting for?” He then got into the hot tub. I slowly took my tank top off and then my shorts. I was wearing a red bra and panties set. “Damn, you look hot.” Dylan said as I took off my flip flops and got into the hot tub.
“This is so relaxing. Thank you.” I said as Dylan smiled.
“No problem, do you want something to drink and some music?” He asked, I shook my head yes as Dylan got out. “I’ll be right back.”
I closed my eyes and just took a minute to relax. It was a long time since I have felt relax, or calm. Dylan came back in and had turned on a Pandora station and handed me a glass of red wine.
I took a sip as he got back into the hot tub. “You look a lot more stressed free.” He said as he sat down beside me. “With what I had gone through in the past week or so, I needed this.”
He wrapped his arm around be and took a sip of his wine. I did as well. He then smiled. “So now that you aren’t with that dude, am I okay to finish what I started?” He asked, I took a moment to think about it. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea? I’m drunk and I don’t think Michael would like the fact that I would be doing something with another guy. I was still upset with him.
I looked at Dylan and placed a kiss on his lips. I pulled back and looked up at the sky, a tear fell from my cheek. “If you don’t mind me asking, but what happened?” I was silent for a minute. I closed my eyes and all I could picture was that bloody scene, my brother, death in my arms.
“My brother was shot in the head by my ex.” I said as I looked at him. “I thought I was in love with my ex, but once we were engaged, everything changed about him.”
“He would beat and rape me. Some nights, I didn’t even want to go home. I didn’t feel safe anymore.”
Dylan stayed silent after I took another breath.
“One night, I had enough, he beat me almost to death and that’s when Michael took my brother and I here. I thought we would be safe, but he found me. My father was helping him look for me and he ended up killing him. Tim and I got away, but I blamed Michael for everything. Tim and I, stupidly, left Michael and stayed at a hotel. My ex found us, shot my brother and I killed him.”
I started to cry some more, Dylan then hugged me. “I’m so sorry, Elizabeth.” I looked up at him and he wiped my tears away. “Let’s get you into some dry clothes and get you some sleep, okay?” I nodded as Dylan helped me out of the hot tub. He gave me a shirt and sweatpants, that smelled like his scent. I laid down in his bed, placing the covers over me. “If you need anything, I’ll be downstairs.” As Dylan started to walk out of the room.
“Wait.” I said as Dylan stopped. “Can you lay with me?” I asked as Dylan nodded and got underneath the covers as well. He wrapped his arms around me and I fell off to sleep. The only thing that I was think about was Michael.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 17)

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*Warning* Mature Content! Read at your own risk!

If you haven’t read Chapter 16, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/24/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-16/

 

~Chapter 17~

“How are you feeling?” Michael said as I woke up. My head was pounding. I looked around the room and saw Michael laying down next to me in the bed. “l wanted to let you know that I laid your brother to rest. He’s buried in the back.”
It took me a minute to remember what had happen. Tears started to fall down my cheek as I started to sit up.
“Did I kill Justin?” I asked. Praying that this was some horrible dream. Michael looked at me and nodded.
I quickly got up, not believing that all this was real. I ran outside to the back of the house where Michael said my brother was buried. There I saw a wooden cross that was planted on the ground. I slowly walked towards the cross and dropped to my knees.
Tears fell from my cheeks as I saw what I had hoped was only a dream, but yet, my worst nightmare had happen instead.
All I could think that I was alone. I had no one left.
The only family I had left in my eyes was Tim. My father and mother did care about me, only if I was what they wanted me to be.
“I’m so sorry, Elizabeth.” Michael said as I looked up and saw Michael, from the corner of my eye, on his knees staring at me. ” I know this is a very hard time that you are going through, but you need to let me help you through this.”
My heart wanted to listen to him and let him help me, but my brain thought otherwise. He was the reason for all this mess, I thought to myself.
“You started this, all of this. Its your fault my brother is dead. I should’ve never allowed you to come back into my life.” I said.
“So you are going to blame me for everything that I had no control over?”
“Yes.” I stood up and so did Michael.
“I came back for you, so I could be with you. I didn’t know that Justin would beat you almost to death and kill your father and brother. You can’t blame someone else’s actions on someone else.” He paused as I looked away. My tears were starting to dry up on my face. “I didn’t know that he would find you-”
“That’s the thing. He did find me! You said that my brother and I were both safe and that he would never find us, but he did!” I screamed at him.
“Elizabeth, I’m sorry. I love-”
“Don’t even finish that sentence! You only love yourself!.” I started to walk back to the house when he grabbed my arm.
“Will you let me finish?” He asked, I pulled my arm from his grasp.
“No! Fuck off and leave me alone!” I ran into the house and locked the door. I fell down to the floor with my back up against the door.
I could hear Michael climbing up the stairs and trying to open the door. “Please Elizabeth, let me in. Let’s talk about this.”
I stayed silent, until I heard his footsteps walk away from the door. I held my head in my hands as I started to dry even more.
I didn’t know what to do or how to feel about everything. My mind was everywhere. I knew it wasn’t Michael’s fault, but I wanted someone to blame. I cried even more knowing that I just pushed away my best friend and the love of my life.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 16)

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*Warning: Mature Content! Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 15, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/21/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-15/

 

~Chapter 16~

We finally made it to a hotel after driving for what seemed like daysyes. Michael kept blowing up my phone. I didn’t answer him. I was still upset with him. Tim has been talking to Michael, trying to get me to talk to him.
I grabbed some clothes and a towel and headed for the bathroom.
“I’m gonna take a shower now. You want to go down to the bar for drinks?” I asked. Tim nodded and I headed into the bathroom.
Once I got in, I locked the door and stripped from all of my clothes. I turned on the shower and waited until I feel the water getting warm.
The water felt great on my face. It was very relaxing. I didn’t think of anything that had happened in the past day. It felt like I was washing all my problems and stress from my body, until I heard a knock on the bathroom door.
“You almost done?” Tim asked as I turned off the water and grabbed a towel.
“Yeah, let me get dressed and I’ll be right out.” I started to dry myself, but something didn’t feel right.
“Please hurry.” Tim spoke again. I started to worry. I quickly got dressed. I then slowly unlocked the door and opened it. I froze when I saw him.
“Don’t you look sexy with your hair dyed, don’t you?” Justin said, holding a gun to my brothers head. “Man, was it hard to find you.”
“Let go of my brother.” I said. Justin smirked.
“Oh Elizabeth, do you really think I was going to let go of your brother so easily?” He then shot my brother in the head. I screamed as I caught my brother falling to the floor. My hands started to fill with his blood. “You said to let go of your brother, but didn’t say how.”
“You didn’t need to kill him. He was the only family I had left.” I cried, looking down at my brother, hugging him in my arms tightly.
“That’s true. He was your only living family left, but now, you only have me.” I looked up at him in anger. He pointed the gun on me. “Now get the fuck up. We are going to our new home.”
“I’m not going anywhere. Kill me for all I care. I have no will to live anymore.” I looked up at him and moved the gun to my head. “Pull the trigger.”
Justin looked at me and stayed silent.
“Pull the fucking trigger, asshole!” I screamed. Still holding the gun to my head. I slowly grabbed the pocket knife that was in my back pocket and slipped it in my sleeve.
“I won’t kill you. I love you too much.” Justin said, putting the gun down and taking his other hand to touch my face. “I missed you so much, Elizabeth.” He pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I pulled the pocket knife out and sliced his throat.
“Its a shame I never loved you.” I said as he fell to his knees, both of his hands were holding his throat as blood kept gushing from his throat. I backed away and dropped the knife.
I grabbed my cell phone and dialed.
“Elizabeth, I’m so glad called you. I am so sorry for-” I stopped him in the middle of his sentence.
“Mikey, I need you. Please track my phone and help me.” I said.
“What’s going on? I’m on my way.” He said. I went quiet and started to cry. “What’s wrong? Where’s Tim?”
“He-he’s dead.” I then hung up, dropped the phone and held my dead brother in my arms and waited for Michael to come and get me. I didn’t know what to do.
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“What the hell happened in here?” Michael said as he walked in the room. “Is he?”
“Dead.” I nodded. ” I-I killed him. I killed him.”
Michael leaned down and started to hug me as I cried harder. “I know, but don’t worry. We will get this all cleaned up.” He said as he pulled out his phone and dialed.
“Danny, I need you to get up here. I also need some clean clothes for Elizabeth and some bodies bags.” He spoke. “You’ll see when you get up here.” He hung up.
I then looked up at Michael and then looked down at Tim’s lifeless body. “We should’ve never left. None of this would’ve happened.”
“It’s not your fault. I didn’t think he was going to find either of you.”
“I should’ve left by myself and Tim would still be alive.” Tim should’ve never got in the car with me.
“Tim would’ve never left you to go off my yourself.” Michael then stood up as he was trying to get me to stand up. “Come on, let’s get you cleaned up and we will take care of your brother.”
Michael held my hands as I stood up and looked into his eyes. I then laid my head on his chest as he held me close. I started to cry some more.
“Holy shit, this is a blood bath.” Danny said as he walked into the hotel room. “Mikey, we got to get this shit cleaned up soon. I paid the owner to stay quiet, but one of the other guest called the cops.”
“Okay, Elizabeth, grab your stuff and put on this black sweatshirt. Get down to the car and we will take care of the rest.” Michael then placed a kiss on my forehead. I then grabbed my bag and headed downstairs to the lobby.
As I was walking through the lobby, all I could think of was Tim. My eyes started to water. People were staring at my as I walked towards the black hummer. Before I opened the door, I started to feel dizzy. Everything was starting to spin and I felt myself falling towards the ground.
The only thing I heard before falling to the ground was someone screaming my name before everything went black.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 15)

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*Warning: Mature Content. Read at your own risk!*

If you haven’t read Chapter 14, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/09/17/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-14/

~Chapter 15~

I looked at myself in the mirror. Took a deep breathe and smiled. Looking outside, it was a beautiful evening for a date on the boardwalk. I was nervous, its been years since I’ve been on a date with Michael.
Michael was sitting on the swing in dark blue jeans with a plaid button up shirt. He smiled when he saw me. “You look beautiful.” He said.
I smiled as he stood up and planted a kiss on my forehead. “Ready for tonight?”
I nodded as he grabbed my hand and we started to walk down to the board walk.
“So, what do you have in mind for tonight?” I asked.
“That’s for me to know and you to find out.” He smirked. “But it will be a night to remember.”
I started to get butterflies in my stomach, just like I did the first time we met.
As we walked down the boardwalk, we headed over to the amusement park. I started to smile. He remembered.
Our first date was at the town fair and he had snuck me out, since my parents hated him and did not like the fact that he was a ‘bad boy’, has my father put it.
Michael tugged my hand, “So where do you want to start? Your choice.”
I smiled as I pointed over to, what was called, the Thunderbolt. One of my favorite rides to go on.
We started to walk over to the ride, when I noticed him. I froze were I stood. He wasn’t alone. My father was standing right next to him.
“We can’t go over there.” I said as Michael looked to confused.
“What are you talking about?” He asked, as my father spotted me from the distance. I turned around and ran as fast as I could, pulling Michael with me. “What the hell is going on?”
I ignored him and kept running, until I ran into the nightclub, that was  far enough to explain. Once we got in, I hurried over to wear the bathrooms were.
“Are you going to tell me what the fuck is going on right now?”
“He’s here.”
Michael’s face froze. “Who’s here?”
“My dad and my ex. They were standing by the ride with a SWAT team. I have to let my brother know.” I pulled out my phone and dialed my brother’s number.
The phone kept ringing and ringing. He wasn’t picking up. I was getting worried. “How did they find me?” I asked as Michael was on his phone calling out to someone.
I tired to call my brother again, still no answer.
“We have to go back to the house.” I said as I started walk away. Michael grabbed my hand.
“We can’t. We need to stay here, my boys are on their way to get your brother and bring them to a safe location.”
“Michael, how did they find me?” I asked again.
“I’m not sure, I did everything to prevent them from finding you or your brother. My friend, Caleb, said that they checked the video footage of us all boarding the plane, but he can’t confirm for sure.”
Michaels phone went off and he quickly answered the text message. “Did they find my brother? Is he okay?” Michael had a sad look on his face, which worried me. “Michael, my brother is fine, right??” I asked again.
“I’m honestly not sure, but we do need to get out of here, now.” He grabbed my hand as we went out the back door.
Their was a black Hummer waiting for us. We jumped into the car and sped away.
“Jay, what the fuck is going on?” Michael asked the guy in the driver seat.
“Shit just went down and let’s just say I grabbed you guys shit and fucking left.” He explained, driving as fast as he could.
“Where’s my brother? Is he okay?” I asked.
“We got him just in time before they started to blowing shit up, but when we spilt, they caught the sight of Ren’s car and started to follow him. I tired to get your brother to get in my car, but I don’t think he heard me.”
“Where are they now?” Michael asked as he jumped in the other front seat and grabbed the GPS. “Shit, they are on his tail.” Michael turned to me. “Call your brother right now.”
I dialed my brother’s number. It kept ringing, until I heard his voice. “Tim, are you okay? Please tell me if you are okay?”
“Sweetie, I’m fine, but your wondering ex is on our ass.”
“Did you see dad?”
“Yeah, but about him, he’s never going to hurt us anymore.”
“What do you mean, Tim?” I felt like I was gonna throw up.
“He’s dead.” I went silent and froze.
“Elizabeth, hey, what did he say?” I dropped my phone on my lap and Michael quickly grabbed it.
“Hey Tim, its Mikey. What’s going on?”
I just couldn’t believe it. My father was actually dead? I hated him, but I never wished for him to be dead. I still stood, frozen.
All I could think of is that I went through all this trouble and my father ends up being killed. My mind kept racing.
Michael got off the phone and turned to look at me.
“Elizabeth? You okay?” He asked. I still went silent. “We are going to meet up with your brother in a little bit. They lost your ex in the backways.”
I looked out the window and stared through the glass.

We finally stopped driving when we got to a place that looked like a safe house. Michael looked back to me, but I ignored him. I was just overwhelmed with everything. I didn’t know how to feel.
I got out the car and fell to my knees. Tears fell from my face. I couldn’t stop crying. All I could picture was my father, taking Tim and I to the park, playing on the playground as he would watch from one of the park benches. Back to when we were younger and there was nothing wrong with my life. Back before I met Michael.
“Elizabeth, I’m here for you.” Michael said as he wrapped his arms around me. I didn’t feel that warmth that I felt before, nor how much I loved him. All I could feel was rage.
I stood up, pushing him off of me.
“Don’t fucking touch me!” I screamed. “You caused all this! This is your fault! I wish I never met you!” I slapped Michael across his face. My tears were starting to dry on my face because of the wind.
“It wasn’t my fault!” He said, but I didn’t believe him. “Can you please just calm down so we can figure out what’s going on.” I then saw another car pull up and Tim run out to me.
“No, I tired of listening to you! All you have done is ruin my life!” I looked over and Tim. “C’mon, I’m leaving.”
I started to walk over to one of the other vehicle that Tim was just in and got into the drivers seat. Tim got on the other side, but Michael stopped before I could close the door.
“You aren’t going anywhere. I know you are angry with me, but you and your brother going out on your own is a bad idea.” He paused. “I don’t want to risk you getting hurt when I could’ve protected you.”
I then sat down in the drivers seat and looked up at him. “Just like you protected me from getting beaten. You weren’t their for me, only after when I was left for dead. You never stopped him from beating me or raping me. I’m better off by myself rather being protected by you.”
I could see the hurt in Michael’s eyes. I knew he hated himself for happened to me. I knew it was gonna hurt him, but it was the only way he was going to let go of the door and let me leave.
I slammed the door shut, started the car and drove off.
“Where are we going exactly?” Tim asked after a few moments of silence.
“I don’t know. Anywhere, but here.” I said as we drove down the long road ahead of us.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 14)

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~Chapter 14~

I walked back and forth in my room. Thinking about everything. Why was I saying that it was a mistake? It felt like a mistake in my mind, but in my heart, it was perfect.
I haven’t talked to Michael in a few days. He hasn’t said a word to me, yet.
I threw my hands in my hair. I was so confused. I didn’t know what to do. Maybe I should just give him a chance and see how it goes. Or just move on and see if someone else would better for me.
The one thing that I couldn’t stop thinking about, was the sex. Just thinking about him putting his hands over me and toughing me. Him kissing my lips so passionately. I was getting wet just thinking about it.
I laid on my bed and my phone went off.
Mikey: U in ur room? 
I smiled down at my phone when I read his text.
Me: Yeah, just thinking.
I sat up and looked out my window. The sun was just about to set, with bright warm colors surrounding the sky. Tomorrow would be a perfect day to go to the beach, but a drink sounded great.
Mikey: About wat? Us, I hope.
I rolled my eyes, what else could I be thinking about?
The sex, duh.
Well, that too.
Me: Yeah, and other things.
I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs to see Michael on the counter, with a grin on his face. He looked up, still grinning.
“What were the other things?” He asked as I went into the fridge and grabbed some liquor. “Well, well, going hard tonight?”
He grabbed two shot glasses and placed them on the island. I opened the vodka and poured it in both shots.
“You know,” I said, placing the bottle back down and grabbing a shot. “Maybe you should join me.” I smirked and took the shot. The liquor burned going down my throat. Michael then took his shot and placed it back on the island.
“Maybe, I will.” As I poured us both another shot.
6 shots in and 4 beers in, I was feeling it. We were laughing, watching Trailer Park Boys. Michael rolled up a joint and lit it.
“W-What is that?” I asked. He inhaled and shot gunned the smoke into my mouth. I sucked in all I could before coughing my ass off. Michael started laughing.
“You ruined the moment, dummy.” He paused. “I was gonna kiss you after.” I got into his lap and threw my arms around his neck.
“I’m sorry, I haven’t smoked weed in like forever.” I took another sip of my drink.
“Wow. I’ll change that.” I giggled. He gazed in my eyes, god, was he beautiful. He turned and faced the t.v. I thought he was going to kiss me, but never made the effort.
“Why?”
“Why what?” He said.
“Why didn’t you kiss me?” I asked, leaning in closer. He turned and looked at me. “I won’t kiss you until you made up your mind.”
“What if I don’t have my mind made up and I want to just do things.” I said, finishing my drink and placing the empty bottle on the coffee table.

“What? Like a friends with benefits?” I nodded as we both stood up. “Are you sure about this? I don’t want to hurt you.”
“I-I’m sure.” I said, grabbing his hand and walking up the stairs into my bedroom.
Once we were in, I closed the door behind us and pushed him down onto the bed.
“Woah, Elizabeth.” He said as I got on top of him and started kissing him. His arms started running up and down my body. He rolled me onto my back and held my hands above my head. He stopped kissing. “I can’t do this, I know you are gonna get hurt.”
I sat up and looked at him weird. “No, no, no. I-I want this. I-I-I want to have sex with you, again.”
Michael got off the bed and walked over to the door. “We can talk about this when we aren’t drunk.” He left the room.
“Seriously??” I said to myself. My drunk ass didn’t want him to leave. I was determined to do what I wanted to do before. I wanted him. I wanted to feel him, make love to him.
I ran over into my closet and grabbed my sexy red bra and panties outfit. I threw a robe on and headed to Michael’s room.
He was sleeping in his bed. I slowly closed the door behind me and got into his bed. Michael moved around until he looked up and saw me, taking off my robe and throwing over the side of the bed.
I got on top of him and looked at him. “Please, one more time.” I placed my hand against his cheek. “Please, Mikey. Make love to me.”
Michael sat up and gazed in my eyes. He placed his hand on the back of my neck. “One more time, that’s it.” I nodded as he brought me in for a kiss.
The kiss went deeper as I was sitting in his lap. He started to take off my bra, sliding the straps down my arm. I pulled on his hair as he started kissing on my neck, nibbling on it. I moaned.  He grinned at me.
He laid me down, pulling down his boxers and taking off my panties. He grabbed one of my boobs and lean down lick on my nipple. I moaned even more.
I looked up at him and as he was stroking his member. “You ready?” He asked. I nodded as he inserted inside me. It fell amazing. He was standing up, thrusting as hard as he could. I moaned louder, sitting up and making love even faster.
I felt like we were fucking for hours. Changing positions, kissing every inch of each other bodies. We went more than once and kept going til the sunrise. Michael and I cuddled until, I fell asleep in his arms. I felt safe, happy, and alive.
I woke up the next morning to the sounds of my brother and Michael, talking. I kept my eyes closed as I listened in.
“You guys need to get sound proof walls. I may be gay, but ew.” My brother said. I heard Michael chuckle.
“I didn’t think she would get that loud, but I just hope that I didn’t make her regret it.” Michael said.
“She’s loved you for a really long time. You have no idea what you mean to her. I think she’s afraid you’ll leave her, again.”
“I won’t do that to her again, I promise.” He said, which made  me smile. “I better get back in there because she thinks I left her again.”
“Okay. I just want to say that I’m so happy for you two. I really am.” My brother said, as I heard him walking down the stairs. I closed my eyes tight as I felt, Michael’s warm hands around my waist.
He started to plant kissed down my neck. I couldn’t help but smiled as a turned to lay on my back. Michael stared in my eyes and smiled.
“I thought you were still sleeping?” He asked, gently pushing my hair behind my ear. “You are so beautiful.”
I smiled and held his hand against my cheek. “I was, but someone left my side.”
“Sorry, I had to get something to drink after last night.” I giggled. “But, um, what about us?”
I knew this was going to come up today, but I didn’t think that it would be as soon as we were awake.
“Well,” I said, siting up, wrapping the blanket around my body, walking over to the window, looking outside. The sun was shining bright and the waves were slowly crashing onto the beach. “I want to give us a chance, but I need more time.”
I turned and looked at him. He looked crushed, but he got up and walked over to me. “How about we go on a date today? Just us, all day. Like I told you, I’m gonna make you fall in love with me all over.”
“Fine, but what do you have in mind?” I asked. He smiled, pulling me in close. “That’s for me to know and you to find out.” I smiled, as he kissed me.
I was wondering what he had in mind, I haven’t been on a real date, since Justin. Maybe this time, it will be different.

 

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 13)

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~Chapter 13~

I woke up the next morning, alone. I sat up, hugging the sheets to my body. My head was killing me. What the hell happened last night?  I realized that my clothes were everywhere.
I got up, wrapping the sheet around me, as I got up and tried to gather my clothes. I walked over to the window and looked outside. The sun was shining bright today. As I looked down, I saw Michael, working on a car outside, shirtless.
He looked up and saw me in the window, smiling. He then looked like he was coming inside. I quickly got dressed. It was completely wrong. I thought to myself. I then grabbed my phone and walked down the stairs, walking in front of Michael.
“Morning beautiful.” Michael said as he tried to kiss me, but I pushed him away. He looked confused. I walked over to my brother, who looked at both of us, knowing that he heard everything from last night.
“Awkward.” Tim said as he walked up the stairs. I headed for the front door, but Michael grabbed my arm.
“What the hell is wrong with you? We make love and you act like it never happened?”
“Because it was a mistake, Mikey. I should’ve never slept with you last night.” I pulled from his grip and walked out the front door with him following right behind me.
“What doesn’t make sense? Please tell me, Elizabeth.” He paused as I sat down on the swing, that was on the deck.
“We should’ve never done anything at all. I can’t keep doing this, having my hopes up and then you leaving me like you did before. I can’t have my heart go through this anymore.” I started to cry a little. “I just can’t, Mikey.”
He sat down on the swing and hugged me. I got up, I wasn’t going to let him comfort me. As much as I wanted him to, I just couldn’t.
“I didn’t leave because of you, if that’s what you were thinking.” He paused. “I left because I had to, not because I wanted to.”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because of your father. He was going to have me killed.” My heart dropped. My father wanted to kill him? I knew my father hated him, but having him killed was just wrong. “The night we made love for the very first time and your father caught us. He was planning on having me killed. My boys got me out alive, but I felt like a fucking asshole for leaving you there. I tried to go back and explain, but when I saw you with Justin, and how happy you were, I just couldn’t.”

He placed his head in his hands. I got down on both of my knees and pulled his head up slowly.
“Why didn’t you?” I asked. Our eyes met. He placed his hand on my check.
“I didn’t want to break your heart more than I did before.” He then kissed my forehead. “I’m not gonna push you anymore to love me. I already feel like a dick for bring that girl over last night. We didn’t do anything, if you wanted to know.”
I felt a little relieved. He stood up, helping me up. I wanted to kiss him, but I needed time. I needed time to think about everything. “I need to think about it before I jump into anything.”
“If space is what you need, I’ll give you all the time and space you need. I just want to do this one more time, if it is my last.” He said, pushing my hair to the side and slowly coming closer, kissing me.
The spark that we had since we were younger, never changed. The only thing that did was time. I didn’t push him away or stop him. It felt right. He kept kissing me, until he pulled away before we did anything else that we might regret.
I froze, watching him walk down the porch to the car that he was working on. I touched my lips and smiled, I couldn’t help but smile. The one thing that wouldn’t leave my mind, was that kiss.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 12)

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*Warning: Very Mature Content! Read at your own risk!*

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~Chapter 12~

I circled on an ad for a bank clerk job. I wanted to try something new. I took a sip of coffee and looked at the clock. It was only 10 in the morning. I was still in my pj’s with my hair in a messy bun.
As I was scanning the news paper, Michael walked in, with no shirt and sweat pants. He walked over to the coffee maker and pour himself a cup of coffee.
“What you doing?” He asked as he turned around and leaned over the island. “Looking for a job, huh?” He asked as I circled one that said bartender.
“Yeah, why?” I took another sip of my coffee. Michael then lifted my chin up so that I was facing him.
“You look sexy as hell.” He grinned at me. I rolled my eyes at him and looked back down to the newspaper. He looked down at one of the ads I had circled. “Don’t work at a nightclub. I don’t want other guys hitting on you.”
I finished my coffee and got up and poured myself another cup. “I’m single. I’ll do whatever I want with who ever I want.” I walked back over and took the newspaper and looked back over to Michael. “By the way, that thing I said last night, I didn’t mean it.”
He smiled and looked to me. “That’s fine, but there’s one thing that I gonna do.” He walked over me.
“That is?” I asked.
“I’m gonna make you fall in love with me all over again.” He then kissed my forehead and sat down at the island.
I walked up the stairs and walked into my room. Sat down at my desk and kept looking in the ads, but I ended up falling asleep on my desk. I didn’t sleep very well last night.
In fact, I haven’t slept very well the past couple of days, but the more sleep I could get, the better. Just to keep my mind off of everything, especially Justin. My fear was that he was going to find us and that would be it, I wouldn’t be able to have my own life.
I woke up an hour later, got dressed and then grabbed the newspaper, I was just about to leave, when I bumped into Michael. He glared up and down me, a grin appeared on his face. I wasn’t even wearing anything that was sexy, but then I realized that my cleavage was showing.
“Really?” I said, rolling my eyes at him and then walked away.
“Where you going, especially looking like that?” He stopped me before I started to go down the stairs. “You’re not going out to go get other guys are you? I’ll kick their ass, just like I did the other night.”
I pulled away from his grip and walked away, ignoring him. I didn’t want to deal with this crap today. I was really getting tired of this jealously, but it was kinda cute that he got so jealous. He didn’t get jealous when I was dating Justin.
Then again, Justin was more jealous of Michael, due to how close we were. Justin was even more jealous with how close I was with my brother.
I walked down the stairs and walked out the front door. As I got outside, my brother was on the porch, tanning on one of the lawn chairs. He smiled at me as I returned the smile.
“If I knew you were going to be tanning, I wouldn’t be job hunting.” I said, putting on my sunglasses, since it was really bright and hot today.
“Well, I went to ask you, but you were asleep.” He laughed, I looked on my phone and realized that it was Saturday. “Hunny, you have been job searching for days, you need to relax.”
I had just started job searching since yesterday, but knowing my brother, he likes to overthink things. “I’ve been doing it since yesterday, but since it’s Saturday,  you wanna go watch topless guys play volleyball on the beach?”
“I thought you would never ask! I’ll go get the towels and everything else!” Tim jumped up so fast that I’ve never even seen him get up so fast.
I then realized that I forgot to put on my bathing suit and I really didn’t want to go back into the house. I took a deep breath and went back inside to my room.
I looked over all the bathing suits I had, but I couldn’t find my favorite red and pink bikini. I also tore my room apart until I jumped from hearing the door shut.
“Let me guess, you’re looking for this?” As I turned around, Michael was leaning on the back of my door, holding in his hand,  the bathing suit that I was looking for.
“Seriously? I don’t have time for this shit. Stop, Michael.” I said, I was tired with the mind games and I really didn’t want to deal with him right now. I grabbed the bathing suit from his hands. “Now go, and let me change.”
He wouldn’t move. I wasn’t going to wait for him to leave and by the time he does move, it would be too late to go tanning. “Nah, I think I’m gonna sit right here.”
“Fine then.” I then took off my t-shirt, he stared at me, he didn’t think I would do something like this, but I did. I then turned around, facing the wall, when I took off my bra. I felt his warm arms, hug around my waist.
He nibbled on my ear and whispered, “You are making this very hard for me.” He started placing kisses down my neck. He pulled me in closer and I could feel him getting harder. “I know you want me and I want you.”

Then my brother knocked on the door, thank god. “You getting your bathing suit on?” Tim asked.
“Yeah, I’ll be down in a minute.” I said as Michael let go of me.
“Okay, I’m gonna grab us some Bud Light Strawberitas and I’ll be waiting for you outside!” Michael turned and faced me.
“Okay.” He looked at me, as I was still covering my breasts. I then put on my bikini top and slowly pulled my shorts and panties down. “I’ve got to go.” I quickly put on my bottoms and grabbed a summer dress to go over my bathing suit.

“Wait.” He stopped me as I got to the door. “I know that you probably want nothing to do with me, but I was wondering if we could hang out tonight.”
I was just about to answer him, but then he spoke again. “I know that I fucked some things up with us ever having a future together, but I’ll understand if you don’t want to. You don’t have to give me a straight answer, I’ll be in my room.” I opened the door and walked out.
“I can’t believe it started to rain!” Tim said as we ran for cover for the house. “What time is it?” I checked my phone as I took a sip of my Strawberita, it was only 8pm.
“It’s only 8, why?” I said as we walked into our house.
“Netflix marathon of Bones.” He said as he took another drink and headed upstairs. I was soaking wet, but I then thought to what Michael said earlier.
Maybe I should go see him? What’s so wrong about hanging out? I then went into my bedroom and changed into some dryer clothes. I then slowly approached Michael’s door. I knocked and heard his voice.
Michael came to the door and saw me. “Hey.” He was only wearing boxers. He then closed the door behind him. “What’s up?” He sounded drunk, but I heard something that I really didn’t expect. “Michael, can you get me another drink?” I heard a female’s voice say.
“Well, you told me if I wanted to hang out with you to come to your room, but you look busy, I’ll come back later.” I said as walked down the stairs and grabbed a couple more of the Strawberita’s. I don’t know why, but it hurt.
Hearing another girl in his room or just even picturing him with another girl, I just couldn’t picture it. I didn’t want to feel this way. I kept thinking about it and it just wouldn’t go away. I sat at the island, and was about to down my drink when I saw him.
“I’m really sorry I forgot.” Michael said as he tried to hug me, but I didn’t want anything to do with him. “What’s wrong?”
“What’s wrong? Are you really going to ask me that?” I yelled.
“Yes, because you said you didn’t care, so I found someone who cared.” He said, as opened my third one and started to down it. “Stop that, Elizabeth.” He pulled the drink away from me. I got up and took back my drink.
“You don’t get to tell me w-w-what I can and can’t do.” I said. I my drink back up to my room and slammed the door. I downed the rest of my drink and I was starting to really feel drunk now.
Michael opened the door and closed it shut. I threw the can at him as he tried to hug me, but I kept fighting. He the pinned me down to the bed.
He was too strong for me to escape. I had my eyes closed as I was pinned down. “Look at me. Look at me!” Michael yelled. “Fuck, You need to make up your fucking mind! Do you love me or not?”
When he asked me that, I opened my eyes and stared into his. I didn’t say anything. “If you don’t love me, I’ll get off, but if you do, you need to tell me. Otherwise, I’ll go back in my room and fuck that girl again.”
“Get off, please.” I said, he looked heart broken, but pissed.
“Fine.” He got off of me, but I stood straight up and grabbed his arm. He pulled away and closed the door shut.
I sat on the bed crying as I said. “Why do I have to love him so much?” I kept crying as the door opened. Michael closed the door and I stood up. “What do you want now, g-go back to your-“, he press his lips to mine and I pulled him in closer.
“I don’t want her. I want you.” He said as he kept kissing me. His hands started moving up and down. “Do you want this, as badly as I have?”
“Stop talking and just do it.” I said as he pressed harder on my lips, taking off my tank top and pj shorts. I only had my bra and underwear on. He carefully brought me down on my bed. Kissing me slowly down my neck and nibbling my ear.
I moved my hands over his boxers as I felt him getting hard. I moaned when his hand touched my spot. He moved his fingers around and it drove me crazy. He pulled down my panties and his boxers as he then rubbed his dick in my entrance, he kept doing that and it was driving me nuts.
“Fuck me, already!” I yelled. Michael grinned. I could see that he was enjoying doing what he was doing.

“You’re so wet, baby.” He then finally put him into me. He didn’t start thrusting until he asked me if this was okay, I nodded my head yes, once I gave him the okay, he thrusted into me as hard as he could.
I moaned with pleasure. He kept hitting my spot, as I moaned louder, the bed board hitting the wall so hard from him thrusting that I thought that he was gonna break the door.
He looked down at me and stopped thrusting, when he noticed I was struggling to take my bra off. “I got it.” he said, ripping it open and throwing it to the side.
“You owe me a new bra.” I said as he grinned.
“Don’t you worry about that.” He said as he thrusted harder, “Come, baby. Come for me.” He went faster. I moaned louder. As we both finished. He laid on top of me while we both took a minute to catch our breath.
Michael then rolled over next to me and lifted the blanket over us. I moved over and laid on his chest. “God, I missed that.” Michael said as I giggled.
“Me too.” I said as we looked out my window that faced the ocean. Michael started to play with my hair and planted a kiss on my forehead.
“I love you. I always have and always will.” Michael said. He was about to get out of bed, but I stopped him.
“Stay with me, please?” I asked as Michael laid back down. I fell asleep in his arms, listening to the sound of his heartbeat. And I whispered back to him.
“I love you, Mikey.”

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 11)

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*Warning: Mature Content! Read at your own risk!*

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~Chapter 11~

After lunch, Tim and I walked over to the ticket booth a bought a few tickets to go on a couple rides. We walked over to the Tilt-a-Whirl and waited in line.
“I haven’t been on this ride in years!” Tim said, as I thought back to when we were younger. Our parents never allowed us to go on amusement rides. Michael would sneak us out and hung out at the town fair all night.
“It’s been a while.” The ride finally stopped so we could go on. Tim and I both spotted number 3 as the fast spinner. Once we were in, it felt like yesterday that we were going on the Tilt-a-Whirl for the first time.
We both laughed as we were spinning faster and faster, until the ride came to a complete stop. Once we got off the ride, we were still laughing, but when I looked down the boardwalk, I saw Michael, walking towards us.
My god did he look hot. Wearing long jean pants and a black tank top that really showed more of his figure. I turned to Tim, as he turned and saw Michael.
“You need a drink?” I asked. Tim nodded and we walked off to the bar. I started to walk faster.
“Question. Why are we avoiding Michael?” Tim asked and I placed a devilish look on my face.
“That’s for me to know and you to find out.” I turned my head to the side. “Karma’s a bitch.”
The bar was pretty packed for a Tuesday night. Tim and I head right over to the bar.
“4 shots over here.” Tim asked and pointed to where we were. The bartender quickly came over and poured us our shots. “Hunny, slow down.”
Tim said as I had just pounded all four shots down. He looked puzzled, but didn’t say anything.
“What are you trying to do?” He asked. I called over the bartender to make a Sex on the Beach, then looked back to Tim.
“I’m going to prove a point.” The bartender handed me my drink and I took a sip. Tim still looked confused.
“What do you mean?” Then Tim thought about it and his eyes got really big. “Oh, no. No, please don’t do what I think you are going to do. You are just gonna piss him off even more than he already is.”
I walked to the middle of the dance floor, I started dancing solo, until I felt a guy start to grind on me. “You are fine as hell.” The mystery guy whispered in my ear. “You with anybody? I’m really not in the mood to get my ass beat.”
“Only me and my brother, who is over by the bar.” I turned around and looked at the guy. He was cute with his blond messy hair and amazing green eyes. I whispered in his ears. “By the way, I didn’t catch a name.”
He whispered back, “Dylan.” He then pulled me close as I turned around, grinding all over him. I caught Michael staring.
“Elizabeth.” I answered. I turned and faced Dylan. “Do you want to go outside?”
Dylan smiled and nodded. I grabbed his hand as we exited the club, but before I left, Michael was following us. “Is he your ex?” Dylan asked as we kept walking down the board walk.
“We never really dated. Just best friends, but I’m getting back at him.” I probably shouldn’t of said that, but Dylan seemed into it.
“What did you have in mind?” I saw the house coming closer.
“You’ll see.” I said, I turned back to see where Michael was at, but he far enough so that he can’t stop it in time. We walked up the stairs, that lead to the deck. I turned and faked a smile. “Kiss me. Now.”
Dylan pressed his lips against mine. Then his tough slowly slipped in. I started getting turned on a little, but the moment was ruined when Michael pulled me away from him.
“What the hell, Michael!” I yelled. He was pissed. He looked at me and I  could tell that it hurt him. He then turned to Dylan and started throwing a punches. I ran back over to them and tired pulling Michael off Dylan. “Cut it out, Michael!” I screamed, and he threw one last punch and then looked at me, frowning.

“Get inside.” He commanded, but I didn’t move. Instead, I got down and checked on Dylan. His face with horrible. “Get the fuck inside! We need to talk. NOW!” He yelled.
“No! Fuck off!” I said, but he threw me over his shoulders. He turned to Dylan and gave him an evil stare. “I’m so sorry that this happened to you.” I told Dylan, but I could see that he understood.
Michael still had me over his shoulders as he went into my room. Threw me on my bed and slammed the door.
“What the fuck was that?” He yelled. I rolled my eyes. He just got more pissed at me.
“Karma is a bitch and you deserved it.” I got up and walked over to the door, but Michael was blocking it. “Move!”
“No, you aren’t running away from this. We are gonna have a nice long talk about this.” He then pointed to me to sit on the bed. “Why are you such a pain in my ass?”
I sat down at the foot of the bed. “Why are you such a jackass?” I giggled.
“This isn’t funny. Why would you do that? And in front of me? What were you thinking?” He crossed his arms. I really didn’t want to be questioned tonight.
“I wasn’t thinking. I just wanted to have some fun.” I said, taking everything out of my pockets. “Are we done? I would like to change and go to bed.”
“No, we aren’t done.” I then got up and picked out some sweats and a t-shirt. “I said we aren’t done talking, Elizabeth.”
“I know, okay? Turn around, I’m gonna change, since you won’t leave.” As soon as I said that, he turned around and faced the wall.
I slowly let my pants slide down as Michael just kept talking. I pulled my shirt over my head, the only clothing I had on were a thong and a bra.
“I just can’t believe yo-.” Michael had turned around before I could put my pj’s on. “Damn.” Michael’s mouth dropped as he saw what I was wearing.
“Are you gonna keep staring or let me get dressed?” I asked as I grabbed the sweat pants and pulled them on.
“I’d like to do something else.” I then threw over a red plan tee. It fitted me to my body figure, which I liked and could see that Michael was liking it too.
“Well, that’s not going to ever happen, again.” I said, getting into my bed. “I’d like to see you try.” I smirked as I laid in bed, ready to fall asleep.

“I’ll take that challenge.” He opened the door and grind to me.”
I then realized what I said. “I was just joking about that.” I said before he left. “I was kidding. There is no challenge.” But knowing Michael, even if I was joking, he’s always won. I won’t let him win this time.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 10)

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*Warning Mature Content* Read at your own risk!

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~Chapter 10~

“Why did I drink to much?” I asked myself as I had just finished puking in the toilet. I got up and changed into a pair of shorts and a purple tank top. I usually don’t wear tank tops, but today was just hot.
I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen to find that I was the only one up. As I looked at the clock, it was only 11:43 a.m., Michael had just  walked in. His dark orange hair was wet and he was only wearing a towel.
“Morning.” He said as I turned and started to make coffee. “Coffee? Don’t you only drink only iced coffee?”
I turned the coffee machine on and looked right at him. “I do, but I drink both.”
Michael came over with three coffee cups and placed them next to the coffee machine. I could help but notice that he rubbed right up against me. I closed my eyes and counted to five. As I turned around, I touched something that I didn’t mean to touch.
He came closer to me, pushing up his boner against me. “Why did you do that?” He whispered into my ear. “Your getting me hard.” He then kissed my ear and then started to bite softly against my neck.
He was turning me on, not in a bad way, but a good way. Flashes of Justin raping me, made me pull away.

“I can’t.” I said as I then ran up to my bedroom and started to cry into my pillow.
Why do the flashes keep coming back of what Justin did? All I felt was pain and how Justin held me down, as I tired to break free. I shook my head and cried some more.
A couple minutes later, some one knocked on my door. “Go away!” I said, then just kept crying more. The door opened and then closed shut.
“Please Elizabeth, talk to me.” I heard Michael’s voice. He started to rub my back, which felt very relaxing. “Did I do something wrong?”
“No.”
“Okay, what is it?” Michael asked again. Then I heard my brother come in.
“Michael. Just drop it.” Tim said and then handed him a note. I sat up, until I saw Michael’s face when he read it. He was about to say something, but Tim interrupted. “Don’t.”
“Don’t what?”
“You know what?”
“Why not, that fucking asshole deserves it!” Michael said, then turned to look at me. “Why didn’t you tell me? I knew something was wrong, but I thought it was him just beating you.”
Tim left the room and it went silent.
“How could I tell you? Are you serious?” I then got out of bed and faced him. “You didn’t give two shits about me until now. It’s been years since I’ve seen you and all of a sudden you care? You told me that you never loved me and never wanted to see me ever again, but look where we are now-,” Michael pulled me in and kissed me.
I felt warm and happy. That spark that you get when you kiss someone special, but I pulled away.
“No, you can’t keep doing this, Mikey!” I said, sitting down at the end of the bed as Michael joined me as well.
“I left because I got scared of you loving me.” He said, holding my hand in his.
“Why didn’t you told me how you felt?” I asked, he looked into my eyes.
“I’m a guy. You know how hard it is to express my feelings.” I laughed a little bit.
“You could’ve at least told me how you felt, before you left.”
“I’m sorry.” He said, but I grabbed my purse and just left. I walked right out of the door towards the board walk.
I texted my brother to meet me at the video arcade that they had by the board walk. I walked right in, exchanged my ones for quarters, and walked right to one of my favorite games, Guitar Hero.
I popped a dollar of coins into the machine and selected one of my favorite songs to play, Cliffs of Dover.
As I was playing, I swung the guitar around and knocked someone out. As I turned around, Tim got back up and rubbed his head.
“So much for trying to scare you.” He said as I finished a song. “Hungry? I’m craving a juicy burger and a milkshake.”

I laughed as I put the guitar back in it’s spot and we walked out. “Where do you want to go? Somewhere away from the house.”
“It’s a surprise.” He smiled and we kept walking down the board walk to a small bar/restaurant that was right next to a t-shirt shop. We walked right up to the bar. “Isn’t this cute?”
“Adorable.” Then one of the waiters came over and asked us what we wanted. Once she got our orders, she left to go get our drinks.
Tim then turned to me and smiled. “So what happened after I left?” I rolled my eyes.
“Same old bullshit.” I said, but Tim knew that I was hiding something and crossed his arms. “Okay, okay. I’ll tell you.”
The waiter came back with my strawberry Mike’s Hard and Tim a Twisted Tea. I took a sip and then took a deep breathe.
“Keep this between us. Michael tried making a move on me, but I pushed him away because he triggered a flash back of Justin raping me.”
Tim hugged me as a small tear fell from my eyes. “It’s okay. He must of touched you a way that brought that flashback.”
“I don’t know, but Michael is being a pain in the ass.” I took another sip and then spoke, again. “Saying that he left because he was afraid that someone would actually love him, but he comes back now and wants to fix everything.”
“Well, he must really love you to do all the stuff he did for you.” The waiter came with our food. “Thanks, hunny.” Tim said to the waiter as she smiled at Tim.
“He has a weird way of expressing it.”

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 9)

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*Warning: Mature Content*

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~Chapter 9~

“Girl, you look so awesome!” Tim said as the hair dresser pulled the towel away from my head to release my new long dark red hair. “I love it!”
“I thought it was time for a change.” I said stepping out of the chair and paying the hair dresser. Tim dyed his hair blond and had it cut enough so he could style the front with gel.
“Now, where to?” Tim asked as we walked down the street, we passed a clothing store and Tim stopped. “Omg, Eliza, that outfit will look amazing on you!”
It was a a shirt that covered one shoulder and it was big enough for it to hang on the over shoulder. It also had a tank top underneath and a short pair of shorts.
We went in and bought that for me and Tim got some yellow neon bright sunglasses. I laughed when I saw Tim with his glasses on and then we heard the beats from a nightclub, just down the street from where we were.
It wasn’t late enough to go dancing, so we figured that going down to the beach and chilling there until the sun came down, sounded like a wonderful idea.
We sat down in the sand, just watching the waves crash against the beach. Tim turned and smiled at me, I smiled back.
“I know that you didn’t want to talk about it, but I just want to say thank you. Thank you for standing up to me.” Tim grabbed my hand he then looked back towards the ocean. “I really thought that you were a goner, when we brought you to the hospital.”
“I know.” I then felt my left side, my fingers brushed up against my cheek, feeling the small scar. I flashed back to Justin just beating me. I shook my head and turned to Tim. “How bad was I?”
“It was bad, but you’re a fighter. I just never want to see you like that. Ever. I mean it.” Tim looked serious, but I couldn’t help, but laugh. He then started to chuckle.
Tim looked around, as the sky was getting darker. He smiled and stood up. “You ready to party!?” He asked as he helped me up and I grinned.

“Hell yeah!” I yelled as we walked down to the night club.
The music was loud, but the beat was jumping. Tim and I just danced, until he fell down. He looked at me, his face was so red. “Ready for another one?” Tim asked.
I nodded as I watched him walk over to the bar. I then went back to dancing. That was until I felt a hand run down my arm. I started to grind on him to the beat. He spun me around and both of our hands were connected. I looked up and all I could see is his hair. He leaned in and said, “Keep shaking your ass like that and you’ll get unwanted attention.”
Under his hoodie, I saw him grin. I knew exactly who it was. I leaned in and whispered, “It got your attention, didn’t it?” I then walked over to the bar to find Tim talking to some guy. I figured that I would leave them be, so I found a spot on the other side of the bar.
“What can I get for you?” The bartender asked as I handed him my I.D.
“2 shots of whiskey. ” As I said that, I felt hands hug my waist.
“How about we go outside?” Michael as he whispered in my ear. I turned and shook my head no. “You can bring a drink with you.”
I grabbed the two shots, handed one to Michael. I looked towards the bartender and asked him for a Sex on the Beach.
“You take this shot and I’ll go.” I said. I downed my shot just like it was water. Then he did, placed the shot glass on the bar and grabbed my hand, pulling me out of the club, with my drink in hand.
“Where are w-we going?” I asked. I started to feel really drunk. We then walked down the boardwalk and once we were up front of this beach house, Michael stopped and sat down in the sand. “W-who’s p-place is this?”
“Ours.” He then pulled out of his pocket a lighter and a joint. “Remember this?”
“Yeah, those were the good times.” He then put the joint in his mouth and lit it. Once he took a hit, he handed it to me.
“Why did you stop?” He asked. I took a hit and french in-hailed the smoke, then passed it to him.
“Two reasons. One, my parents are cops and two, Justin didn’t like me smoking.” I said as I took off my flip flops and shoved my toes in the sand.
“That’s right.” He went silent. I took another hits off the joint and then handed it to him. He then looked at me, “Why did you say yes?”
I thought about it and they only reason I could think of, was that I would be safe with him. That and I really did love him. I then took a deep breath. “I don’t know. I thought he would keep me safe and he is the only guy who loved me for me. I did love him. I don’t know.”
“He didn’t love you for who you were. He changed you into someone he wanted you to be.” I laid down in the sand. Looking up to the stars. I started to cry.
“I-I know. Why would he do that? Why would he hurt me? Why?” I looked over to Michael, he looked over and wiped the tears under my eyes. I sat up as we both gazed into each others eyes.
“Because he’s a worthless piece of shit. You deserve better.” He then took another hit off the joint and came closer to my lips. He then blew the smoke into my mouth. He pulled away and gentle touch the side of my cheek. I blew out whatever smoke was left and stood up.
“I think it’s t-time for me to go to sleep.” I said, grabbing my shoes and walking up towards the new place we will all be staying in, together.
Michael then helped me to bed and as soon as I laid down, I fell right asleep.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 8)

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*Warning: Mature Content*

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~Chapter 8~

I woke up to the sound of beeping.
Beep…Beep…Beep…Beep…
I opened my eyes and saw that I was in the hospital. I started to freak out, my heart started to race.
Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.
A nurse came in and looked at the monitor. She looked at me and smiled.
“It’s alright, you need to calm down, ma’am.” She said as I started to calm down a little. “Now, if you can, remain calm. You came in late last night and your husband saw you on the floor, bleeding.”
My eyes watered. I couldn’t remember what happened. Last thing I remembered was Justin’s fist. I can’t remember what happened after that. “When can I leave?” I asked, I tried to sit up, but the nurse held me down, lightly.
“You need your rest and we aren’t sure when you will be able to leave. Only Dr. Lee can give you a better answer, but for now, I need you to relax and get some rest.” She tucked me in and then smiled. “If you need anything, the call button for a nurse is right here on the inside of your bed. Feel free to use it.”
She then left and as I was about to close my eyes, Michael came in and walked over to my bed and sat on the edge.
“How you feeling?” He said, grabbed my hand and held it in his. It felt nice and I gave him a small smile.
“I can’t remember what happened.”
“I saw the entire thing.” He then looked into my eyes. My eyes widen.
“You did. What happened?” I asked.
“I knew something was up and so I followed you home. You and him started to fight and then once he hit you, I called a couple of my boys and we went in to beat the shit outta him, but he had already left.” He turned away from him. “He left you there for dead, Elizabeth.”
I didn’t know what to say, other than I started to get upset and cry, again. I didn’t know what to think. “What did you do to Justin?”
“Well, one of my boys followed him to a couple houses down where you lived and we saw him kissing another woman.” He then turned to me and wiped the waterfall of tears that was pouring out of my eyes. “But don’t worry. I kicked his ass.” He smirked and I smiled a little more.
“Thank you.”
“No need to. It was my pleasure, but there’s something that I kinda did.” I looked at him and saw that he did what I know he’s been wanting to do for years. “I faked Tim’s death and yours.”
I looked confused because why would he risk faking our deaths if I’m currently in the hospital. “Won’t they find out?”
“Nope, they won’t find us because I changed Tim and yours name. Plus we are in the next state over.” He grinned.
“Is my brother safe?” Once I asked that, Tim walked right in and hugged me.
“Don’t you worry, hun. I am fine, but once you are ready to leave, we are going somewhere I’ve always wanted to go.” He smiled.
I left the hospital, after being there for one day, because we had to get a move on, before people figured out who we really were.
I smiled as we got off the plane. The sun was shining, the water was bright blue, and the breeze was perfect. Why didn’t Tim and I leave for the Bahamas sooner, I don’t know. Maybe because I thought that everything would be perfect with Justin, but I guess I was wrong.
I looked down at my hand and saw that Justin’s engagement ring was gone. I smiled. Deep down, I really did love him, but if I would’ve stayed with him, who knows what would happen. I could’ve died, for all I know.
“Mikey, sweetie! were are we staying at?” Tim asked as he dropped his bags in the back of the rental car.
“Don’t worry about it, enjoy yourselves. I’ll find you.” Michael then got into the rental car and drove off.
“I need a drink.” I said as Tim and I walked over to the bar that was right across where the boat dropped us off.
We sat down at the bar and ordered our drinks. “I’m glad we are here.” I said as the bartender handed us our drinks.
“Me too.” He said, taking a sip of his drink. “I’m just glad that you are safe. I can’t believe Justin did that to you. God, he makes me angry.”
“Can we please not talk about it? I just want to forget all about him tonight.” I took a sip and Tim smiled.
“Of course.” He then raised his glass and I raised mine. “Here’s to having a awesome night of getting drunk.” We tapped our glasses together and I said, “Cheers to that.”

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 7)

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*Warning: Mature Content*

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~Chapter 7~

The few days, I stayed late at work, trying to pretend that everything was okay. But really, it wasn’t. My father came in as I was getting my stuff, I was just about to leave. Just seeing him, really scared me.
“So, how is everything?” He asked.
“Fine.” I said, putting on my jacket. Just looking at him just made me flash back to what he did last weekend. He’s hit us before, but never like that. It scared me very much.
“Well, Justin called and told me that you guys want to get married at the end of this month?”
“I guess.” I grabbed my bag and then headed for the door. “Listen, I’ve got to go. Justin will worry if I don’t get home on time.”
“Okay, well, I’ll see you tomorrow.” I then walked down to the parking lot and got into my car.
Once I was inside, I just started crying. I then checked my phone to see that I had missed Justin’s call. My phone went off again, as I just received a text message from Justin.
When can I expect u home?
I then clicked on his picture and called him.
“Where are you?” He didn’t sound too happy. “You’re late, why?”
I took and deep breath then spoke. “My dad wanted me to stay a little later. I’m sorry, I was going to text you, but I got caught up in paperwork.”
“Sure you did, now hurry home.” He hung up and I put my phone back in my pocket. I started my car and then saw that I was gonna run out of gas pretty soon. I pulled out of the parking garage and drove across the street to the gas station.
I parked at the second gas pump and turned off the car. When I went searching for my card, I couldn’t find it. Where was it? It had to be somewhere? I started to panic, until I find a note in my bag:
I got us a joint banking account, that card doesn’t work anymore. New cards will be in soon.
-Justin
Are you kidding me? I can’t believe that he did that and without my permission. I kept looking in my bag and thankfully, I had a twenty dollar bill.
I got out of the car and went inside to pay, but when I got out, Michael was pumping gas into my car.
I walked over, but he didn’t look at me, he just kept looking at the pump.
“Well, you look like crap.” He said, I stood next to him.
“I know, but I guess this is what my life is gonna be now.” I said. He turned to look at me.
“It doesn’t have to be. You have the power to change how you want your life to be.” He then turned back to the pump and placed it back where it was and closed up my gas tank. “So, how is your new soon-to-be ‘hubby’?”
“At home, which reminds me, I have to go.” I walked over to the drivers side and just as I was about to open the door, Michael shut it.
“Something is wrong with you. You’re not yourself.” I looked down. If I faced him, he would know that something was up.
“I’m fine, but I got to go. I’m already late.” I said as I tried to open the car door, but Michael was leaning on it. “Please, I have to go.”
I said as I looked up to him in his eyes and a tear fell from my cheek. He wiped my tear away and then moved out of the way. Before I got into my car, I looked back to him, as he was walking to his truck, that was next to my car.
“I know something is up and if he is hurting you, I’ll find out. Whether you tell me or not.”
“Where were you?!?” Justin yelled as I walked through the door and placed my bag on the couch. When I turned around, Justin slapped me. “You were cheating on me, weren’t you? You fucking slut!”
My eyes started to water, but I didn’t cry. I stood up and looked at him. “I wasn’t out cheating on you, I had to stop and get gas.” I then took a deep breath and then pulled out the little note he left me saying that he canceled my account. “First of all, if you wanted to have a joint banking account, you could’ve told me and the fact that you did it behind my back is even worst.”
“It doesn’t matter. You are going to be my wife and I figured why not do it now.”
“I can’t do this, Justin. I can’t.” I started to cry. “What happened to the man I fell in love with?”
“I’m right here.” He said as he came closer to me, making me walk backwards until my back hit the wall. “I haven’t changed. I’m still the same person.” He pulled me in to embrace me, I couldn’t escape. He then looked up at me and smiled.
“You’ve changed. You’re not the same man I fell in love with. Y-You’re a monster. I can never fall in love with a monster.” His face changed from smiling to becoming very pissed. He pushed me up against the wall, slapped me.
“Don’t you fucking say that again.” He said, then he threw me on the ground and punched me in the face. “You aren’t going to end this. I’m the only one who decides if this relationship is over and it isn’t.”
The only thing I remember was Justin’s fist and then it all went black.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 6)

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Another chapter of my book for you, dearies! As always, I will be putting the Mature Content on all of these chapters, just because there are some dirty scenes. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read chapter 5, here is the link!
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~Chapter 6~

“Let me see that ring, sweetie!” My mom grabbed my hand. “That’s beautiful.” She then leaned in and hugged me. I pulled away and scanned the room, but I didn’t see my brother.
“Where’s Tim?” I asked, but she didn’t say anything.
Justin then leaned in and whispered. “He wasn’t invited.” I turned to him and frowned. He knew how much it would mean to me to have my brother here, but why wasn’t he invited?
“What? Are you serious?” My mother then handed Justin and I a wine glass as she raised her glass.
“I want to say how happy we are to see our little girl getting married! And with a guy that we have welcomed into our family with open arms. We love you both. Cheers!” Everyone tapped each others glasses, except me.
I downed the wine and then placed the glass on the bar. “Now, can I say something?” I asked, but didn’t wait for my mom to say yes. “Why the hell is Tim not here?”
My mother took a sip of wine, but my father then turned to everyone and said, “I think she’s had too much to drink. Let’s let the love birds go home and spend some time together.”
Everyone laughed, and I threw my glass against the wall. “No, I haven’t and the fact that you didn’t invite Tim, just because he’s gay, doesn’t give you the right to completely forget that he even exists.” Everyone’s eyes, widen, but my father was pissed. I turned and faced him. “If you can’t except the fact that Tim’s gay, then I don’t want to be apart of this family.”
I then turned and walked towards the door, my mother started to cry, but my father turned back to everyone and excused himself. He then grabbed my arm, once we got outside and dragged me into the garage.
“How dare you speak to everyone like that?” He then slapped my face. I then placed my hand over my cheek. “He isn’t apart of this family. He chose to go against the lords faith.”
“Seriously? He isn’t real, my god.” I said, my father was scaring me. He came closer to me and pushed me up against the garage door. “Don’t you dare say that about out lord and savior! You’ll go to hell, just like your faggot brother!”
He slapped me again. Harder than he did the first time. I started to shed a tear and he slapped me again. “Stop crying like a little bitch and get the hell out of my sight.”
I ran out that garage so fast that Justin had to stop me. “What’s wrong?” I pulled away and got into the car, as Justin got into the drivers seat. The ride home was completely silent.
Once we got home, I headed right to bed. Got into my pj’s and then laid in bed, holding an ice pack to my cheek. Justin came in, drunk, and laid beside me. “Babe, you’re so sexy and I’m horny as fuck.”
He rolled me on my back and started to kiss me, I pulled away. “Stop.” He didn’t stop, he kept moving his hand down into my pants. “Seriously, stop Justin. I’m not in the mood.”
“I’ll get you in the mood.” He kept trying to take off my sweat pants, but I kept holding them up. “Stop, Justin!”
He finally got my pants off and just kept forcing me to kiss him. I was about to yell, but he covered my mouth and looked at me. “Don’t you fucking scream, I’ll just tell them that I fucked you so hard that you were screaming because It felt so good.”
“Just shut up and lay there.” I didn’t want to, but he was so much more stronger than me. I couldn’t stop what he was doing. After he was done, I laid there and cried myself to sleep.
The next week was a living hell. Ever since we got engaged, Justin has been different. I don’t know why, but I don’t like it. I’m only allowed to go back and forth to and from work. I can’t go anywhere anymore.
It’s like he wants me to be with him 24/7. It has built up in so much stress that almost every night, I cried myself to sleep. Even if he doesn’t rape me. What happened to the guy I fell in love with?
I wiped my tears as the door opened. Justin came in with Burger King and sat down at the kitchen table and got everything out of the bag.
“Hungry?” He asked. I nodded. As I sat down at the table, he looked at me and saw my eyes. “Crying, again? What now?”
“I’m just stressed, that’s all.” I said, unwrapping my burger and taking a bite. “How was your day?”
“Okay, but I think that you aren’t stressed out.” He handed me a brown paper bag. “Open it.”
I opened it and my face flushed. It was a pregnancy test. I pulled it out of the bag and looked up at him. “I’m not pregnant, Justin.”
“Well, if you aren’t, I think we should start trying.” I then took another bite of my burger. “I had your mother make an appointment for tomorrow to see the doctors.”
“Why? I already had my physical for this year.”
“It’s to make sure you can have kids or not. Your mother said that when you were younger, the doctor said that it would be hard for you to have children. I want to make sure of that.”
“Justin, as much as you want to start trying, shouldn’t we get a bigger place? Plus, if we weren’t married, my father would complain that we have a bastard child.” I then got up and took care of the trash.
“You do have a point, so how about we start trying next month?” He then got up and wrapped his arms around my waist. “Let’s get married at the end of the month?”
“Why do you want to get married so fast?” I asked, he turned me around and smiled.
“So that I can be married to the love of my live and plus I want a lot of kids. Sooner we get married, the sooner we can start trying for a baby.”

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 5)

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Another chapter for you all, dearies! I hope you enjoy. 

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~Chapter 5~

I was woken up by Justin, he was planting kisses down my arm. His hands started to travel down, but I stopped them. “No, let me sleep.” I said.
“It’s noon, babe. We are going shopping, remember?” He said as he got up and pulled the blanket off of me. I remember that before we went to bed, he had asked if I wanted to go with him to help pick out a gift for my mother’s birthday.
“I’ll get up in a few.”
“Come on, let’s go. We need to get that gift before tonight.” I was confused. Her birthday is next weekend. I sat up and checked my phone. When I went into my messages, my mom had sent me a text saying that they were throwing a party tonight because she and my father are going on a mini vacation the week of her birthday.
The only thing that pissed me off, is that Justin went through my phone, again. I have no problem with him going through my phone, but if he checks my messages, he should at least tell me if someone texted me.
I dropped my phone on the bed and went to go put some clothes on. “What’s wrong?” Justin asked. Seriously? I turned around after I had gotten dressed and faced him.
“I have no problem with you checked my phone, but if someone texts me, let me know.” I said as a grabbed my phone and walked through the kitchen. He grabbed my arm and turned me to face him.
“I’m sorry, but don’t get pissed off because I went through your phone. You to the same.”
“I did, but I trust you enough that I don’t need to check your phone, but when it comes to me, it’s a big deal. You know I don’t cheat.” I said. He was getting pissed. I could see it in his eyes. “But why do you always have to check my phone? Do you not trust me?”
He threw his hands through his black hair. Then looked at me. “Your mom told me about Michael. I heard he was back in town and I didn’t know if you were talking to him at all.”
“Are you kidding me? She told you everything and you’re worried that I’m gonna still talk to him?” I said crossing my arms. I’ve told him about Michael, I just never mention his name. “I want nothing to do with him after what he did to me.”
“She told me that he used to get you into lots of trouble and that your father caught you and him in a car, naked.” He paused, “I don’t want you around him. Last thing I don’t want to happen is him breaking us up.”
“Why do you say that?”
“Never mind, forget that I even said anything.” He turned and walked into the bedroom and came back into the kitchen with his jacket and car keys. I put my red leather jacket on and then he looked at me. “Look, I’m sorry. I have a lot going on with work and I’m taking it out on you, especially tonight.”
“What do you mean by that?” I asked, but he wouldn’t tell me as we walked down the stairs and out the apartment door. He opened the door for me and even when he got into the drivers seat, he was completely silent.
The entire ride there and back was silent. The only time we spoke was when we were getting a gift for my mother. Which we ended up getting her a scrapbook and a 50 dollar gift card to Krafty Krafts, which is a arts and crafts that its my favorite place to go.
Justin pulled into my parent’s drive way. We ended up going back home because he wanted me to change into something nice. He never asks me to do that, I feel that he’s up to something.
He gets out of the car and walks over to open my door. I smile, as he looks at me, he gives me a smile in return.
“Please talk to me. Why are you giving me the cold shoulder?” I said as he grabs my hand and walks me over to the two wooden swings that hung from the huge tree that was in front of my parents house. “Justin, what’s going on?” I asked, sitting down on one of the swings.
I looked up at him as he then got down on one knee and grabbed my hand. Oh my god, is he doing what I think he is doing? I felt my face getting goosebumps, as he was holding my hand.
“Elizabeth, I know I’ve been acting awkward all day, but it’s because I was so nervous to do this.” He then pulled out a tiny box and placed it in my hand. “Elizabeth, I love you so much and there isn’t anyone else I would rather spend my life with than you. I want to grown old together as we watch our children and grandchildren grown up. So what I’m asking is, will you marry me?”
My heart dropped. I was completely speechless and shocked. When he opened the box, there was a really pretty ring in there. My mouth dropped as I saw the ring. “Oh, Justin. It’s beautiful.”
He then took it out of the box and placed it on my hand. “I take it that was a yes?” I shook my head yes as he then kissed me. He then picked me up as I jumped into his arms, closing my eyes, but when I opened them, I saw Michael.
He was across the street from my parents house, standing in the road smoking. A tear fell from my cheeks as Justin put me down and kissed me, again.
“I love you so much.” Justin said, holding my hands tight. “Oh, babe, I didn’t mean to make you cry.”
“No, it’s okay, they are tears of joy. Plus the wind is also not helping.” I said.
“Right, let’s go inside.” As we walked to the door together. “By the way, this is our engagement party, it was my idea and your moms.”
I smiled, he went inside as I turned back to see if Michael was still there, but he wasn’t. My heart ached a little. I hated seeing that look on his face. Something tells me that this night was just the beginning.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 4)

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Sorry guys for being late uploading this! Here is chapter 4!

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~Chapter 4~

I woke up to a boy and a girl, jumping on the bed. They looked so much like me.
“Mommy, mommy! Wake up!” The little boy said as he tried pulling me out of bed. “Come on Mommy. Daddy says that we can open presents now.” The little girl said as I got out of bed and walked down the stairs, holding their little hands.
I walked into the living room to find a fully decorative tree, lights went all around the room. Then I saw him. He was grabbing a little box that was hidden underneath the tree. I sat done with the little ones, as they cuddled up close to me.
“Jacob. Lila. Can you give this to Mommy?” he said, handing the kids a tiny box. They gave it to me, but I still couldn’t see who it was.
As I opened the box, my eyes widen. No one knew what the meaning of this present, but two people. I knew what it was, so didn’t Michael. I picked up the necklace that had a shell, sand dollar, and a little bottle of sand.
My eyes started to water as he came closer to me. When I opened my eyes, it was Michael. I didn’t know what to think.
I woke up and looked around the room. I was still home. I sat up and checked the time then rubbed my eyes. Tanner was still sleeping and I slowly got out of bed and went into the living room. I looked towards the balcony and saw a figure.
I walked toward the glass doors to the balcony and then I saw him.
“What are you doing here, Michael?” I asked as I saw the faint grin that was coming off his face. His black hoodie was still over his head.
“What, no more Mikey?” He said.
“You need to go before Justin wakes up and sees you.”
“Or what? He’ll kick my ass? I doubt that. I’ve kicked his ass plenty of times.” He chuckled. I crossed my arms and gave him an disgusted look, but he came closer to me. “I’ve missed you, sweetheart and so haven’t you.”
“No, just leave, okay? I’m happy with Justin. I don’t need you to repeat the past.” I said as he took off his hood and I stared into his eyes. He brushed his hand up against my cheek. Chills went up my back, but it felt good.
“Okay, okay, I’ll just come back another time.” He pulled away and threw a hand through his hair. “I’ll be in town for awhile. I’ll come visit you when you’re in a better mood, but I can’t leave without this.”
He walked back towards me, brushed my hair behind my ear and then pulled me in for a kiss. That spark we had when we kissed, make me warm and happy inside, like his lips were a drug that I wanted to abuse, but I pulled away.
“Stop doing that!” I said. “I love Justin.”
He laughed, but then slowly came closer to my ear. “If you really loved him, you wouldn’t of let me kiss you.” Just like that, he was gone. Jumped down the fire escape and ran into the small woods that were right behind where I lived.
I then went back inside and locked the door to the balcony. I didn’t know what to do about him, but my one question is what is he doing here? Why did he come back? I laid in my bed, trying to answer some of my questions.
I laid on Justin’s chest, slowly drifted off to sleep.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 3)

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~Chapter 3~

The weekend went by faster than I had expected. Justin and I just stayed home, since it was raining all weekend long. The one thing that hadn’t left my mind was about what happened Friday night.
That kiss was so familiar. I just sat at my desk, just thinking of who it could be, until my father knock on my office door and came in.
“Good morning.” He said as I gave him a faint smile. I nodded and then went back to work. “Your mother and I would like to talk to you. It’s about the Locke case.” I froze.
“Okay, did you want to talk about it here or in your office?” I asked as he shut the door and sat down and pulled a chair closer to me.
“Well, we can’t find his case file. It came in about a week or two ago, but I haven’t seen it.” I then grabbed my key and unlocked one of my desk drawers and grabbed the Locke file and handed it to him. “And you did have it?”
“Well, I thought that I would find him, since it was someone I went to high school with.” I lied, but I had a feeling that he knew that I was lying.
“Why did Tim give this to you?” He sat, dropping the file on my desk and started pacing back and forth. “Why don’t you kids ever listen to me? This was Tim’s case. I made sure of it.”
“Why didn’t you give the file to me?” I asked as I looked at my father to see look out the window. “You know exactly why.”
“He didn’t kill his parents and when that happened, he was with me the entire time.” I said, I was really pissed that my father was bringing this up. Michael and I were best friends when we were little. He was the bad boy in high school because he partied. He and I had gotten into a lot of trouble when we were younger. My parents hated him.
“Elizabeth, I don’t want to hear it! You stay away from him.” He then took the file from my desk and slammed the door as he left.
I held my head in my hands. Why the hell was he bringing this up? Something what going on with him, whether it was Tim or Michael case, he was upset. If he didn’t want to tell me, I will find out, one way or another.
“So why weren’t you at work?” I asked my brother as we were siting at my kitchen table. “You missed out on me and dad fighting.” Tim rolled his eyes.
“What’s new.” He then took another sip of red wine. “What was it about this time?”
Before I told him, I took a deep breathe and a sip of wine. “It was about the file.” Tim’s eyes got big. “He said that it was yours to do and that I need to stay away from him.”
“Well, that’s a reason why I wasn’t at work today, because they fired me.” Tim then finished his wine and poured another glass for himself. “Have you seem him?”
“Mikey? No.” I got up and walked into the bedroom to see if Justin was here, but thank god he wasn’t. The last thing I need is for him to get really jealous and overprotected over me. I sat back down and took another sip of wine. “You can’t let Justin know, but when we went drinking Friday night, Justin told me to meet him out by his car when he went to pay the tab…”
“Keep going, don’t just stop there.”
“I tripped and some guy helped me out and told me I was beautiful, then kissed me.” Tim’s eyes got big again. He mouthed the words ‘shut up’. “But the weird thing is that when he kissed me, it was like I had kissed him before. I can’t remember who it would be though.”
“This is the best gossip I’ve heard in weeks!” Tim took another sip and then looked at me smiling. “So, what are you going to do now? To be honest, I’ve never seen you blush like that since…” He paused and then his mouth got wide. “Oh. My. God. It’s him.”
My face got even redder as I thought about it and it was him. Why would he kiss me out of nowhere? I couldn’t believe that it was Michael. I was in complete denial. “No, it can’t be. He told me that he never had feeling for me.”
“Who knows, maybe he realized that he’s in love with you and then came back to confess his unconditional love to you.” Tim said. “Ah, young love!”
“I think you have had too much to drink.” I chuckled. Justin walked in with a pizza and bread sticks. He walked over to me and then kissed me on the forehead. “Hey babe.”
“I see that Tim is going to need a ride home?” Justin said as I giggled.
“Yes, can you call a cab for him?” I asked, he nodded yes and then walked into the bedroom to make the call.
“So, what are you going to do about Justin?” Tim whispered.
“Nothing, I’m in love with Justin. I see a future with Justin, not him.” When I spoke those words, I realized that I hadn’t thought about having a future with Justin, other than parting. He’s talked about kids and marriage a lot lately, but it never seemed to cross my mind if we did ever get married.
“You keep telling yourself that.” Tim said as Justin came out of the bedroom. “Cab here, stud?”
“Yes.” Justin said, grabbing two paper plates as Tim left. I then closed the wine bottle and placed it back to where all the other bottles of wine were. “How was work?”
“Fine. What about you?” I asked.
“It was good.”
We sat in silence while we ate. I couldn’t take the silence any longer, so I spoke. “So, um, do you see a future with me?”
“Of course I do. I also see us kissing our 3 children to bed.” He smiled and took care of our plates.
“Three kids? Why three?” I asked as we both walked into the bedroom and I laid down on my back as Justin took his shirt off.
“Yeah, two boys and one beautiful girl.” I smiled. I wish I could start seeing us have a future, maybe it takes more time?
“Well, I’ve got to go to bed. Work in the morning, remember?” I said getting under the sheets with Justin.
“We can go to bed in a little bit.” He started kissing up my arm all the way up to my neck. Then we started to make out, but I wasn’t in the mood. So we just ended up cuddling until we both fell asleep.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 2)

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Here is the second chapter of one of my other books! I hope you all enjoy! I will also be coming out with another post with all of these chapters and their links, soon! I found it that a lot of people really liked how helpful it was when they were looking for a chapter! I will try my best and see if I can have it pinned to the top of the page on it’s page.

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~Chapter 2~

“When did you get this?” I asked. I carefully took a sip of coffee.
“A week ago. I hid it in my desk. I was going to tell you, but you seemed stressed out at the time.” My brother said. I just couldn’t believe that out of all files, he wouldn’t be the one to show up on my desk. “He’s wanted for murder, again.”
“Again? When did this happen?” I opened the file and saw that he was involved with the death of his parents. “But I thought that he was proven not guilty?”
“He was, but he disappeared after the trial. No one had hear from him in years, until now.” I got up from my desk and paced back and forth. “What’s wrong?”
I stopped and looked out the window, it was a beautiful fall morning. My brother walked over and looked at me as I kept staring at the window. “Nothing. I’m fine.”
Tim knew something was up, but left the subject alone as we went back to work. I looked over his file again. Rereading the same line, over and over again.
Wanted for the murder of  Alison Stonewall
The day went by pretty fast. Finished all the paper work for the day, but I didn’t get started on the file my brother gave me. I decided to lock it in my desk and pretend that it wasn’t there. Tim was texting on his phone, when our mother walked in.
“Elizabeth, may I have a word with you?” She looked over at my brother as he frowned. My father and her weren’t happy that Tim decided to come out to the closet.
“Whatever you have to say, just say it now. I’m getting ready to leave.” I said, making sure that I grabbed everything that I needed.
“I need you to stay late again. Your father and I need to talk to you.” I knew it.
“Well, what is it about? Justin is going to be here any minute now.” I said, ready to walk out the door, until my father stood in front of the door. “Hun, let her go. We can talk about it later.”
“We need to talk to her about that.” My mother wasn’t very happy. I had an idea of what they wanted to talk about because my brother then dropped his phone on his desk and then walked over to our father.
“Is it because I came out to you and told you that I’m gay? You think this is a illness? Something that I will just get over?” Tim paused and looked at our mother. “Just because you don’t believe in same-sex couples, doesn’t change who I am. Out of all people, I thought that you two would understand.”
Tim then grabbed my hand and we walked past them. “Wow.” I said once we reached the parking garage.
“I know, but I feel so much better.” We both hugged each other as Justin’s car pulled right next to Tim’s truck. “Looks like your stud muffin is here.”
Justin got out of the car, as he walked over to hug me, then kissed me on the lips. “Hey Tim, hows everything?” Justin asked as Tim smiled.
“Oh, peaches!” Tim then opened his car door and got right in. “You take care of my sister. Make sure she doesn’t drink too much.
“Don’t worry, I won’t go over board.” I said as he drove off.
Once we got into the car, Justin drove off to where we used to make-out all the time. I was confused, but as soon as he turned the car off, he grabbed two beers.
“So how was work?” He asked, but I didn’t answer him, until after I chugged my first beer. “That bad?”
“Well, let’s just say that I want to have a good time and just forget about it all, just for tonight.” I said, as he handed me my second beer.
“Don’t worry, babe.” He turned to me and grinned. “Forget about work, just relax.” He then started to kiss me. My hands started to wander up and down his body as were his hands were going up and down on my body.
I pulled away as he softly brushed his hand against my cheek. I then pulled him in for one last kiss. “Okay, you ready to go have some fun tonight?” I nodded yes as we then drove off to one of my favorite night clubs.
The club was packed as hell, but we found two seats by the bar. Justin got us our first round of shots. We both took 5 or 6 shots each and then headed onto the dance floor.
I grinded up and down on Justin, I could feel that he was starting to get hard, but then he stopped me from grinning and pulled me in for another kiss. Then we started kissing. Before we knew it, we were making out hard core, walking all the way down to the bathrooms.
I pulled away from his lips, while he started kissing my neck and his fingers traveled down my stomach. He tensed me by running his fingers slowly in between the beginning of my underwear line. Making it seem like his fingers were going to travel further.
A moan escaped from my mouth. Justin then kissed me and looked at me. “Ready to go home?” He asked. I nodded. “Meet me out by the car while I pay the tab.”
He kissed me one more time as I walked in front of him, swaying my hips back and fourth. He slapped my ass and whispered in my ear, “Stop being so naughty, or you’re gonna get it.” I giggled and then walked out of the club.
It’s very hard to walk straight when you see two of everything. I finally reached the car, but tripped right next to it. “Shit.” I mumbled.
“Hammered much?” A voice said, but chills ran up my spine. I recognized that voice, a voice I hadn’t heard in years. I got up and looked at him. “I-I-I’m fine.”
I couldn’t see his face, only his eyes. Bright blue eyes, that had gold in the middle. I remembered those eyes. It couldn’t of been him. He pushed my hair behind my ears.
“God, you are so beautiful.” He said as he leaned in and kissed me. I felt a spark, that same spark I hadn’t felt in a long time. He then pulled away, before I even opened my eyes, he was gone.
I touched my lips and tried to recall what had just happen, but Justin came back to the car and we went home. Even though I was drunk, I kept thinking about that kiss. I didn’t know if I should tell Justin.
Once we parked in the drive way, Justin ended up carrying me to our bedroom. He laid me down on the bed, taking off my shoes and his. “Who was that you were talking to?” He asked. I was so drunk and tired that I ended up passing out.
The next morning, I didn’t feel good. I ran to the bathroom, puked my brains out. I brushed my teeth and when I walked into the bedroom, Justin wasn’t in bed. I walked into the kitchen to see that he had made me coffee and breakfast. Still, I couldn’t find him.
I sat down and starting eating, when Justin walked into the kitchen, as he came from the front door. “Morning. How you feeling?” I gave him a dirty look.
“I feel like someone took a big ass hammer and is hitting me in the head, repeatedly.” I said, he smiled, but then he looked serious.
“So about last night.” He paused and sat down at the table next to me. “Who was that you were talking to?”
“I don’t know. I couldn’t really see his face.” I said.
“He?”
“I think, why?”
“Just curious.” He took a sip of his coffee. “I saw him get close to you. I didn’t know if it was a friend or not.”
“I don’t think I know him.” I lied. I know I’ve met him before, but I can’t remember where. I wasn’t paying attention to what I was saying, but it slipped out. “I think he kissed me, but I think I was just imaging it.”
“So, you knew him?” Justin questioned me again. Why was he being so worried? If I told him that I knew that guy, he would want to know who, but even I don’t know who.
“No, I don’t remember much after we had our hard core make-out session.”
“Okay, I was just making sure.” He paused and then touched my hand that was on the table. “I care about you too much and I don’t want to lose you. I love you, Elizabeth.”
“I love you, too.” I finished breakfast and then I decided that I wanted to get more sleep, so Justin and I cuddled the entire day. It was perfect, but my mind was still wondering who that mysterious guy was.

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My Writing: My Secret Love (Chapter 1)

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Here is another one of my books! My Secret Love. I want to WARN everyone that there is mature content and this story might talk about abuse, rape, drugs. There is ALSO some very graphic sex scenes. I will let you all know at the beginning of each chapter!

When I woke up this morning, it didn’t feel like a normal day. It felt different. I looked over to see Justin still sleeping on the other side of the bed. I slowly got up, grabbed clothes and got into the shower.
I was glad today was Friday. With the work week I had, drinks are needed after I got out of work. I’ve been staying late almost every time for the past few months because of my little sister Sammy.
The water felt nice on my skin, I really didn’t want to get out, but it was already 7:43 a.m. I had to be at work for 8, but it looks like I’ll be a little late.
When I got out of the shower, Justin was already dressed and ready to go. I grabbed my clothes and dropped my towel. I had enough time to put my bra and underwear on before I felt his warm hands go down my arms.
“Let’s not go into work. Stay home with me, baby.” He slowly kissed my shoulder, going closer to my neck and lightly nibbled. “Please, baby? Take today off, I’m sure your parents will understand.”
I pulled away from him to put my jeans on and one of my favorite plaid button-up shirts. “I wish, but they don’t get it. I can’t have a life, but they can with Sammy.” I then grabbed my red leather jacket, that my Mimi gave me before she died. “I’ll try my best to get out early and then we can go to the bar, have a few drinks, and spend time together.” He kissed me and then smiled.
“We can do that. I really wish you had today off, but to make the day even better, how about I bring you to work?”He then grabbed his coat and his car keys. I grabbed my bag and then we left for work.
“You’re late, again.” I heard my mother’s voice as I was trying to eat my breakfast. She walked in and sat down in front of my desk. “Why were you late this time?”
I took a sip of my coffee and then looked at her. “Oh, I don’t know. Probably because my boyfriend wants to spend more time with me because for the last couple months, I have been working late.”
“I’m sorry, but you have more important things to do. Your father and I do like Justin, but you have duties here that you have to attend with.”
“I know.” I then took a bite out of my breakfast sandwich as she rolled her eyes, when she saw what I was wearing. “What’s the problem now?”
“You need to dress more formally if you’re going to be in the office all day. I raised you better than this, Elizabeth.” She then stood up as my older brother walked in. She looked at my brother and left our office.
“Well, what did you do to her now?” Tim asked as he closed the door. “Okay, now spill it.” He then sat down at his desk.
“She bitched at me for being late again. I told her that I would like to spend more time with my boyfriend, but that’s not important.” I ranted to him. “But, anyway, I see that she is still not talking to you.”
“Nope. Did I forget to mention that Dad stopped by my house last night?” Tim then put a file on his desk. “No way, why did he come over?” I asked.
“First of all, he was completely wasted, screaming and yelling in front of my house. I guess that’s what happen’s when I finally had the guts to tell them your gay.” He then got up and threw down a file.
My eyes widen when I saw the name of who the file was on. It was him. A name that I never thought I would see again. Michael James Locke.

As always, if you want to read the book, without waiting for the chapters, it is out on Wattpad, and search katieasehl. 

Chapter 2:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/06/my-writing-my-secret-love-chapter-2/

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My Writing: Unclear – 10 Years Later, Happy Ending (Chapter 20) ~End~

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Hey dearies! I didn’t know how short this ending was, I’m sorry about that! So, for an extra special, I am going to give you guys a NEW chapter from one of my other books!

If you haven’t read Chapter 19, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/30/my-writing-unclear-all-just-a-dream-chapter-19/

Jade’s P.O.V. 
I never thought that I would be a mother. Even when I dreamed about it, I never thought I would be able to have any kids after the accident. I moved into Tanner’s place after the accident. He has helped me so much. We fell in love all over again and got married 3 years later.
And now, we are parents to twins. Just like in the dream.
But, come to find out…
My best friend is dead. He died 3 weeks after the twins were born. I do miss him. I’ll think about here and then, but he doesn’t spend too much time on my mind.
Tanner’s sister is married and is expecting a little boy.
My mom and her new husband ended up splitting up after she lost the babies.
And me? Well, I’ve been a stay at home mother and also been teaching students online for a living. But after everything I’ve been through, I’m finally happy. I just wished my sister and father were here.
I’m glad that I have a family of my own. It’s perfect for my happy ending.

So, I’m debating on creating a sequel because I didn’t realize how I ended it, so I will keep you guys posted on my Facebook and Twitter. Hope you all enjoyed this story! If you have any feedback, please feel free to let me know! 

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My Writing: Unclear – All Just A Dream (Chapter 19)

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This is the second to last chapter, for Unclear! Your votes came in on a tie, but in the time being, I am going to be working on Unclear Part 2 and Friday, I will let everyone know what book is next!

If you haven’t read Chapter 18, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/27/my-writing-unclear-prayers-anything-please-chapter-18/

~All Just A Dream~

Jade’s P.O.V.
I woke up in the hospital, face hurt and my entire body was in pain. I looked around the room, no one. I looked over to the stand to find my phone. I grabbed it and then looked at the time. 6:27 pm. But the date didn’t seem right, it was in the middle of May, but last time I remembered, it was September, not May.
It didn’t seem right to me, at all. The middle of May? But where’s my children? My heart started to beat faster, making one of the machines go off. Then I heard a knock on the door and Dr. Locke came in, smiling.
“Well, well, you are finally up.” He said, walking over to the heart rate monitor and pressed a few buttons. “How are you feeling?”
“Okay, but where are my babies? Where’s Tanner?” I asked. Locke looked confuse, but I knew he knew Tanner.
“Babies? You think you were in the hospital because you were pregnant?” I nodded. “Sweetie, you were in a car accident almost a year ago, you just finally woke up.” My eyes started to water.
“But-but, I came here because I was going into labor. Where’s Tanner?” I’m just so confused, it doesn’t make any sense.
“You’ve never been pregnant, I would’ve known that.” He paused. “You were out on your birthday and on your way home, you drove into another vehicle. I got a frantic call from your mother, she was crying, saying that you were badly hurt. You’ve been here ever since.”
Tears fell from my eyes. “Where’s Tanner?” I asked again. He looked up at me and frowned.
“Tanner is, ” he paused. Making me feel like something happened. “He was the one you hit, but he is alive. He’s been coming here every day to see you. I’ll be back later, I’m going to let the nurses know you are up.” He then turned around and left the room.
A few moments later, Tanner walked in with some flowers. He walked in and placed them in the vase that was next to my bed. Then he sat down in the chair next to my bed. I looked up to him, he looked like crap. Looks like he couldn’t sleep.
“Tanner.” I spoke, his head shot right up and he looked at me and smiled. “You’re awake! I’ve been waiting for you to wait up.” He then held my hand, placing a kiss on it.
“Where’s our babies?” I asked. His eyes opened up a little more. “Did you dream about that too?” I nodded.
“I did, but we’ve only met once, at that party that was at your house, but I feel that I’ve known you longer than that.” He explained, as I sat up in bed. I tried getting out of bed, but couldn’t. I couldn’t feel my legs at all. “Did the doctor tell you?”
I looked at him, puzzled. What did he mean exactly? I shook my head no. I took a deep breathe. Please be good news.
“When we got in that car accident, you were hurt more than me.” He paused. My stomach felt sick. “You’re paralyzed from the waist down. I’m so sorry. Dr. Locke doesn’t think you’ll be able to walk again.”
I started to cry in my hands. How can this be happening to me? I haven’t done anything wrong. I felt Tanner’s hand grabbed mine, as I looked up.
“I’ll do whatever you want, since I caused this.”
“Don’t, it’s not your fault. I was the stupid one to drive drunk.” I then placed my head in my hands. God, why did I had to be so stupid?
“Jade, it doesn’t matter, okay? I want to do this. Please, let me.” He asked. I rolled my eye’s and said ‘fine’.

If you can’t wait to finish Unclear, check it out on Wattpad! Search for katieasehl and you’ll find Unclear and a few other works that I am currently working on!

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My Writing: Unclear – Prayers, Anything Please (Chapter 18)

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After this chapter, only to more chapters will be left! If you like to vote on if I should make an Unclear or show one of my other works, check out my Facebook page to vote! There is only a few days left!

If you haven’t read Chapter 17, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/23/my-writing-unclear-new-life-chapter-17/

Tanner’s P.O.V.
~4 Weeks Later~
This wasn’t suppose to happen. She should’ve made it out okay. Now, the mother of my children, may not even walk out of here alright. We need a fucking miracle, something. She can’t leave this world, not now. Her babies need her.
Jade hasn’t improved since she gave birth to our twins. The babies were able to come home the 4th day since they were born. They only got to see her once. I’ve been visiting the hospital as much as I can, but it’s been difficult with the twins home. Jade’s mom has been a huge help with all of this. She told me that she would help me out until Jade is well and able to come home.
They don’t know what caused it. Its like she’s sleeping beauty, but someone did something to her. She looks like she’s in a deep sleep that she can’t wake herself up. Doctor’s think that she just lost a lot of blood and pasted out because she just gave birth, but I don’t believe it. I think that someone did something to here.
As I looked over at Jade, hoping that she just opens her eyes at me, touch my hand back, or move, something. I grabbed her hand and held it in mine and just watched her as the doctor came in.
“How is she doing?” I asked as I looked up at Dr. Locke. He frowned. “Okay, the same she was or has been for the past couple weeks.”
“Do you know when she will wake up?” Rubbing her soft hands.
“Unfortunately, we are still unsure about it, but the good thing is that she’s stable.” He paused, “However, we did get a phone call from a Mr. John, he said that he wants you to call him back. I guess he didn’t know you or Jade’s number.” As he handed me a piece of paper that had a number written on it. “I’ll be bad in a few hours to check up on her again. Have a good day.”
As soon as Dr. Locke left, I dialed the number in my cell phone and placed it to my ear. It rang a few times before I heard the familiar voice that I didn’t think I would ever see or hear from again.
“So, sorry to hear about how my beloved Jade isn’t doing well. What a shame.” Lucas spoke. My blood started to boil, just hearing his name pissed me off.
“How the hell do you know all this? I thought that we were done with all this high school bullshit.”
“I have ears, James. I’m not that stupid, but I’m not into Jade anymore. Since I have came to the conclusion that she will never be with me, I have decided that if she can’t be mine, she can’t be with anyone.”
“What did you do to her?? Her children need her now, they need their mother!” I yelled.
“I know a doctor who’s drugging her up and keeping her from waking up. I told you not to call this cops, but you did and sent me to jail, yet again. And of course I know her children need her, that’s why she will be woken up, but soon. So don’t get your hopes up, she could be gone before your eyes.” He laughed.
“You just aren’t going to leave her alone, aren’t you? You can’t let her have the life she wants, unless it’s with you? She’ll never love you the way she loves me now. What you did to her, she’ll never forget. So what are going to do now, huh? Drug her and have the family that you wanted? I don’t think so, whatever you thought about doing to her, forget it. You won’t get past me to get Jade or our children. Go ahead and try, I dare you, because as soon as you do get anywhere near her, I’ll make sure that some one is there to arrest your ass and make sure that you never get out.”
“We will see about that, just because she has that restraining order on me, don’t mean shit to me. I’m not the one who’s going to get her or your children and besides, I’ll make a better father to them than you ever were.”
“Like hell you are! You keep dreaming about that buddy, cause it won’t ever happened. Why don’t you go bother someone else for a change.” I hung up.
I just sat there and just kept thinking. How will I be able to protect both Jade and the babies? Just in case this dumb ass actually comes out and tries to get them.
Why the hell does this stuff have to happen to us?

Next chapter will be out on Friday!

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My Writing: Unclear – New Life (Chapter 17)

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Good Morning! Here is another chapter of my book! Only a few more chapters left! I also wanted to let everyone know, if you haven’t noticed, I have updated each chapter, so before you read the current chapter you are on, I will have a link for the chapter before and at the end, I will have a link to the next chapter, from the one you are currently on. 

If some of the link aren’t working, let me know, so I can fix them! I also have a list of all the chapter. I will be updating that as well, until the end of the book!

If you haven’t read Chapter 16, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/20/my-writing-unclear-its-time-chapter-16/

Enjoy!

~New Life~

Jade’s P.O.V.
“Just a few more pushes.” Doctor Locke said as I pushed. “One more.” Then I heard crying. Tanner looked at me and kissed me. “It’s a boy!”
“How is he? He’s healthy right?” I asked. Worried that something might be wrong.
“He’s perfectly fine, but we need to get the next one out now.” He said as he handed my son to one of the nurses. “Okay, push.” I pushed and pushed.
“Okay, I see it’s head, now one more push.” I pushed and then hear the crying of my second child. “It’s a girl!” I smiled in relief. I felt exhausted. Tanner kissed me once more.
“They are beautiful.” Tanner said. I smiled. I then started to fade. “Jade?” I heard Tanner say before I completely blacked out.
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Tanner’s P.O.V. 
“Jade!” I said.
“Her heart rate is slowing down. You need to leave.” The doctor said as I was being pulled out of the room. They closed the door and I threw my hands in my hair. Why the hell is this happening? James came up to me.
“It everything okay?” He asked.
“The babies are fine, but they kicked me out because Jade’s heart rate started to going down.” I just wish that they would tell me what the hell is wrong. I can’t lose another person who I love. I just can’t. It would kill me.
“Don’t worry, she’s a fighter, she’ll be fine.” He said, then walked back to the waiting room. I started to pace back and forth for about 20 minutes, until one of the nurses came out from the room.
“How is she? What happened to her in there?” I asked. I couldn’t wait any longer, I needed answers.
“She lost a lot of blood. Currently, she is fine, but she is in a comma. We aren’t sure how it happened, all we know is that it might be a while, before she wakes up.” My eyes started to water. How the hell did this happen? Then the nurse spoke again. “You can go in and see her, if you like, but why don’t you meet your son and daughter.”
I followed the nurse to the nursery. She then picked up my son and handed me him. Just holding him in my arms was priceless. It really was. A tear slipped from my eye, as I held his little hands. He was just so tiny. Perfect.
The nurse then switched with me, so that I could hold my daughter. She looked so much like Jade. It sadden me that Jade wasn’t able to hold our children before she went into a comma. I just hoped that she will wake up in time for us to all go home as a family.
“Did you have any names in mind?” The nursed asked as I looked up at her and then back down to my daughter.
“Yeah, we had names picked out.” I paused, “I just didn’t think it would just be me to name them.”
“I understand, but they do need names.”
“I know.” I said, looking down at my daughter. She was just as beautiful as her mother. I then started to think back to when we were talking about baby names.
A few months ago…
“What about Matthew?” Jade said, we were siting on our couch, both looking for baby names. She was looking through a baby book that had a list of names, while I was looking on my phone.
“I like it, but what about Norman?” I said. Jade looked at me and questioned me.
“Norman? That sounds like a old person’s name.” I looked over at her. “So? Everyone names their kid Matthew, it’s a very common name.” I explained, she looked back at her book.
“What about Logan? Logan Michael? I can see that. What do you think?” She asked.
“Sounds good to me. I think I can live with our son being named that.” She smiled. “And for a girl, we should name her Athena Lynn.”
“That’s beautiful. How did you come up with that?”
“It was my great-grandmother’s name.” I said, looking at her. She smiled. “So are we done with name picking because I think that we are done, finally.” She rolled her eyes.
“Yes, we are done.” She paused and placed my hand on her stomach. “They are kicking.” I smiled when I felt them kicking.
“They must like their names.” I smiled and took my other hand and placed it on her cheek. “That and they must love their mommy.”
“And their daddy.” Jade added as I came in and kissed her.
I smiled. As I looked down at my daughter. “Her name is Athena Lynn.”
The nurse then handed me my son and I held both children in my arms. “His name is Logan Michael.” I then placed a kiss on both of them. The nurse took my daughter and placed her down. I then placed my son down.
Now that I saw my children and held them for the first time, I wanted to see Jade.
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Jame’s P.O.V.
As I walked back to the waiting room, Jade’s mother and Savannah were waiting. Savannah shot up and walked over to me.
“How is she? Is she okay? How are the babies?” She questioned me. I looked at her and my face sadden. She’s gonna be just as hurt as I was when Tanner told me.
“The babies are healthy, but Jade’s heart rate started to go down and the doctors kicked Tanner out. They haven’t said what was wrong with her, yet.” I said. Savannah started to cry. Jade’s mother walked over and her eyes started to water.
“I feel so bad.” Jade’s mother said. “I could’ve fixed the relationship we had, but instead, I give all my attention to my husband.” Savannah hugged her.
“It’s not your fault. People do crazy things, when their in love.” Savannah said. She had a point. I ruined a chance to be with Jade and because of that, she’s with Tanner. They’ll make one great family. “But we aren’t here about that. We are here to support Jade and Tanner. Come on, let’s go get some coffee, while we wait for more news from Tanner.”
I ended up siting in one of the waiting room chairs. I can’t believe that this is happening. Jade doesn’t deserve this. She doesn’t deserve me as a friend. Why the hell did I come?
My phone then started to go off. It was my girlfriend calling me.
“Hello?”
“Where the hell have you been?” she yelled.
“I’ve been at the hospital. Jade just had her babies.”
“What! Do you even know what day it is today?”
“Um, our anniversary? Your birthday?”
“No and no! We had plans to go out to the club tonight!”
“Well, I’m really not up for clubbing.”
“Why not?? You promised!”
“Ugh, fine. Just let me find out what the hell happened to Jade and then I’ll be on my way to pick you up.”
“Well, hurry the fuck up! Or you don’t get your surprise.”
“Okay, okay. I’m on my way now. See you in a few.” I then hung up on her. Fuck. I got up and started to walk out the door, until Savannah stopped me. She was just by herself.
“Where are you going?” She asked. I really didn’t have time for this. I just realized that ‘surprise’ my girlfriend had for me, it’s a threesome and I’m not going to pass it up.
“I’ve got to go. Keep me updated.” I said, as I ran out of the hospital.

Next chapter will be out on Friday! If you can’t wait to finish the book, you can always go to Wattpad and search katieasehl, not only will you find Unclear, but you will also find other books that I have wrote or I’m currently working on. 

Chapter 18:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/27/my-writing-unclear-prayers-anything-please-chapter-18/

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Unclear: List of Chapters

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Hey guys! I wanted to make it easier for you guys to get to each and every chapter of my book, Unclear. So, I will list all the links of the chapters, just to make it easier for you guys to find!

*If any of the links aren’t showing up or working, please let me know, so that I can fix it!*

Into –
 https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/14/my-writing-unclear-intro/

Chapter 1: 10 Years Later – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/21/my-writing-unclear-10-years-later-chapter-1/

Chapter 2: The Mistake – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/28/my-writing-unclear-chapter-2-the-mistake-chapter-2/

Chapter 3: Does He Love Me? – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/04/my-writing-unclear-does-he-love-me-chapter-3/

Chapter 4: What’s Wrong With Me? –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/08/my-writing-unclear-whats-wrong-with-me/

Chapter 5: Uh, Oh – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/11/my-writing-unclear-uh-oh-chapter-5/

Chapter 6: I Need To Tell Them – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/15/my-writing-unclear-i-need-to-tell-them-chapter-6/

Chapter 7: 3 Months – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/18/my-writing-unclear-3-months-chapter-7/

Chapter 8: It Was Me – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/22/my-writing-unclear-it-was-me-chapter-8/

Chapter 9: The Father Is – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/25/my-writing-unclear-the-father-is-chapter-9/

Chapter 10: 5 Months – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/29/my-writing-unclear-5-months-chapter-10/

Chapter 11: Its A What?? – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/02/my-writing-unclear-its-a-what-chapter-11/

Chapter 12: He’s Coming For Me – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/06/my-writing-unclear-hes-coming-for-me-chapter-12/

Chapter 13: What’s Going On? – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/09/my-writing-unclear-whats-going-on-chapter-13/

Chapter 14: Marie’s Hope –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/13/my-writing-unclear-maries-hope-chapter-14/

Chapter 15: The Last Long Love –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/16/my-writing-unclear-the-last-long-love-chapter-15/

Chapter 16: It’s Time – 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/20/my-writing-unclear-its-time-chapter-16/

Chapter 17:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/23/my-writing-unclear-new-life-chapter-17/

Chapter 18:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/27/my-writing-unclear-prayers-anything-please-chapter-18/

Chapter 19:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/30/my-writing-unclear-all-just-a-dream-chapter-19/

Chapter 20:
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/08/03/my-writing-unclear-10-years-later-happy-ending-chapter-20-end/

 

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My Writing: Unclear – It’s Time (Chapter 16)

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Happy Friday! There is only 4 more chapters left after this chapter! I need your input! Show I make a sequel or show one of my other books on here? Let me know in the comments or feel free to message my Facebook page and let me know!

If you haven’t read Chapter 15, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/16/my-writing-unclear-the-last-long-love-chapter-15/

~It’s Time~

Jade’s P.O.
It’s been a few weeks since Marie was taken and turned into a vampire. I still couldn’t believe it was true. I never thought there would be such thing as vampires. As long as Marie is alright, I could care less of what she is.
I’m 39 weeks pregnant. Only one more week until Tanner and I’s baby’s are here. I’ve been working from home, since that I’ll be having twins, while Tanner has been working overtime. I haven’t been able to see him as much. I miss him.
I woke up with Tanner still fast asleep. I had to get up and start working. Any money that we can save, the better it will be for us.
As I walked into the kitchen, Tanner had left a note on the counter with a box filled with donuts.
‘I know I’ve been working a lot, but I’ll make it up to you, tonight.’
I smiled, grabbing the box and bringing it into my desk.
Then I went to work. The best thing about working from home is that I can work whenever I want. Especially since that I’m going to stay home to raise our children, until they go to school. Then I’ll go back to work at the book store.
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Tanner’s P.O.V.
I woke up around noon. I’ve been busting my ass to put money aside for the babies and for bills. Nothing much I can do. Plus, the more overtime I get, the more time I’ll be able to help out Jade with the twins.
I wasn’t going to worry about it right now. Tonight, I’m going to do something nice for Jade. Since she has only 1 more week until her due date, I thought that I would make her a special dinner and watch ‘The Notebook’ with her.
I got up and rubbed my face. I’m still really tired from last night. Got dressed and walked out to find Jade working. I smiled to see that the box of donuts I got her, were completely gone. I walked over and kissed her on the cheek. She froze, her hand was on her stomach.
“What’s wrong?” I asked. She looked up at me.
“I think I’m having contractions.” She said as my eyes opened.
“A-are you sure?” I asked again.
“I don’t know, but either I peed my pants or my water just broke.” She said as she pointed down to her wet to her wet pants.
“We need to get to the hospital, now.” I said, grabbing the bag, that we had by the door, for when Jade was about to have the babies. Jade moaned in pain. “Shit! We need to get going, now!”
I ran down the stairs, started the car, than ran back up the stairs and helped Jade down to the car. My mind was rushing with emotions. I just couldn’t believe that I was going to be a father! I kept thinking that all the way down to the hospital.
Once we got there, Jade was admitted into a room, I ended up making a phone call to Jade’s mother, letting her know that Jade is in labor. Then I called James’.
“What the hell do you want?” James answered. I wish he didn’t have to be a dick.
“Well, Jade wanted me to call you and let you know that we are at the hospital.” James went completely silent.
“S-she in labor?” He stuttered.
“Yes. I think it would be best if you were here for her. I know you two haven’t talked in a while, but you are still her best friend. She needs you.” I said. It sucked saying those last words, but Jade should have her best friend by her side.
“Okay, I’ll be down there as soon as I can. I’ll see you there.” James hung up.
I then texted Jade’s other best friend and told her what was going on. There was one person I wanted here with me, but for the safety of my children, Marie won’t come.  I dialed her number. I haven’t talked to her since she died.
“Hey, you reached Marie. I’ll call you back when I can.” It went to voicemail, again. Then once I heard the beep, I said this:
‘Hey it’s me. I just wanted to let you know that your niece and nephew are about to be born. I wish you could be here for this. I still haven’t heard from you since you left the hospital with that guy. Please, call me back as soon as you can. I miss you, sis.’
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Marie’s P.O.V.
I looked down at my phone. Tanner called again. I called my voicemail to hear his message:
‘Hey it’s me. I just wanted to let you know that your niece and nephew are about to be born. I wish you could be here for this. I still haven’t heard from you since you left the hospital with that guy. Please, call me back as soon as you can. I miss you, sis.’
Tears came to my eyes. I missed him too, but I can’t. My craving for blood is too strong. I can’t even be near a human, while out hearing their heartbeat and the beat of their pulse.
The reason why I haven’t called him back is because he would want to see me in person. I can’t do that. I can’t look at my brother in the eyes. All he would see is a murder. I ended up killing a girl yesterday. Tanner wouldn’t look at me the say way.
I looked out the window and laid my head up against the glass. I just wish that there was a cure. I hate being a vampire. I hate having to crave on blood, even though it tastes so good, I hate it. That’s why I’m trying to drink from blood bags or live off of animal blood, but ever since I drank that girls blood, I’ve wanted nothing more that to do it again.
“Well, I see that you are crying again.” Eli said,handing me a blood bag. “Is it about that girl, again?” I wiped my tears.
“Kinda.” I said, opening the blood bag and started to drink. “Tanner called me today.”
“What did he say?” Eli knew I wouldn’t answer the phone to anyone, but him.
“Jade’s in labor. I’m gonna be an aunt soon.” Another tear fell from my cheek. “And I can’t be there because I’m not strong enough to resist blood. I hate being this-this monster!” I covered my eyes and cried some more.
“I know. I never wanted you to have this life, but your curse was broken once you died. Vampire blood can only go so far. It can’t cure curses, but it can give you a second chance at life. Think about your niece and nephew. Think about your brother. You did it to be with them longer and now, you can.” He came up and I felt him wrap his arms around me. “I know this isn’t the life style you wanted, but you can do this. You can fight the craving for blood. It might take some time, but think of all the good reasons to why. You still have a family left, I don’t.”
“I’m trying to, but these emotions are everywhere. I can’t take it!” I yelled. “I just want to turn them off, but then I wouldn’t care about my family and I can’t do that.”
“Don’t ever shut off your humanity. You’ll regret it. I did once, and it took me a long time to get it back.”
“I won’t. I know what happened with your brother. I’m not going to let it happen to me.”
“Promise me you’ll never go the easy way, just deal with your emotions like a human would.”
“I promise.”
If you can’t wait to finished this book, you can always find it on Wattpad, just look up my user name, katieasehl. Not only will you find Unclear, but other books that I have been working on. 

Chapter 17:
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My Writing: Unclear – The Last Long Love (Chapter 15)

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Good morning! What a great way to start your day with a little Unclear! Sadly, only 5 more chapters left! If you are one of my readers that has been reading this on every Monday and Friday, I need your help! Should I make a sequel or just show another story? 

If you haven’t read Chapter 14, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/13/my-writing-unclear-maries-hope-chapter-14/

~The Last Long Love~

Marie P.O.V.
“Y-You’re here?!?” I coughed again, this time there was blood coming out. I was dying and it was starting now.
“I finally found you. After two years of searching, I found you.” Eli said, coming closer to my side of the bed. Sitting down next to me, taking his hand and feeling my cheek. His hands were cold, but that’s because he’s dead. A vampire.
“I thought you were a goner when you were trapped in that house fire.” Tears started to my eyes, remember that night was torture. Deep down, I did love Eli, but he didn’t find out that I was dying until that very night when I told him. Sadly, vampires can’t have children with the living, they must be a vampire in order to have any young.
“No, I escaped in time, but was very weak. It took me a long time to heal myself, after that, I went off in searching for you.” He said, wiping my tears away. God, was he was just as beautiful as the day I first met him. “I love you, Marie. When I got here, I was told that you were in the hospital, dying, but I can help you.”
“Please help her. She’s my only family after our parents left.” My brother spoke out, but he was right, ever since our parents left, he was the only family that I had left. But he wouldn’t be alone, he has two unborn children on the way and I know for a fact that he will be a amazing father. “What can you do to help her?”
“Well, I can try two things,” Eli paused and looked up at Tanner and Jade. “One, is I give her my blood and see if she heals.”
“Okay, what is the second thing?” Jade asked.
“I’d give her my blood and if it didn’t heal her, she would become a vampire, like myself.” Eli said those last words, I didn’t think he would let me become a vampire. He wanted me to enjoy my human life, since he was unable to enjoy his.
“Wait, if she turns into one of you, she won’t be able to stand in sunlight? Or can’t be around holy water? And have to survive on just blood?” Tanner sounded worried.
“My friend, she will be fine. I’ll teach her everything she knows. I also have a ring that allows her to walk in the sunlight.” Eli said as I coughed again, harder and more blood started to come out. Eli grabbed a towel and handed it to me. “She’s getting worse. A few more coughs like that and she might be dead.”
“But what if I become a horrible beast that might feed on my niece and nephew? And don’t ever stop.” I asked. That was the only thing that I was worried about. I didn’t want to become a monster that hurts everyone in my path. I can’t do that.
Eli pushed my hair out of my face and I looked into his eyes. “I won’t let you get like that, my love. I’ll make sure of it.” He kissed my cheek and looked up at Tanner. “It’s her choice if she wants to change. I won’t force her to do anything, but just remember that she won’t be the same after this transformation. Because of this, once she is changed, I’m going to take her far away from here and help her get over her craving for blood, so that when your children are born, neither you or your family will be put to harm.”
Tanner walked over to me and kissed my forehead. “It’s your choice, but I would want you to be there for my unborn children. If you think you can do it, I’ll support you.”
“I want to change.” I coughed harder again. Eli then bit his wrist and fed me his blood. Once I started, I couldn’t stop. Then Eli pulled away.
“You must let me take her away from here now, otherwise you’ll have to watch her go in pain and die.” Eli said as Tanner nodded ‘yes’. He picked me up and we were gone, just like that.
“It hurts!” I yelled. My heart felt like it just exploded. I couldn’t breathe or move. I just laid there in pain. “Just kill me!”
“Love, it is. I can kill you, but I don’t want to hurt you like that. It’s almost over.” Eli said. Then my vision became blurry. Everything stopped. I didn’t feel alive anymore. I felt dead.
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Eli’s P.O.V.
Her transformation was complete. It was only a matter of days of when she would awaken as a vampire. I grabbed her phone and dialed the number that was her brothers.
“Marie! Are you alright?” He answered
“It’s me, Eli. And she has just finished her transformation.”
“Okay, but when can I see her again?”
“Well, once she wakes up, I’ll teach her to survive on blood bags. Then I’ll have to teach her to refrain from killing any humans. It really depends on how strong she can maintain it.”
“And how long will that take?” He asked. I knew this question couldn’t be answered right on. It all depends on Marie and how she changes.
“I can’t say for sure, but I will make sure that she contacts you when she is awake. It could be months or even years. It all depends on her. I’ll keep you updated.”
“Please take care of her, she is the only one I have left.” Then he hung up. I then placed her phone down and walked over to the window.
I can’t believe that I changed her. I wanted her to live a wonderful human life, but after that curse that was placed on her, she might not wake up for weeks. I love her, but I never wanted her to have this life. The only thing I can do now is help her, so that she doesn’t do the same mistake that I did years ago.
That might take a very long time. I just hope that she won’t change to become a completely different person. Just like my brother did.

Next chapter will be out on Friday! If can’t wait and want to keep reading, my book, Unclear, is on Wattpad! Just search katieasehl, and you will not only find Unclear, but other works that I written or are currently working on. 

Chapter 16: It’s Time
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My Writing: Unclear – Marie’s Hope (Chapter 14)

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Happy Friday! Here is another chapter to start your day off on a good note! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 13, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/09/my-writing-unclear-whats-going-on-chapter-13/

~Marie’s Hope~

Marie’s P.O.V.
I woke up in the hospital. I guess I fainted, but I knew what was happening. I was dying. Nothing could save me now. Nothing could. I looked over to see my brother and Jade by the side of the bed. Tanner was holding my hand.
“How you feeling?” Jade asked as my brother looked up and saw that I was awake. How long had I been out for?
“I feel…Weak.” I said. I did. Every bone in my body felt cold, like I was starting to die. I can’t die. Not now.
“As long as you are alive, that’s all that matters.” Tanner said and kissed the top of my forehead. “Do you want something to eat? I’m gonna go down to the cafe and get some coffee.”
“If they have sour cream and onion chips, that would be great.” I said. Tanner looked over to Jade and she replied, “Water and maybe just some fruit.” As he left the room, Jade sat down in the chair that Tanner was sitting in.
“You are going to be a wonderful mother. I can already see it.” I said, then coughed. “You’re good for my brother. I haven’t seen him this happy in a long time.”
“Thank you, and you will be a wonderful godmother.” Once Jade spoke those words, my eyes watered. She is letting me be a godmother? The only thing that’s wrong with that is that I won’t be there for my niece and nephew. As soon as she saw me crying, she spoke again. “Please don’t cry, I wasn’t trying to make you cry, I just wanted you to know. I haven’t told Tanner yet.”
“I’m crying because I won’t even make it threw the night. Tonight is my last night on this Earth. Nothing can save me. Unless, no, that won’t work.” I coughed again, this time I felt that I was coughing up a lung.
“What? Tell me, anything that might be able to save your life. I’ll do anything.” Jade asked. The only way that I could escape death would be to drink a vampire’s blood, but their are none in the area. I’ve checked.

“It won’t work, Jade. There are no vampire’s in town.” I said as Tanner came in.
“What about them?” Tanner asked, giving Jade her water and fruit and me my sour cream and onion chips. “They aren’t real.”
“So you think.” I said. “They are real, one of my good friend’s is one, but he lives very far away.” As I said that a strange guy walked into the room. I knew exactly who he was. Eli Litton.
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Such a cliffhanger! Next chapter will be out on Monday! If you can’t wait until then, you can always go to Wattpad and search katieasehl, you will find Unclear and other works that I have worked on or what I am currently working on. Unclear is slowly coming to an end and I want to know if I should make a sequel or just post one of my other works. 

Chapter 15: The Last Long Love
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My Writing: Unclear – What’s Going On? (Chapter 13)

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New chapter to the start of a new week! Now’s it’s going to start to get a little better, we are going to find out of Marie’s hidden past. Anyway, here is the next chapter of Unclear! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 12, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/06/my-writing-unclear-hes-coming-for-me-chapter-12/

~What’s Going On?~

Jade’s P.O.V.
Tanner has been pacing back and forth for over an hour. I tried to ask him what was wrong, but he just kept telling me that he’s fine, but I know he’s not fine. I wish there was something to do to make him feel better.
“Tanner?” I asked. He looked up at me and smiled. “Are you sure that everything is okay?” He came over and sat next to me, hugging me. Why wouldn’t he just talk to me?
“I don’t want you to stress over it. I want you to focus on taking care of our babies.” He answered. I have been taking care of the babies, but I want to know what’s troubling him.
“Please, just tell me. I hate seeing you like this.” I said. He took a deep breath and then looked at me.
“Marie was the one to bail Lucas out of jail. She thought that having him back, he would take you away from James, but once I told her that you were pregnant with my baby, she locked him up to keep you safe.” He then paused. “He escaped this morning and he is threatening to kill my sister, if I don’t hand you over to him, but my sister is already going to die.”
“Why is she going to die?” I was just too shocked to say anything else.
“In my family, my grandmother was a witch. My parents didn’t want anything to do with magic because it killed my grandfather. When my sister got burned in the face, my grandmother did a spell and in order for her to live, she must have a baby before her 21st birthday.” He explained. “That’s why she went after James, but since he loved you, it wouldn’t work. She has to have a baby with someone who loves her.”
“Oh, that explains everything. I thought she was just doing that because she didn’t like me.” I felt so bad. I had no problem with her, but I just wish that she had open up to me about this. “Wait, did she tell Lucas that I’m pregnant with your babies?”
“Yeah, but he doesn’t seem to care. He said that he was going to raise them as his own on his old family farm.” He then threw his hands in his hair. “I’m just trying to find a way to save my sister, without getting you involved.”
“He just wants me, but I have a restraining order on him. He doesn’t want money?” When I mentioned that I had a restraining order on him, his eyes lit up.
“Does he know? About the restraining order?” Tanner asked and I nodded my head no. He smiled. He might of just thought of something. Before I could say anything he spoke again. “This is perfect. He can meet up at our place, but I’ll make a phone call to one of my friends, who is a cop, and once he steps on our property, he’ll be arrested again.”
Tanner then got up and made some phone calls. I then got up and walked over to my desk to find the papers. Once I found them, it flashed back to some old frighten memories of what he did to me and my sister. I just hope that they do throw him back in jail, I want my kids to be able to grow up safe and sound.
He came back in the room and I handed him the papers. “So when is this all going to go down?” I asked. Tanner kissed me on the forehead and smiled.
“He’s on his way.” I froze. I haven’t seen Lucas in years. I’m not sure what he might do. As long as his ass gets thrown in jail and far away from my new family. I hope Marie is okay, as well. I made a lot of sense to why she didn’t like me, but since things have changed, I would like her to at least hold one of her nephew or niece.
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Marie’s P.O.V.
I couldn’t see anything. All I know is that I could be in the trunk of a car. I tried to free myself, but I couldn’t free my hands, from what felt like rope. My head was killing me. The last thing I remember is hearing Lucas on the phone with my brother and that’s when I blacked out.
A car door slammed shut and someone opened the trunk. I could feel the fresh breeze hitting my face. A pair of hands grabbed me and pulled me out of the trunk.
“Here’s what’s gonna happen,” Sounded like Lucas’ voice. “I’m going to hand you over to your brother, while your brother hands over my girl. Got it?”
I nodded. I felt so wrong for betraying my brother and Jade. I should’ve never bailed him out in the first place. I should’ve just found a different man to fall in love with, but my time is soon coming to the end.
Then the blind fold was taken off my head. I could see Tanner and Jade right in front of me. Lucas was still holding my arms. Jade looked scared as she saw Lucas.
“Damn, you just got even more beautiful then you were littler. ” Lucas said. “Can’t wait for us to start a life together. Especially, with the two little ones on the way.”
“They aren’t even yours.” Jade said, holding my brother’s hand.
“I don’t care who’s they are, they will be our children.” Lucas grinned. I wanted to just punch him in the face. “Don’t worry, Tanner. They will be in good hands.”
Tanner grinned back at Lucas. “We will see about that, now won’t we?” Tanner said as a two cops grabbed Lucas and handcuffed him.
“What the fuck? You can’t arrest me for doing nothing!” Lucas yelled as they placed him in the back of the cop car.
“Actually, you are breaking a restraining over that Ms. Roy has against you.” One of the officers said. “Since that violates your patrol, you are most likely going back to jail.”
“This isn’t fair! I’ll get you for this! And your family too!” Lucas yelled as he was taken away.
Tanner and Jade came up to me and untied me. Jade hugged me, which surprised me, but made me feel a lot better that my nephew and niece are safe now. Now since that creep was going to be locked up, I think that all three of us felt a lot better.
My head started to spin, I was losing my balance. Pain in my chest was literally killing me. It was too late. I didn’t want to leave this world, but I didn’t find true love in time. I fell to the ground, Tanner screaming my name. That’s when everything went completely black.

Next chapter will be out on Friday! As always, if you can’t wait until Friday to read Unclear, the book is currently on Wattpad, just search my username katieasehl and you will find Unclear and a few other books that I have out on there. If you have checked out my other works, what should I do next after Unclear is finished? Should I make a sequel and make it all about one character, or do what I did in Unclear and focus it on everyone?

Chapter 14: Marie’s Hope
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My Writing: Unclear – He’s Coming For Me (Chapter 12)

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Happy Friday! Bring another chapter to you. Again, I’m really sorry that these chapter’s haven’t been the greatest, but still hold on! It’s going to start getting a little better pretty soon! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 11, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/07/02/my-writing-unclear-its-a-what-chapter-11/

~He’s Coming For Me~

Marie’s P.O.V. 
I was dreading about today. I had to left Lucas out, but I had a bad feeling about it. I was thinking about not letting him out all morning long, but I finally got the guts to go up stairs and break him free, but when I got up there, he was nowhere to be found in his cage. I panicked. Where could he be?
I opened the caged and walked in. “Let’s go Lucas, I don’t have time for your games this morning.” I said as I turned around, Lucas was right in front of me.
“Hello.” He said as I pulled my hand out, he put something around my wrist. I tried to choke him, but my powers weren’t working.
“What did you do to my powers?” I said, trying to remove it off my wrist. He then shut the cage door and locked me in it. “What the hell?? Let me out! I was going to do it this morning, like I promised you!”
“I got impatience.” He said. “You really didn’t think that I would sit on my ass any longer than I had to? I told you that when you freed me out, I wanted my girl back, but since you treated me like shit and got on my bad side, I thought I return the favor.”
“Seriously? How did you get this?” I said pointing to the bracelet around my wrist.
“Well, it didn’t take long to find it.” He grinned. “You really think I didn’t know about witches? Please! My mother raised me to become a wizard, but I never had any magic myself. You were the lucky one. It skipped me.”
“What do you want?” I asked. I just wanted to get the hell out of this cage and kill him.
“Well, for one, I want her. And you’re going to tell me where she is, but if not,” He paused, took his knife out and started to sharpen it. “I’ll kill your brother, right in front of you. Then I’ll leave you in there, where you will die.”
“Why don’t you let me out of here and I’ll show you to her instead.”
“How about no. You are going to stay put here. While I visit my love.”
“What do you see in her anyway? I thought you loved her sister?”
“I did, but she didn’t love me. She cheated on me and I threaten her if she ever did leave me or cheat on me, I’d kill her and rape her sister.” He said.
“It doesn’t matter, she doesn’t love you. And those aren’t your babies. Those are Tanner’s and they will always be!” I yelled.
“I don’t care! She is mine now!” He said as he was about to walk down the steps, but stopped. “Oh, I did think about having a child with you, but since you tried to kill me, I’ve changed my mind.” He then left.
I reached in my pocket and got my phone. The least I can do is warn them.
“Hello?” Tanner answered.
“Listen, I’ve made a huge mistake.”
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Tanner’s P.O.V.
“You did what!!??” I yelled.
“I’m sorry, I thought that he would take Jade away from James, but once she became pregnant, I locked him up and he just escaped.” Marie said, she seemed really sorry, but of course, she did it for her own personal reasons. Now the mother of my children is in danger.
“Fuck, Marie. Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m alright, but don’t worry about me, protect Jade and the babies. He’s going after them. He plans on taking them to his old home and planning on raising them as his own.” She said.
“I will, don’t worry.”
“Just protect her-,” Her side went silent.
“Marie!? IS everything okay?” I asked, I hope she was okay.
“Oh, don’t worry, she’ll be fine.” A male voice spoke.
“What did you do to her!?” I yelled.
“Nothing… Yet.” He  paused and just as I was about to speak, he spoke instead. “Listen and listen good, Tanner. In order for your sister to live, I want Jade. Otherwise, I’m going to kill her by 10 pm tonight.” I then heard Marie yell, ‘Don’t worry about me, save yourselves.’
“I know what you did, Lucas. You are never going to get Jade. Never. Let my sister go, now!” I said, I knew it was Lucas, I put it together.
“How about no. And besides, your sister is gonna die anyway because of your grandmother.”
“What are you talking about? Our grandmother passed away a long time ago.” I was so confused.
“Oh, she never told you? Well, since your grandmother did some magic on her, she has been cursed, until she has a child before this coming up full moon. So me killing her now, is doing her a favor. I’ll see you at 10.”

Next chapter will be out on Monday! It you are too impatient and really want to keep reading, Unclear is on Wattpad, just search my username katieasehl. You will also find my other works, as well. Unclear is going to be ending soon, so if you would like me to create a sequel for it, send me a message or comment down below!

Chapter 13: What’s Going On?
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My Writing: Unclear – It’s a…. WHAT?? (Chapter 11)

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Good Morning! We are finally in the month of July! I feel like this year has gone by so fast, so far. Anyway, here is another chapter of my book. In this chapter, we find out the sex of the baby! Enjoy and prepared to be shocked!

If you haven’t read Chapter 10, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/29/my-writing-unclear-5-months-chapter-10/

~It’s a ….. WHAT?~

Tanner’s P.O.V. 
Jade and I were waiting at the doctor’s office. Today, we are going to find out the sex of the baby. I have a feeling that it’s gonna be a girl. A boy would be nice too, but I have a feeling it’s going to be a girl.
Jade was looking through some magazines. As I looked over at her, she looked so beautiful. It’s been starting to get hard with her bump in the way, but I love it. She then looked up at me and smiled. I smiled back.
“Jade Roy?” One of the nurses called her name and we got up and followed her to one of the ultrasound rooms. Jade grabbed my hand as we walked into the room. “The doctor will be right in.” Then the nurse left. It was silence for a little bit until Jade spoke up.
“I’m nervous.” She said. “And excited. I just hope that nothing is wrong with the baby.” I hugged her tightly, but not too tightly. I didn’t want to put too much pressure on the baby.
“I am too.” I answered as I looked down at her. “Everything with be fine, I promise.” She then kissed me on the cheek and sat down on the table.
“Hello, Jade. How are we feeling today?” As the doctor walked in and looked up at Jade and I. “You must be the father.” As we shook hands. Then he went right back to Jade. “Are you ready to know what your baby is?”
“Yes, I’m nervous and excited.” Jade answered as she laid down on the table and pulled up her shirt, showing her belly.
“Don’t be nervous, I’m sure that everything will be just fine.” He smiled at her, then put some gel stuff on her belly. “And do you want to know what the sex of your baby is? Or do you want it to be a surprise?”
“Yes. Sooner I know, the sooner I can shop for him or her.” Jade said and the doctor smiled. Then there it was. Our baby. Once I heard the heartbeat, I kissed the top of Jade’s forehead. She was smiling, almost about to cry.
“There’s your baby. That’s the head. A hand. Looks like she’s waving to you too.” The doctor said as I smiled.
“It’s a girl?” I asked. I had the biggest smiled on my face.
“Yes, it is.” The doctor replied. Then his expression changed. “Wait a minute. There’s another heartbeat.” My eyes widen and I looked down at Jade, she was surprised.
“You mean there’s another baby?” She asked.
“Yes, you’re having twins.” The doctor then showed us the other baby. “He looks like he was hiding. I’m surprised I didn’t see him the first time I gave you an ultrasound.”
“A girl and a boy?” Jade asked. “But that’s impossible. No one on my side of the family has ever had twins.”
“Well, you see, having twins is rare, but not impossible. It doesn’t matter if your family has had twins, you could’ve had two eggs that were fertilized. I understand that this is shocking, but look at the bright side. You both have two perfectly healthy babies.” He explained, then he got up and walked over to the door. “I’m be right back. I’m going to get you some copies of your babies.” Then he exited.
“Twins, wow.” I said. Jade looked over to me. She was already shocked that I got her pregnant, but now we have, not just one, but two babies! I don’t know about her, but I’m so happy! “Hey, I know that this was a surprise, but think of it this way, at least you don’t have to get pregnant a second time.” She started to laugh.
“I guess you’re right. It’s not like these babies won’t be loved any less. I’m just glad you talked me into agreeing to get a 3 bedroom house.” She smiled. I laughed. I then went over to her and pressed my lips against hers.
“I won’t ever leave you. I promise that I’ll be here for you and our children until the very end.”
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Lucas’s P.O.V.
Sitting in this shithole, while that crazy freak tries to put a love spell on me, or whatever, is pissing me off. I need to find this guy who got my girl pregnant. He’s a dead man when I get out of here. When I get out of here.
I got to think of a plan to get me the hell out of here. I need to see her. The only thing that I did have, that could get me out, was my pocket knife, my father gave me when I turned 12. That bitch fucking took it from me. Speak of the devil here she is.
“Well, well, you do look rather cozy in there.” She spoke. I ignored her. There’s no way in hell that I’m going to fuck her, just so she can live.
“When the hell are you going to let me out? And give me back my fucking knife! My father gave that to me!” I yelled.
“Soon, my love.” She then pulled her phone out of her pocket and answered it. “Hey Tanner. So how did it go?”
“WHAT? TWINS? Are you serious?” She was surprised. Wait, she did mention that Jade was going to find out the sex of the baby today. Oh shit, if she has twins, this will be perfect. If I escape, I was take her with me to my family’s old farm house. And we’ll raise those two babies together. This is perfect.
“A girl and a boy? Congratulations big bro! Listen, I’m kinda studying for a big test for college. I’ll talk to you later, okay? I love you, bye.” And she hung up the phone. “How is that possible? I thought that there was only one girl?” She then looked up at me.
“Well, it sounds to me, that my girl has been very naughty.” I said. “Sounds, like I could help you, but only if you let me out of here.”
“Tomorrow. I’ll let you out tomorrow, but you must agree that you will not harm my brother or those babies. They are not yours and never will be yours.” She gave me an evil look. “I mean it. They are the only family that I’ve got, since my parents walked out on me.”

Another chapter will be up on Friday! If you are too impatient and don’t want to wait for another chapter, you can always check out my story on Wattpad, just search my name katieasehl and you will find Unclear and other stories as well. We are about halfway done with Unclear. I haven’t written a squeal, its been in my thoughts, but I will ask for you guys advice on if I should make another one or not. Of course, let’s finish the book first, before you advised me to make another one or not. 

Chapter 12: He’s Coming For Me
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My Writing: Unclear – 5 Months (Chapter 10)

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Happy Friday! Here is a another *sigh* short chapter. I’m sorry that they have been short lately. Here it is though! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 9, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/25/my-writing-unclear-the-father-is-chapter-9/

~5 Months~

Jade’s P.O.V.
I’ve started to get a baby bump. Tanner thinks that it’s cute, but I think that once I get even more bigger, things are going to be difficult for me. I can no longer wear jeans and the only thing that actually fits is sweat pants or leggings.
Tanner and I have been looking for a place of our own. We haven’t told anyone, yet. I know his sister might be a little upset, after what Tanner told be about their parents and how they just left. Lately, he says that she’s been busy with painting, I guess. As long as she’s busy, she won’t be able to question us.
Today was a big day, though. We had just found a place and we also have a doctor’s appointment to find out what the sex of the baby is. I’m really excited! I hoping for a girl and Tanner is too. He told be he always wanted a little girl to call his own. He also said that a boy would be nice too.
As I finished packing the last box, Tanner took it and packed it in the back of the trunk. Savannah was holding Ricky when I came back in.
“I’m really going to miss you.” She said. Tears falling down from her eyes. We were basically like sisters, after my father and sister died. “You’ll always have a place here and if you ever need me, call me. Ok?” I hugged her and Ricky. Gave Ricky a little kiss on the check.
“I will too.” I said as I let go of her. I then looked at Ricky. “You be a good boy for your mama, okay? Maybe if you are good, Auntie might come over on Christmas Day.”
Ricky had the biggest smile and then I grabbed him from Savannah and hugged him. “Auntie, can you bring him too?” As he pointed up to Tanner in the doorway. Ever since Tanner has been coming around, Ricky really likes him. They would do all kind of stuff together. It was really cute and it made me feel like he was the one.
“Only if you are a good boy.” I said and he smiled and shook his head yes. “I love you, buddy.” He then hugged me back. Then he ran over to Tanner and hugged him too.
Once everyone got their hugs and kisses, Tanner and I got into the truck and left to our new place.
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Next chapter will be out on Monday! If you are too impatient to wait, Unclear is avaible on Wattpad. Just look up my username katieasehl. That is where you will find other stories I have written. 

Chapter 11: Its A… What!?
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My Writing: Unclear – The Father Is? (Chapter 9)

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Good morning, guys! Here is another chapter of Unclear for you! Now, I won’t be on at all today because it is my son’s birthday and it is a very difficult day for me and my family. I have this scheduled to appear for today. Anyway, I did actually Google if you can get a paternity test while pregnant, which you can, its just really dangerous, or Google was wrong and now I just sound dumb. I think I just wanted to let you readers know who it is so that we can move on from this ‘love triangle’ we have going on. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 8, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/22/my-writing-unclear-it-was-me-chapter-8/

~The Father Is?~

Jade’s P.O.V.
A week later, I was finally called into the doctors office. They had finished the DNA testing to see who the father was. I told Tanner that I wanted to go by myself and that I would tell him when I left the doctors office.
I sat in the waiting room, waiting. Why the hell is it taking so damn long? I honestly thought that they were going to send it in the mail, but I guess not.
“Jade Roy?” A nurse finally came out and called my name. I got up and followed her to my doctor’s office. My doctor was sitting at his office chair, with my file on hand. I sat down in one of the two chairs that sat in front of his desk. The nurse then closed the door.
“How are you feeling, Jade?” Doctor Locke asked.
“Fine.” I answered. I just wanted to know who the father was. “Why didn’t you just send me the results?”
“Well, I thought that it would be better if you got the results in person.” Doctor Locke then pulled out the paper and handed it to me. “Mr. James Miles had a lot of drugs in his system that we couldn’t really get a good test from. However, Mr. Tanner Homes DNA showed that he is in fact the father of your child.”
I looked down at the paper. He was right. Tanner is the father. I couldn’t believe it.
“Wait, why does it say that for James?” I asked because on the paper, next to his name, it said that it wasn’t possible for him to ever have kids. “Why did you test them both to see if they were able to have children or not?”
“Well, you see. We needed to find out first if Mr. Miles and Mr. Homes could have kids. Mr. Homes could, but unfortunately Mr. Miles can not.” he explained, but I still didn’t understand. “We do this with every paternity test and if they are able to have children, then we take their blood and test it.”
“Well, thanks anyway, Locke.” I said as I got up and went over to the door. I then looked back at him. “Wait.” He said as he stood up from his seat. “Be careful, he’s coming for you.”
I knew who he was talking about because Mr. Locke was my doctor when they did the rape kit for me. I just wanted to forget all about it, but I can’t. I need to find a place of my own and soon. Otherwise, he’ll threaten Kayla and little Ricky. First things first, I need to tell Tanner that he is the father.
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Tanner’s P.O.V.
I ended up going to see James, he said he had the money he owed me. I just hope that this time, he wasn’t going to give me cocaine as a payment, again. I don’t do that because my best friend, Thomas, died from cocaine. That’s why I only grow and sell pot. I do smoke it, but since I found out that I might be a father, I’ve stopped. I’ve just been selling. Jade knows because she used to smoke too.
I knocked on James’ door and then walked in. I saw him on the couch, fucking some girl. I then looked at him and he knew that I was going to let him finish first. I just hope that Jade doesn’t come over while he’s doing that.
I sat down at the island in the kitchen and waited. I then heard the moans come to a stop and then James walked in with just sweatpants on. He then opened the fridge and grabbed a beer.
“You got my money?” I asked. He better because most of the money I’ve been making, I’ve put away in the bank for the baby, just in case it’s mine. “Who’s that in the living room?”
“Yeah, I got it.” He said as he reached in his pockets and pulled out $300 dollars. “Here. There’s a little extra for maybe a bag.”
“Yeah, I guess, but none of this I.O.U crap,  I’m not letting you have a tab anymore. From now on, you’ll pay me in cash and only cash.” I said as I took the money and counted $300 exactly. Then the girl that James was having fun with, came in with his tee shirt on and underwear.
“I got it, man. ” James said, taking another sip of beer. “And this is Becky, my girlfriend.” He hugged her and gave her a kiss on the check. She smiled and then went back out to the living room.
“You haven’t told Jade?” I asked.
“No, and she don’t need to know.” He then grabbed a bottle of Gin and started drinking it straight up. He should’ve told her. Before you know it, she is going to find out the hard way. “She never cared, so why should I? And besides, I can’t have kids so the baby is gonna be yours.”
“You can’t have kids? Who told you that?” I was surprised.
“Jade’s doctor. He said that the reason why I didn’t have to do blood work is because I can never have kids. Which is fine with me, I can always adopt a China baby.” He started laughing and laughing. “Jade’s better off with you than me. Just look at me. I’m a mess and you have you’re not. Can I have more pot or what?”
“Here.” I gave him a bag of pot and left.
As I got into my truck, Jade was calling me. As soon as I closed my truck door I answered.
“Hello?”
“Hey, so I found out.”
“Yeah? Is it mine or James.” I had a feeling that I already knew it was mine, but then again, James was drunk and doesn’t know what he was saying half the time.
“It’s yours. James’ can’t have children.” Once she said those words, the biggest smile came on my face. “I also have a question.”
“Shoot.”
“Do you think that it would be a good idea if we were to live together? For the baby’s sake.” Really? I mean, I was going to ask, but I thought that it might be too soon, I mean, what’s the worst that could happen?
“Yeah, if you want to. I’m all for it. Do you want me to come over and we can start looking for a place?” I asked.
“Yeah, meet me at my house in 10?”
“I’ll be there.”
“I’ll be waiting. Oh, and one more thing.”
“Yes?”
“I’m really glad that the baby is yours.” And then she hung up.
I couldn’t believe that I am going to be a father. I really can’t believe it. I was so happy that I ended up beating her home. I sat in my truck and waited for Jade to get out of her car.
“I promise, little one, that I will always be there for you. Always and forever.”
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Marie’s P.O.V.
“LET ME OUT YOU CRAZY BITCH!” Lucas said as he was banging on the bars and trying to open them, but there was no point.
“Don’t get your panties in a bunch.” I said as I was looking into the mirror. Trying to see if there was another way for me to break this curse. Then it hit me. Why don’t I use Lucas to create my child? I then looked over at him, he was pissed. “Now, I have a question for you.”
“What now? First you promised me that I would get Jade, then told me she killed my baby, and then locked me up because she’s pregnant with some fags baby??” He said. “What more do you want from me?”
“I need you. I have a deal that I want to make with you.” I said, walking back to my spell book. “Since, she killed your baby and broke your heart. I can make you forget her.”
“Here it comes.” He said crossing his arms.
“But, I need to have a child, otherwise I will die. So, what I was thinking…” I paused and then looked up at him. “I make you fall deeply in love with me that you’ll forget her. Then we can run off together. One big happy family.”
“You think that anyone would ever fall in love with a freak like you? Ha!” He started laughing and that pissed me off more. I then came to the cage and grabbed his throat. Lifted him off his feet and then started to choke him.
“Unfortunately, you don’t have a choice. You are going to fall in love with me and you will forget all about Jade. Then we are going to have a child. Got it?” I then left go of his neck and he fell to the ground. “Oh, and if you wanted a son or daughter, I can make that happen, as well. Or we can just have both.”
I than walked over to my spell book and read over how I was going to make him forget about her. All I need is a piece of her hair, which I already had, and a piece of his hair. I walked back over and plunked a hair from his head.
“Now, while you are recovering from the chokehold that I just gave you, I will be creating this love potion that you will drink.” I said as I started to go down the stairs. “Oh, one more thing. You can scream as loud as you want, but no one will hear you .” I grinned and started to laugh.

Next chapter will be out on Friday and it won’t be scheduled, like today’s was. Thank you guys for reading and as always, if you can’t wait for the next chapter, you can always read my book Unclear on Wattpad. Just look up katieasehl or Unclear and you will find all the books that I have written or currently working on. 

Chapter 10: 5 Months
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My Writing: Unclear – It Was Me (Chapter 8)

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Happy Fridays! I am really sorry how these chapters are becoming very short! I think I was having a writers block, around this time. There was a lot going on, but then again, I started this back in high school and never really fixed it, but I am hoping to fix it after I finish one of my other books. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 7, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/18/my-writing-unclear-3-months-chapter-7/

~It Was Me~

Jade’s P.O.V.
The next day, Tanner called and asked if I wanted to go to the library. He knew how much I loved to read. I was really excited because I wanted to get started on some reading about the baby. Tanner picked me up and we drove to Medow Lane Library.
“You know who my favorite author is?” I asked Tanner as we walked in and started looking at the books.
“Let me guess, you are a Stephen King fan?” Tanner smiled. I smiled back. I did like Stephen King. I would have to say that the Green Mile was my favorite.
“I do like him, but he isn’t my favorite. Sarah Dessen is.” I then pulled out one of my favorite books that she has written, Lock and Key. “This is my most favorite one that she’s written.”
“Well, I perfer reading Stephen Kings ‘The Green Mile’.” Once he said that, my mouth dropped and then I smiled.
“I love that one. I really like the movie, Tom Hanks did very well in it, but Mr. Jingles was my favorite.” I said. We laughed when I said Mr. Jingles.
“We should watch it together sometime.” He asked as we were checking out the books. “Maybe we can watch it tomorrow after your doctors appointment?”
“Sure, do you want to come with me? To my appointment?” I smiled.
“If you want me to go, I’ll go with you.” He answered. “I can pick you up if you would like.”
“I’d like that.” I smiled as we walked out of the library into Tanner’s truck. Then my phone started to go off. The caller I.D. was an ‘unknown’ caller. I didn’t answer because I knew it was James trying to talk to me again. I didn’t want to talk to him because I knew what he was doing. Drinking and doing drugs. I didn’t want to be around that and if this was his baby, I didn’t want my child to be around that. “It’s James, again.”
“I thought you blocked his number?” Tanner asked.
“I did. He’s using a different number. He started doing that about a week ago.”
“Well, he did call me last night.”
“He did?”
“Yeah, he needed me to tell you that a guy named Lucas Miller was bailed out of jail. James said he killed your sister and rapped a minor.” Once Tanner mentioned Lucas’ name, he could tell that Lucas and I had a history. A very bad history.
“No. That’s impossible.” I said. Tears started to fall from my eyes. “Can I tell you something? You can’t tell anyone I told you.”
“Of course you can. I promise.” He said. I had a feeling that I could trust him with anything. If I did want a relationship with him, I should at least tell him about what happened with Lucas.
“After we got the news that my father died, my sister got really depressed, to the point where she got a new groups of friends and started partying, drinking, and doing drugs. That’s how she met Lucas. He was 21, at the time. He would provide everything. Mandy and him started dating, but she wouldn’t have sex with him because she knew that’s what he wanted.”
“Why didn’t she?” Tanner asked.
“She didn’t want to get him into jail. One weekend, my mother left to go visit my father’s parents to see how they were about their sons’ death. Lucas told Mandy that since my mother was gone for the weekend, that they should have a party.” I paused and looked up at Tanner. “While the party was going on, Lucas came into my room and gave me something to drink. I blacked out. When I woke up the next day, I was tied to my bed, naked, with Lucas laying next to me. I tried screaming, but he had gagged me.”
“I’m so sorry, Jade.”
“I’m not finished.” I said. “That was also the night that Lucas killed Mandy. He drove her into another car. She was dead when they found her. The police came in and saw me tied up and took him to jail. I had a rape kit done and Lucas was guilty for rape of a minor and the dead of my sister. He was sentence to 25 years in jail.”
“I won’t let that bastard touch you, ever.” I could see how angry Tanner was. He must really care about me.
“There’s one more thing.” I said as Tanner looked up from the truck floor to me. “I ended up getting pregnant and ending the pregnancy. Lucas thinks that I had the baby and that I kept it. I had to get rid of it. I was only 13 and I didn’t want to raise a child that the father had raped me.” Tanner came over and hugged me, so tight. I loved that he was comforting me. Especially after I told him about my past.
“Don’t worry. I’ll protect you, no matter what. He will never be around you ever again. I promise.” Tanner said as he kept hugging me in the truck.
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“NO, Tanner!” I said, looking through my mirror. He was hugging Jade, promising that he would protect her from Lucas. This changes everything. When Tanner makes a promise, he means that promise.
“The hell you yelling at a mirror for?” Lucas asked, carving something out of wood. “When do I get to see her and my baby!?” He threw the knife on the ground and came up to me.
“Your baby gone! She got rid of it the moment she found out she was pregnant.”
“What? No, not my baby!” Lucas threw his hands in his hair. “How could she?”
“You raped her. Why would she keep it?” I said. I knew about Jade’s past a long time ago.
“She loved me. She would never do that to me! We belong together and you’re going to take me there, NOW!” Lucas said taking the knife and threating to kill me.

“You will, soon enough.” He then took the knife away from me and sat down on the couch. “Now, things have changed, since you have been in jail. She’s pregnant.”
“WHAT?! Who’s the father??”
“My brother. She doesn’t know and neither does my brother, but they will find out in a week.”
“How do you know this? You some kind of a freak?” He said. I hated that word. Everyone in high school always called me that, until my grandmother showed me the art of being a witch. I had the gift that my mother never got. I calmed down, I could hurt him. He could still be some use to me.
“I’m a witch and if you still want to see her, you better start being nicer to me.” I said and then created a jail cell with a bed, toliet, and sink. “Or, you can stay in your little cage, until I need you. Got it.”
“Yeah, yeah, how much longer do I have to wait for her?” Lucas asked.
“When I say so. I won’t let you take away my niece’s mother away from her.” I said. That pissed off Lucas. He then came witht the night to try to hurt me, but he missed and I transported him into the cage. “I’m alot stronger and smarter than you are.”
“You bitch! You lied!” Lucas yelled. “Get me the fuck out of here NOW!”
“No, I have a better idea on what I’m going to do with you.” I grinned. He might be the one who can give me the baby I need, before next year. I have to hurry soon, I only have 2 more full moons left.

Next chapter will be out on Monday at around 7am. That is also my son’s birthday, so I won’t be active on that day at all. I will have it scheduled in advance for you guys because the day is going to hard enough.

As always, if you don’t want to wait and for the next chapter, the book is on Wattpad. Just search katieasehl and you will find Unclear and a few other stories that I have on Wattpad. Thank you for reading! 

Chapter 9: The Father is?
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My Writing: Unclear – 3 Months (Chapter 7)

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Happy Monday dearies! Another chapter is out! Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 6, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/15/my-writing-unclear-i-need-to-tell-them-chapter-6/

~3 Months~

I can’t believe that I’m pregnant. 3 months pregnant. I finally moved out of James’ house. I now live with Savannah, even tho I told her that I would try to move out before the baby s born and I’m so not going back to my mother’s house.
Tanner and I started hanging out more, he isn’t as bad as I thought he was. He’s really sweet and so kind. I think I’m starting to fall for him. I don’t know what it is, but I haven’t felt this way about anyone other than James, but James and I are better off as friends, unless the baby is his.
James’ still tries to call and text me, to the point where I changed my number completely. Plus, I heard that he started drinking more. Tanner saw him outside the gas station, drunk and begging for money. Honestly, he did it to himself. He shouldn’t of brought that up.
As I walked into the house, Savannah was sitting and watching T.V.. Ricky must be asleep for his nap. Savannah looked up at me as I closed the door.
“So, how did it go?” She asked.
“It went really good.” I answered and then sat next to Savannah.
“See? I told you Tanner was a nice guy!” She said changing the channel to MTV. Reruns of Silent Library was on, that was one of our favorite shows. “So what did you guys do?”
“Well, we went to go get lunch and they we ended up going to the mall for a little bit.” I answered, I really did have a good time and I honestly can’t wait see Tanner again.
“Wow, sounds like fun. You got a phone call from the doctors office, they wanted you to make sure you were okay to have the paternity test.”
“Yeah, I am. Did they say when they want Tanner and James to come down?” I’m so glad that they called today because I really want to know who the father really is. It’s driving me crazy!
“Whenever, they said. Basically, walk in and walk out.” She said. Great. How the hell am I going to let James know? He doesn’t have my number anymore. “Don’t worry, I already called James and told him. I knew it would be hard for you after he said that.”

 

“I couldn’t believe he brought him up.” I started to picture the fight we had in his living room. Tears were starting to form under my eyes.
“Jade, Lucas is locked up. He will never be able to get you, I will make sure of that. After what he did to you and your sister, I won’t let him anywhere near you.” Savannah gave me a hug and I started to cry.
Lucas Miller was Mandy’s boyfriend, at the time before she died. Mandy wouldn’t have sex until after high school, but Lucas kept pushing. One night, my sister had a little party for just her and her friends. My mother was visiting her parents and preparing for the funeral for my father. I was in my room playing the piano, when Lucas came in and gave me a drink.
I barely remember much from that night, than again, I never want to remember that night ever again.
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James P.O.V.
It’s my fault that Jade left. I called her some stuff that isn’t even true about her. Especially, when I brought up her last pregnancy. I wouldn’t call that a pregnancy, ever. I’ve been drinking a lot more and started doing some pot and cocaine . They made me forget about Jade and I thought about my father.
Let’s just say that the way my father makes money, is wrong, but if he wants to star in porn films, be my guest. That’s why I left. I didn’t want to follow in my father’s footsteps, but look at me now, drinking and doing drugs.
I turned on the T.V. and started to roll a blunt. I was watching ‘That 70s Show’, until a reporter cut in the middle of the show.
“This just in, Lucas Miller  was just released from jail on bail. Miller was charged with rape of a minor and murder of Mandy Roy,  who was a victim of a drunk driving accident 10 years ago. More on this story at 5.”
Then it went back to the show, I lit my blunt and then picked up the phone to call Tanner, since Jade changed her number. I should at least be the nice guy to let her know. I owe her that much.
“Did you need more pot?” Tanner answered. I looked down at my coffee table, I was running low, but this is no time to do a drug deal.
“Later, but this is really important, it’s about Jade.” I said, taking another hit of my blunt.
“What about Jade?” He asked.
“You know about how her sister died, right?”
“Yeah, drunk driving accident, right?”
“Yes, but there is more to the story that the public doesn’t know.” I said putting down my blunt and taking a sip of my beer. “Lucas scared Jade for life. And now, he was just released out on bail. You got to let her know.”
“I will, and do you have my money? You still owe me $230 bucks, dude. I’m not gonna give you any more until you have paid me off completely. After that’s paid, no more loans from you anymore.” Then Tanner must of hung up the phone because the line went dead. Shit, how the hell am I going to get $230 dollars?!
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Marie’s P.O.V
Lucas and I walked into my secret room. I had bailed him out, since I need him for my plan. I had to keep him hidden until it was time.
“So, are you going to tell me who you are?” Lucas asked, as he lit a cigarette.
“Marie and you are going to help me.” I said as I smiled. “There’s someone in the way of my happiness and you already killed her sister.”
Lucas looked up and his eyes grew big. He knew who I was talking about. I then walked to the mini fridge and handed him a beer.
“Well, then.” He said taking the beer and opening it. “Now, tell what has happened with my girl and my baby.” He grinned.

As always, if you can’t wait until Friday for another chapter, head on over to Wattpad, search my username (katieasehl). There, you will find Unclear and more written work that I have either finished or working on. Next chapter of Unclear is coming out Friday!

Chapter 8: It Was Me 
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My Writing: Unclear – I Need To Tell Them (Chapter 6)

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I hope everyone’s Friday is wonderful! Of course it is! You are getting another chapter today! Sorry for the chapter being so short. Enjoy! 

If you haven’t read Chapter 5, here is the link! 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/11/my-writing-unclear-uh-oh-chapter-5/

~I Need To Tell Them~

It just kept running through my mind, ‘You’re going to be a mother.’ All night long. I had called the doctors office and made an appointment the day before. After the doctor came in with my tests. She smiled and told me that I was going to be a mother.
I got up from Savannah’s guest room bed and got dressed. I then headed out to the kitchen to see Savannah playing with Ricky on the floor. I smiled when Savannah saw me walk in. I’m so glad to have her as a friend.
“How you feeling?” Savannah asked and Ricky smiled up at me.
“Well, it’s not the first time I was told I was pregnant. I just can’t believe that this is happening now.” I said as I placed my hands over my eyes. “How could I be so stupid?”
“You made a mistake. It happens. Nobody is perfect. Just look at me, I got pregnant my last year of high school. Did everyone hate me for it? Yes, but the best thing that happened to me, was Ricky.” She said and I looked down a Ricky. He looks so much like Savannah. “So, when are you going to tell them?”
“I don’t know, I though I could hide out here until the baby was born and then tell them.” I smiled.
“You can’t do that! First thing first, you need to have both of them take a paternity test. Then, you need to figure out who’s it is. And when that is all done, then we find out what you want to do with the baby.”
“I’m joking. I’m just scared, Van.” I then went over and pour myself a glass of milk.
“I know you are. I was too. And do you know who helped me out through my pregnancy? The one who kept my spirits up when my family abandoned me? You were. No one else was, but you. Now it’s my turn to be your guardian angel.”
“Thanks, Savannah.” We hugged and then I looked at her and questioned her. “Guardian angel?”
“Hey, I can be a little cheesy when I want to.” She said and we laughed. “If you don’t want to live with James, you are more than welcome to live here.”
“Thanks, Van. I think that might be a better idea, it’s really weird living with him. He always wants to talk about us.” I hugged her again, then my phone started to go off.
“Speak of the devil, is that him?” She asked, I shock my head yes. James texted me.
‘We need to talk. Now.’ As I reread what he said, I had a bad feeling about this.
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I parked into the driveway of Jame’s house, well, it will be his by the end of the day. I got out of the car to notice that Tanner’s truck was parked right in front of the house. I took a deep breath and then enter the house.
Tanner and James were sitting, all eyes on me. I closed the door and then sat down as well.
“So, what did you want to talk about?” I asked. Tanner looked right at me and then spoke, “Well, why don’t you tell us what’s up?”
“Nothing is up. What the hell are you talking about?” I asked again. Did they already find out?
“Well,” James said and cleared his throat. “Marie was out with her friends and she saw you and Savannah buying some pregnancy tests.”
“W-what?” I was completely frozen.
“Are you pregnant?” Tanner asked. I looked in his eyes, god they were really cute. I couldn’t lie to those eyes.
“I found out yesterday, but I don’t know if-.” James’ cuts me off. “Wow, Jade. This is a low for you.”
“What is that suppose to mean?” I asked. What the hell? Why is he acting like this?
“Well, coming from a whore, such as yourself, you think that it’s okay to sleep around and get knocked up, again, and then lead but of us on.” I then noticed the Bud Light he had in his hands./
“That wasn’t my fault, James, and you know it.” Tears started to fall down from my cheeks. God, why did he have to bring that up?
“James, enough. Let her finish.” Tanner said and then stood up in front of James. Their faces were close enough, to the point that they might get into a fight. I then stood up as well. “After what you just did to her, I should beat the living shit out of you.”
“You know what? I’m going to get going.” I looked at James, “By the way, I’m moving out.” I then looked over at both of them, “Oh, I will be letting you guys know when you can find out if this baby is one of yours.” I then left. I needed some ice cream and some girls time.

Again, sorry for the short chapter. As always, if you don’t want to wait until Monday for another chapter, you can find me on Wattpad, katieasehl, and finish reading my book Unclear. I also have a few other books that are out on there as well! 

Chapter 7: 3 Months –
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My Writing: Unclear – Uh, Oh (Chapter 5)

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Happy Monday dearies! A beautiful day to have another chapter! As always, mature content might be in the scene, I can’t remember. I’m going to forewarn you, this is when the story starts to jump around, a lot. Happy Reading!

If you haven’t already read Chapter 4, here is the link! 
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/08/my-writing-unclear-whats-wrong-with-me/

~Uh, oh~

~One Month Later~
It was a sunny day for once, this week. It has been rainy for the past couple days. Since, the sun was finally shining out, Savannah and I made a plan to go shopping. I honestly didn’t feel the greatest, but being stuck inside all week because of the rain. I had to get outside. Plus, James has been bugging me about going out with him. I want to, but I just don’t know what I’m feeling right now. So, I’ve been kinda avoiding him.
As Savannah and I walked into Kmart, my stomach started to turn, again. It’s been like that for the past weeks or so. Savannah grabbed a shopping cart and looked up at me.
“Are you okay? You don’t look so well. Actually, you look like crap.” Savannah said as we started walking through Kmart.
“I don’t really know. I was fine, up until now. I feel like I’m gonna puke.” I said as I felt something coming up my throat. I ran to the restrooms as fast as I could. Once I got in a stall, that was it. I was puking for the 100th time.
After I was done, I heard the door open and saw Savannah’s high heels in front of the stall I was in. I opened the door and walked over to the skins and washed my hands and face. All I could taste was vomit.
“Are you sure you don’t want me to bring you home? We can go shopping another time, when your feeling better.” She said and I turned around to face her.
“No, I promised that we would hang out, and I’m not going to cancel it because I’m sick.” I said as we both walked out of the bathroom and headed down to the baby isle. Savannah wanted to check out some more cute outfits for her son, Ricky.
I started looking at some of the clothes as well. Then it hit me. Could I be pregnant? I makes complete sense. I haven’t been feeling good for the past few weeks. I’m tired and exhausted all the time. Plus the other day, I had a weird craving for tuna fish and I normal don’t even touch that stuff, but I do have to admit that it was really good.
I looked over to Savannah, she picked out a cute outfit that make me smile. ‘If Mommy can’t get what I want, Auntie will.’ That’s what the shirt said and I smiled to Savannah.
“That’s really cute. He will look so cute in it.” I said.
“I know! I think I’m gonna get it, its only 9 dollars.” As soon as she said that, my stomach started to turn again. What the hell!? It’s only been 11 minutes and I have to puke again? So, I ran to the restroom and puked, again. Then saw Savannah waiting for me outside the bathrooms.
“Okay, we need to talk. I think I know what’s wrong with you.” She then dragged me over to wear all of the medicines were. As we walked by, I noticed that we were in the isle with pregnancy test and prenatal stuff. “When’s the last time you had sex?”
“About a month ago, why?”
“With who?” She questioned me. I felt my face get red.
“With Tanner and then with James.”
“In the same day?!” She said shockingly.
“No, no, It was first Tanner and then it was James a week later.”
“Oh, okay. Well, were they protected?” I looked up at her and I honestly couldn’t remember. I was so drunk that I couldn’t even remember barely anything. I just wanted to cry, but I held it in.
Savannah hugged me and then said, “It’s okay, it happens. If you want, you can stay with me and Ricky.” Then she pulled away. “First thing we need to do is find out if you are pregnant, then we will take it day by day. You helped me, when I got pregnant and I’m gonna do the same for you.”
Then my phone started to go off. It was an unknown caller.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Is this Jade?” A male voice spoke.
“Yes this is. Who is this and what do you want?”
“It’s Frank, your stepfather.” What the hell did he want now? “Your mother is in the hospital.” My eyes got wide.
“What?! Where is she? How is she? And why are you calling me instead of my mom?”
“I called because your mother went into labor and lost both of the babies. She needs you, Jade. You are the only child she has left.” Tears started to pour from my eyes. ” And another thing, we don’t have enough money to pay the hospital bills and we were wondering if-” I hung up the phone. Of course she marries a gold digger.
I looked up to Savannah and gave her the ‘we need to leave’ look. But, before we left, she grabbed 3 pregnancy tests. I just hope that I have a stomach flu and not pregnant with a baby, that I don’t even know who the father is.

 

James POV
It’s been one month since that night. When I made love to the girl that I love. Now, everything has changed. She has been avoiding me since that night. I just want to talk to her. I want to know how she feels. I want to be with her.
Then the door bell goes off. I get up from the couch and open the door to find Marie standing there. I kinda forgot about her ever since that night. She used to send me messages and call me, but I blocked her number.
“Hi, James.” She said, smiling.
“Oh, um hi.”
“Can we talk? I’ve tried to call and text you, but I never got a response. So, that’s why I’m here.”
“To talk about what? Why I dumped you?” Once I said that, it got Marie’s attention. “Really? Why don’t I answer your calls or texts? It’s because I want nothing to do with you. I’m in love with someone else.”
“I-I thought we had something. Don’t you feel that spark that we have?” She wasn’t wrong. We did have a spark that kept me from thinking about Jade. I really didn’t want to end it, I had to. It was my only chance show Jade how much I loved and cared about her.
“There’s nothing. No spark. Not anymore.” I said and tears started to form under her eyes. God, I hate to see her like this. I have to. I have to find out if Jade and I will work out. “I think, it’s time for you to leave. Now.”
She wiped her tears and then ran to her car. I then slammed the door shut and went into my room. I don’t know what’s going on with me. First, I’m all about Jade, then I meet Marie, then I sleep with Jade and fall head over heels for her. Then Marie comes back. Why did she have to come back now? Couldn’t it waited a few more years?
My phone vibrated, it was a message from Jade.
Spending the night at Savannah’s house.
Of course. Avoiding me as usual. I really think that I need a drink because I don’t think I can handle the events of this day.
Jade’s POV
After Savannah put Ricky down for his bedtime, we both went into the bathroom. She gave me the first test and then left the bathroom. God, why did I have to be put in this situation?
After I took the first test, I gave it to Savannah. We then waited the 5 minutes and then she gave the test back to me.
“It’s a plus, Jade.” Savannah said. As I looked down at the test to see a plus sign. “You’re pregnant.”
“Give me the box. There must be a mistake.” As I took the box from Savannah and read the back of the box. She was right, I’m pregnant. “Oh, god.”
“I know, I was shocked the first time that I found out I was pregnant. Then again, you are in a totally better situation than I was.” She said, tears started to fall from my cheeks. She came over to me and hugged me real tight. “I’ll be here for you. There are options if you don’t want to keep the baby. I’ll support you 100%. You can even move in and I can help you out with the baby.”
“Thanks, Savannah. I think I just want to lay down and process this all in.” I said as she let go of me and smiled.
“You’re welcome, just lay down and if you want to talk, I will be all ears.” She said as she then got up and walked out of her bedroom.
I just sat there. Thinking that I’m pregnant, but I don’t know who the father is. I really hope it’s James, but then again, that would mean I would have to tell him that I’m pregnant. What if the baby is Tanners? What am I going to do now?
First thing first, I need to go to the doctors soon. I have to know if I really am. Then, I’ll have to tell them both. Tanner and the James. I just wish I knew who the father really was. The sooner I tell them, the sooner that I will find out who’s the father.
Why did I have to be so stupid?

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Chapter 6: I Need To Tell Them –
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My Writing: Unclear – What’s wrong with me? (Chapter 4)

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If you haven’t already heard, I will be posting a new chapter every Monday and Fridays! I have had such positive reviews that I figured I would give you guys an extra day for an extra chapter! View at your own risk, mature content is advised. 

If you haven’t read Chapter 3, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/04/my-writing-unclear-does-he-love-me-chapter-3/

~What’s wrong with me?~

I woke up feeling hungover and someone’s arms wrapped around my waist. Shit, what the hell happened last night? All I could remember was that I was dancing with Tanner on the dance floor, at the club. Did I fuck Tanner, again? I thought, but the only problem was, that is wasn’t Tanner that I slept with, it was James.
I carefully moved James’ arms from around my waist, to realized that I was completely naked. Great. I quickly gathered my clothes, from his room, and went into my room. I finally found my phone and checked the time. 5:43 in the morning?! What the hell was I doing up? I tried to go back to sleep but, I couldn’t. So, I decided to get dressed and go make some coffee.
As soon as I walked into the kitchen, James had already gotten to the kitchen before me, again. When he saw me, he smiled and poured me a cup and handed it to me.
“How you feeling, today?” He asked.
“I could be better. I just wish I didn’t drink that much, but then again, Tanner was buying me drinks.” I said as James’ handed me the cup of coffee.
“So.” He said. I knew it was coming. One of us was going to bring it up sooner or later. “What would you like for breakfast?”
Breakfast? What the hell? I was hoping he would’ve asked me how my night was. Well, you know. I went to a club with Tanner, got drunk, and then came home and slept with the guy I’ve loved since the first time that I met him.
“Eggs, bacon, and toast sounds good.” I said, taking another sip of my coffee. James started to gather the stuff and started to cook. It was silent for a long time. I waited, hoping that I wouldn’t be the one to break the silence.
“So, about last night.” James said as he was putting the eggs, bacon and toast on plates. “I’m sorry that I took advantage of you last night. We shouldn’t of did it last night.” He then handed me a plate and he then sat down next to me and began to eat. Advantage of me? I was drunk and I’m pretty sure  I agreed to it.
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t of gotten that drunk last night.” I said. God, now I just screwed everything up for us.
“It’s not your fault. I should’ve gone with you.” he said as we looked at each other. Why couldn’t I kiss him again? It just felt so good and right. I never thought that he would be okay with it, but he is a guy with needs. “But I have something that I want to ask.”
“Okay, what is it?” I asked as he took a sip of coffee and then began to speak.
“Do you have feelings for me?” I froze in my seat. Shit! I’ve never been confronted before, or like this anyway. What was I going to say? Well, you know, I’ve loved you since I’ve gotten to know you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship, but your more of an older brother type. Oh, and I lost my virginity because I knew that you wouldn’t be the one who would take it.
I took another sip of coffee and began to clear my throat. “Well, if you want the truth, then yes I do have feelings for you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship or make anything weird between us. Last night was just a mistake.” Great, I guess I’m going to have to start looking for a new place to stay.
“To me, last night, wasn’t a mistake, but a beginning. I loved you since I first laid eyes on you, Jade. You were my best friend, a person I knew that I would always be with. To be honest, it killed me inside that that creep got to have you, before I even got a chance.” He then took a sip of coffee and faced his half-eaten plate of eggs. See, I knew this was going to happen. Fucking stupid drunk I am.
It was silent, again. I didn’t know how or what to say. I just finished my breakfast and then left the house. I had to get out of there before I say something that I might regret.
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Marie’s POV
“Please just answer your phone, James. ” I said, tears falling down my cheek. He dumped me last night, without any reason to why. Plus, he made Tanner tell me that it was over? I just didn’t get it. I’ve been in my bed, since last night and it’s almost noon. I didn’t want to eat or sleep, nothing. I just wanted to know why.
“Knock, knock. You okay?” Tanner said knocking on my door and entering my room. He sat down on the side of my bed. “You hungry? I’m thinking about going out for lunch and I was wondering if you want to come with?” He wiped my tears away and I gave him a small smile.
“Yeah, I need to get out of the house anyway.” I said. “Plus, I was also wondering if we could stop by James’ house.” I got out of bed and went to my dresser and picked out an outfit. Tanner got up from the bed and started to head to the door.
“I guess we could stop by. I’ll be waiting downstairs when your done getting ready.” Tanner said as he left my room. I then quickly got dressed and met my brother downstairs. We then got into his truck and drove to Sandy’s. Sandy’s was like a old fashion restaurant that felt like home. I was my favorite place to eat.
As soon as we got it, we were seated right away. It wasn’t very busy today. Tanner order his usual, Bacon Cheeseburger with fries and I order a salad with Shrimp Pasta.
“So, Tanner. Do you know exactly why James broke up with me?” I said to break the silence after the waiter left with our orders.
“He loves someone else, Marie. I told you he was no good and besides, there are other guys who are better for you then he is.” As soon as Tanner said that first sentence, my heart started to hurt. Why would he lie to me?
“Oh,um, do you know who he loves?” I asked, Tanner took a sip of his drink and then began to speak. “He’s in love with Jade.” Tanner looked upset too. What wouldn’t he just tell me this by him own mouth? I would’ve understood.
“What’s wrong with you, Tanner? Seems like you and her had a little history going on.” I said. Then the waiter came out with our lunch and then left.
“Let’s just say, I really like her, but I can’t have her.” he said and then started to eat his burger. I have to do something, if not, then I wont be here anymore…

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Chapter 5: Uh, Oh –
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My Writing: Unclear – Does He Love Me? (Chapter 3)

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Good Morning my dearies! Ready for Chapter 3? Well, here it is as our usual Monday thing that we do on my blog! 

If you haven’t read Chapter 2, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/28/my-writing-unclear-chapter-2-the-mistake-chapter-2/

*Warning* There may be some mature content. I did write this back in high school, so this isn’t my very best work! I do believe there is a few dirty scenes, so read at your own risk! And of course enjoy!

~Does He Love Me?~

I decided that I didn’t want to sit and mope about my mother. So, I decided to go get some coffee. I ordered the same thing every time, Mocha Frappe. I ended up siting down, at the Cafe, and going through my Facebook. God, everyone was just so bitchy. I really do hate social media. It’s only good for one thing, starting drama. It makes me think of my old high school days, fighting about boys, looks, preps, and trying to state your opinion.
Honestly, I’m glad that I had James and Savannah by my side, otherwise, I wouldn’t have been able to make it through high school. Speaking of VanVan, I might as well text her. I was just about to text her until my phone started to ring. It was my mother, again.
“Doesn’t she get that I don’t want to talk.” I said silently to myself.
“Ignoring someone?” A familiar voice spoke and as I looked up from my phone, Tanner had already sat down next to me with a cup of coffee in his hand.
“Oh, hi, Tanner.” I said. Didn’t he get that this was totally awkward?  Well, for me it is because, since I am a normal human being, I respect myself and don’t go bragging about who I slept with.
“Hello, Jade. So, who is being ignored, by a beauty, such as yourself.”
“Actually, it’s called, ‘ignoring my mother because she apparently thinks that it’s okay to not tell me things, such as the truth.” I looked up at Tanner, but I didn’t notice how beautiful his eyes were.
“Well, if it makes you feel any better, my parents walked out on us, almost 3 years ago.”
“I’m so sorry about that. Have they made any contact to you?” I felt bad, knowing that his parents walked out on him and his little sister. I can’t imagine that happening to me.
“I’m here, if you want to talk about parenting problems.”
“No, I’m fine.”
“You sure?”
“Yes, I’m fine. Can you just stop asking me if I’m fine?” God, this guy is caring way too much about me. Homeboy is getting attached.
“Okay, calm down, I’ll stop.” I was glad that he stopped and took a sip of my iced coffee. “The real reason why I came over was because Marie wants to do a double-date. Her and James, and I’ll be your date. James is all on board with the idea.” A double-date?? With HIM?? I just wanted one night of fun, not a serious relationship. Not yet, anyway.
“No thanks, I’ve got a boyfriend.” I lied.
“Really now? You suddenly have a boyfriend now? It was less than a week ago that we slept together.” My eyes widen. What did I ask him to do? Never to mention this! Fuck!
“Don’t say another word about that night. It was a drunken mistake. Just forget about it.” I said and got up and walked out of the Cafe and over to my Jeep. Of course, Tanner follows me right out to my car.
“Wait, Jade. That’s the thing, I can’t stop thinking about that night or you.” I stopped in my path. Oh, god. I turned to face him. God, his eyes were so dreamy. I then went ahead and spoke.
“You need to. It was a mistake. If you want a booty call, go ask the neighborhood sluts, not me.” I then turned back around and got into my car. He then came over to the drivers side window. Was he not fucking done talking?
“Why are you pushing me away? I know you felt something for me, that night. You can’t lie about that.” I couldn’t. It was true. Even though, I didn’t remember the full night, some parts aren’t too blurry. Being with him that night, was honestly, the happiest I’ve been in a long time. I didn’t want to feel good. I just wanted to have fun and being in a relationship, right now, is not the plan.
“I’m sorry, I have to go. I’m not doing this, Tanner.” I said as he backed away from the car and I pulled away. God, why does love hurt so much? Plus it’s also so confusing.
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I then drove back to the house. James was home, but I wasn’t in the mood to talk to him. I then walked to the shore. I took my shoes off and sat down on the sand and felt the cold ocean water touch my toes. This was my only escape. The beach. Honestly, the only reason why I lived next to my mother, was because she lived by the beach as well.
But, what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I stop thinking about Tanner and James? I love James, but Tanner doesn’t want to be, just my friend. What if I give him a chance? Will it be weird? I know better than that to fall in love. I’ve made that mistake once, and he still doesn’t know. But, what if he loves me? I just wish that everything was back to normal. Mom was single and not pregnant, James wasn’t talking to other girls, and Mandy and Dad were alive and well.
I was thinking so hard that I forgot to notice that there was someone behind me, which, by the way, scared the shit out of me.
“Well, JJ. What’s wrong, girl?” I knew that voice. It was Savannah, my other best friend. She sat down next to me and gave me a side hug. “I’m sorry I couldn’t make it to your party, last week.”
“I know, it’s fine. How’s Ricky?” I smiled. She then looked at me and smiled back. “He’s doing good, but he misses his auntie.” I laughed.
“Well, of course he does! I’m the cool aunt that gives him everything that you can’t.” I smiled, she knew I was joking around.
“Well, at least you want to make an effort to see him.”
“Still no word from Connor?”
“Nope. He never wanted a kid to begin with.” I hated Connor from the moment I met him.
Connor DeVoid was a player and a spoiled brat. His parents would let him get away with anything. He would also have the biggest parties in high school. He still does now, but he moved to L.A., to get away from his duties of being a father. What really made me and Savannah hate him even more, was that his parents tried to PAY Savannah to get an abortion. I knew Savannah couldn’t do that. Ever since we were little, she would always talk about being a mother, someday. She did, and still is today.
After a little long silent pause, Savannah looked up at me and I knew what she was about to ask. “So what’s going on with your Mom?” I knew it. James spilled the beans to her about me being upset about my mom. The good thing about having James as a friend, was that he would never lied about what was going on.
“Well, you know how I moved out 5 months ago?”
“Yeah, what about it?”
“Come to find out that my mom has been seeing this guy, ‘Frank’, for over a year now. And that they decided to not tell me that they were engaged or that they were planning on eloping until last week.”
“What?! Your mother isn’t like that.” Savannah looked as surprised as I were when I found out.
“I know, but to top it all off.” I paused and looked at the ocean to find someone sailing by on a sail boat. “She’s also 5 months pregnant with twins.” Savannah’s month dropped.
“OH MY GOD! Are you serious, right now?!”
“Yup. I found out all of that, last week. That’s why I didn’t answer you very much on the night of the party.”
“Ah, that’s why. James ended up texting me that you were fine, but forget about that, how was the party?”
“It was a fun-hungover-blurry night. I met someone, too.”
“Oooo, details!”
“Well, I don’t remember much, but I did get really drunk and had sex with Marie’s, older brother.” I then covered my face in shame.
“Wait, James Marie??”
“Yes…” I said very quietly.
“Jade!” Savannah shouted.
“What!?”
“Does James know?”
“Yes…”
“Well, for fucks sake! I thought you loved James?”
“I do, it’s just, he doesn’t like me that way and I was too drunk not to say no.”
“What are you feeling now? About everything?” When she asked me that, I didn’t know what to say. I loved James, but Tanner makes me feel, I don’t know…special.
“I actually don’t know.” Then my phone went off. It was a text from Tanner. I forgot that I gave him my number the morning after the party.
Tanner: Hey, you busy tonight? I was wondering if you wanted to hit up the club tonight. No funny business, I promise.
“Speak of the devil. Who is it?” Savannah asked. I frowned and showed her the message. She looked up at me and smiled. “Go out tonight. Have a good time and I promise that I will make a day where it is just us.”
“I really don’t-” Savannah stopped what I was saying and helped me up. “No, you are going. Now, get something nice on and go have fun! I’ve got to go, but I will text you tomorrow for the details of last night.”
We hugged each other and I walked her to her car and then went inside to get ready to go clubbing with Tanner. I texted him saying to pick me up at 7. I’m just wondering how tonight will play out. I breathed and then said to myself, don’t make the same mistake last time.
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As soon as Savannah left, I took a sip of wine and then went upstairs to get ready. I thought that tonight would be a good night to wear a dress. Hey, I felt like dressing sexy, nothing wrong with that other than people judging you, but at this point, I couldn’t give two shits. I just wanted to get drunk tonight and see what happens with Tanner.
Once I was done getting ready, I went into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of wine and sat down at the island, while I waited for Tanner to come and get me.
“So, someone’s going out tonight, I see.” James said as he came in and grabbed a beer out of the fridge. “You going out with Savannah?”
“Nope, actually I’m going out with Tanner, tonight. Savannah couldn’t, she had to leave because she got a call from the babysitter that Ricky wasn’t feeling good.” When I mentioned Tanner’s name, he froze.
“Oh, um, why are you going out with him?” He looked a little upset, but if he was upset, he was hiding it pretty well. But why the hell did he care, now? He didn’t seem to when he found out that we fucked, about a week ago.
“Well, since you and Marie are dating now, I thought that I should get to know him a little better. He seems like a nice guy. Don’t you think?” I took another sip of my wine.
“I guess. I don’t really know him well enough. Just be careful tonight, okay?” He looked worried and I nodded. Then I heard Tanner’s car pull up to our house. I heard a car door slam. Oh, great. He decided to come in and make the whole situation awkward.
“Well, looks like he’s here. I’ll see you later.” I said as I finished the last bit of wine and started walking to the door. I saw Tanner, who looked rather hot this evening. He smiled when he saw me as I opened the door.
“Wow, you look,” He paused for a moment and then pulled out a rose from behind his back. “Beautiful.”
I felt my face warming up when he handed me the rose and our skin touched each others. Oh, god, I’m blushing so much!
“T-Thank you, but is it okay for me to got put this in a vase? You can come in and sit on the couch while I go take care of this.” I asked and Tanner came in and sat down on the couch.
“Yeah, that’s fine, but hurry up, I’ve got the car running.” As soon as he said that, I found a vase and placed the single rose in the vase. God, this reminded me of my dad. He used to give us girls roses every year for Valentines Day. Even when Valentine’s Day was on a school day, he used to call Mandy and I down to the office and hand us our roses.
I placed the vase on my bed-stand and walked back out to the living. Come to find out that Marie was here. Why is she here? I frowned, but then took a deep breath and placed a smile on my face. Marie was sitting next to James, but once Tanner saw me coming down the hall, he got up and walked over to the door.
“Ready?” He smiled and I nodded my head. We then both got into his car and drove to the only nightclub in town.
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James’ POV
“I wonder what time they’ll be home by?” Marie said as we were cuddling in my bedroom. It was nice to have Marie around. We have so much in common, but there’s one problem, Jade.
I’ve started to get feelings for Jade our Junior year in high school. The only reason why I haven’t told her my feelings, is because I don’t want to lose her or this friendship. I just wished I wasn’t so scared to tell her.
I looked up at Marie and smiled. “I’m not sure, but the clubs will start to close soon, anyway.” Marie then smiled back at me.
“Hey, James?” She spoke after a few minutes of silence.
“Yeah?”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Of course. What is it?” I asked. I wonder what she’s thinking?
“Well, I was wondering why you haven’t kissed me yet.” Marie sat up and so did I, but we have only been going out for almost a week. I was planing on kissing her for the first time tonight, but ever since Jade has gone out with Tanner, tonight, I kinda just want go to sleep and forget the night.
“Well,” I said, “I was waiting for the perfect moment.”
That was a lie. Well, not completely, but I’m just not in the mood for romantic stuff tonight. Come on, Jade, get back home.
Marie turned and faced me. “Well, how about we make this night a perfect moment.” The she closed her eyes and she came closer to my face. Fuck! I can’t kiss her! Then I heard a door open and Jade’s high heels clicking against the floor. Well it’s about time she’s home.
“I-I’m HOMEEE, BITCHES!” Jade shouted and then tripped walking on the carpet. Tanner was trying to keep her steady, but when Jade’s drunk, that’s impossible. Believe me, I know.
“I’m guessing your drunk?” I said as I looked up at Jade. She smiled and then fell down again. Tanner then picked her up and handed her to me.

“D-drunker than a s-skunk!” She then burped and then rested her head on my neck. It felt perfect. I quickly snapped out of it and looked at Marie.

“Well, I got to take care of her, but I will talk to you tomorrow?” I asked and she nodded and kissed me on the check. I then started to walk down the hall to the bathroom and laid her on the floor. I knew she was going to start puking soon. “I’ll be right back with some water, okay?” She nodded and rested her arms around the toilet seat.
I then walked out of the bathroom to find Tanner still here. I thought he would’ve been gone by now. “What are you still doing here?” I asked.
“We need to talk about Marie.” He said. Now what? I thought he was fine will Marie and I dating?
“About?”
“You need to stop this before it gets worse.”
“Stop what?” What the hell was he talking about?

“You need to break up with Marie. I don’t want her to be with someone who is going to lead her on, when you are in love with someone else.”
“What? I’m not in love with someone else. Leave, now.”
“Not until you break up with my sister, now.” He said as I could hear Jade starting to puke. “She’s in the car. I’ll take care of Jade.” I stopped right in front of him. “Move out of the way.”
“No. She is my best friend, I’ll take care of her.” He looked pissed off.
“What about my sister?” He asked I heard Jade puking even louder. I turned around, so my back was facing him. “Just tell her it’s over.” I then walked into the bathroom. Jade was laying on the floor and as soon as I walked in, she smiled.
“How are you feeling?” I asked as I helped her up.
“B-better, can you come w-with me to m-my r-room?” I nodded and she then walked out of the bathroom to her room. “W-wait, o-outside.”
I sat outside her room, waiting for what was going to happen next. My phone went off and it was a text message from Marie. I’ll answer her later, right now, Jade is the only important thing. When I looked up from my phone, Jade came out of here room and was only in her bra and underwear. She looked beautiful, but I know that I shouldn’t take advantage of her like that. She then posed in a some-what sexy drunken pose.
“Y-you like what you s-see?” she spoke. Of course I did, but I didn’t want to do something that she might regret in the morning.
“I’m gonna head to bed, now. So, sleep tight and I’ll see you in the morning.” I said as she frowned. I then left her room and climbed into bed. Why did she had to be drunk? I just didn’t want to take advantage of her. I then turned my alarm on and closed my eyes.
I started to fall asleep, but I felt someone get in the blankets and on top of me. I looked up, it was Jade.
“What are you doing, Jade? Go back to bed.” I said as she then placed a finger over my mouth. she leaned in closer and said: “Don’t talk. Just k-kiss me.”
When her lips touched mine, it was like sparks. I couldn’t get enough of it. This was the first time that Jade and I have ever kissed. I just didn’t think it would feel this good. I then flipped her on her back on my bed and kissed her again. She would laugh when I would place kisses on her neck. I loved her laugh.
She then started to take off my shirt. I stopped and looked at her beautiful eyes. “Are you sure you want to continue?” I asked.
Jade brought my head down to hers, our lips, almost touching and then she spoke.
“I’ve b-been wanting this for a l-long time.” I smiled and she smiled back. “Now, shut up and kiss me!”
I did what she said to do. I couldn’t believe that I was going to make love to the woman that I’ve loved for 7 years.

Tune in next Monday for chapter 4! If you aren’t so patient and want to read the rest, check out the rest of ‘Unclear’ on Wattpad. Just look up my username, katieasehl!

Chapter 4: What’s Wrong With Me?
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/08/my-writing-unclear-whats-wrong-with-me/

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My Writing: Unclear – The Mistake (Chapter 2)

Happy Monday dearies! Here is the next chapter! Warning, the next couple chapters might have some mature content. Again, I wrote this back in high school and it’s not completely proof read, so try not to judge as much. I have been thinking about rewriting this, but haven’t have enough motivation to do so. Enjoy!

If you haven’t read Chapter 1, here is the link!
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/05/21/my-writing-unclear-10-years-later-chapter-1/

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~The Mistake~

Then, I bumped into this person.
“Hey, I’m s-shaking my ass here, d-dude!” I know when I’m drunk when I start talking like that, but I didn’t care. I was having the time of my life right now.
“I’m sorry. I must of not seen you.” A deep voice spoke, it sounded like a guy, but he was nice enough to help me up.
“Thanks, but y-you own me a-another drink.”
“I think you have had enough.” He said taking my empty glass away and placing it on the bar. He then came back with a water bottle in his hand. “Here, this will help.”
“If this a-ain’t alcohol, I d-don’t want it.”
“Just drink it.” I then did what I was told and drank some of the water.
“I-I think I need to g-go to bed, n-now.” I said as I turned around and walked up to my room. The guy, who helped me, came up with me. Of course, I didn’t care. I was way too drunk to care. All I know, that I wanted to throw up and then, maybe, make-out with someone. Anyone. I didn’t care who.
I then felt the vomit coming up my throat and I ran into my bathroom. He followed and held my hair up for me.
“I-I’m s-sorry.” I felt that I needed to apologize for puking. Nice going, Jade. I thought to myself.
“Don’t be sorry. It happens when you drink a little more than expected. I’m Tanner.” He said as I got up and brushed my teeth. I liked him. He was totally hot, plus he seemed like he used to play on the football team. “And you are?”
“Jade.”
“That’s a-” Before he could finish his sentence, I stopped him. I went up to him and started to make-out with him. After I pulled away, he looked surprised. I then pointed my finger at him and told him to follow me.
Once we were in my room. It was on. Hardcore make-out section and clothes were starting to come off. Of course, I wasn’t thinking, but all I wanted was someone to fuck me. And this guy, was perfect for the invite. The only thing that wasn’t on my mind, for once, was James.
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I woke up the next morning with a killer headache. My head was killing me. I didn’t remember a thing last night. I’m glad that I didn’t, but I was paying for it now. I felt arms around my waist, as I turned to find a guy in my bed. Shit. I slowly got up and went to the bathroom, hoping that I didn’t wake up my unexpected guest that was in my bed.
I got dressed and then walked back in my room to find, the guy, gathering the rest of his clothes.
“Well, good morning.” He spoke and I sat on the edge of my bed.
“Who are you?” I honestly couldn’t think of his name. Let alone, remember last night.
“You don’t remember?”
“Not really.”
“I’m Tanner. Marie’s older brother.” I froze when he said that last part. Did I just have sex with Marie’s older brother?? Oh god, I’m so dead when James finds out.
“Right.”
“I guess I should go now.” As he threw his shirt over his head.
“Yeah, I’ve got to get ready for work.” I lied as I made my bed.
“Well, it was nice to meet you, Jade.” Before he could leave, I stepped in front of the door.
“One more thing.” I said as he waited for me to finish my sentence. “Can you not tell anybody about this?”
“Of course. Bye Jade.” He said as he left my bedroom.
I just couldn’t believe that this Tanner guy, is Marie’s older brother. I am so stupid!
As soon as I calmed down, I went downstairs and made myself a cup of coffee. Once the coffee was ready, I headed into the living room, to find James watching the news.
“Well, well, how are you feeling?” James said as he knew I was hungover. He loved to pick on my for that.
“Haha, very funny.” I said in a sarcastic tone. “I feel like shit. How was your night?” I said, taking a sip off of my coffee.
“It was alright. Marie and I talked all night long.” He smiled. I hated it when he talked about other girls. Why couldn’t that be me? I’ve loved James since I met him. He was always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. We’ve been best friends for over 7 years. Losing him, would be losing my whole world. I just wish I had the courage to tell him how I feel.
“Cool.”
“Yeah, we are even official.” As soon as he said those words, my heart dropped. He only knew her for a month and they made it official? I nodded and took another sip of my coffee. I just couldn’t believe this!
There was a little of an awkward silence, until I had the guts to speak. “I met her older brother.” I said as he looked towards me and then spoke his name. “Tanner?” I nodded my head and then he turned and faced the T.V..
“I bet you did get to know him, alright.” He smirked and I punched his arm.
“So? It’s not like you haven’t had a one-night-stand before.”
“I have, but I think you like him.” My face got red. He knew it would. I get embarrassed when he assumes that I have a crush on anyone.
Before I could answer him, my cell phone started to go off. As I looked at the screen, I could see the caller I.D. to be my mother calling, again.
“Ugh, doesn’t she know to give me space.” I said as I hung up on her. I didn’t want to speak to her. She knew that, but knowing my mother, she thinks that I have all the space in the world, just because we live right next to each other.
“Who did you just hang up on?” James questioned as I placed my phone on the coffee table.
“My mother.”
“Why? Does this has something to do about yesterday?” Of course, I forgot to tell him about what went on between my mom and I. I took a deep breath and then began to speak.
“Long story short. She started seeing someone and didn’t bother to tell me, but as soon as I move out, she has this new guy move in.” I paused as James kept looking at me. His eyes are so beautiful. I quickly snapped out of it and then spoke again. “Not to mention that she and this ‘Frank’ guy, ran off and got married without me.”
“Wow. Anything else?” James looked surprised as I was when I found out. I then placed my coffee mug on the coffee table.
“She’s also 5 months pregnant with twins.” I then started to cry, a little. I just couldn’t believe my mother would forget to call me or message me to say that she was getting married. It hurt a lot. Especially, when she told me all of that yesterday.
James saw my tears and wiped them away. “I’m so sorry, Jade. I wish there was something I could do for you.”
I hugged him close and then looked up at him. “Never leave me. Like Mandy and Dad did.” As soon as I said that, waterfall of tears came down my cheek.
“I promise.” Those were the only words that he spoke, but I kept repeating it in my head. I promise. Hopefully, he will never break that promise.
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Marie’s P.O.V.
Where the hell is he? It’s almost 10 in the morning! I don’t even know if he came home last night. Maybe he left? Just like Mom and Dad did. He can’t. He’s all I got. I sat there and started to cry, thinking about the day my parents left us.
It hurts just thinking about it.
All of a sudden, the door opened and Tanner walked in. I wiped my tears and ran to Tanner. Hugging him as tight as I could. He hugged me back. He smelled like alcohol. I pulled away and crossed my arms.
“Where were you!?! I thought you left me!” I yelled at him. Tears started to fall down on my face when I said that last sentence. Tanner hugged me again.
“Calm down. I would never leave you.” He spoke and I stopped crying. I looked up to my brother. “Where were you though?” I said as he and I walked into our living room. I sat down on the couch and Tanner took off his jacket and threw it right next to me.
“I drank a little too much and I ended up passing out on your boyfriends couch. I’m sorry. I should’ve texted you, but I will make it up to you.”
“Oh, that was nice of James. Speaking of which, I’m gonna go out to the sun room and call him.” I said as I got up and smiled.
“I’ll be upstairs if you need me.” He said as he walked up the stairs to his room. As soon as he was out of sight, I ran outside to the the sun room. My mother and father build it for me because they wanted be to a great painted, like my grandmother. The only issue was, my grandmother wasn’t just a painter, she was also a witch.
I learned everything from her, but my mom, dad, and Tanner should never find out about this. They would disown me for good. The only reason why my grandmother showed me about her secret, is because she wanted me to find the love of my life. Since I didn’t get my good looks from my mom, my grandmother cast a spell to make me beautiful, but there is only one issue.
Before my 21st birthday, I must do three things, otherwise, I will die and my family will be cursed forever. Since my grandmother cast that spell, it wasn’t just for good looks, I also must produce a baby with the one I cast a love spell over.
And so, that is why I met James. He is the one, that I’ve chosen to create a child with. Sadly, it might be harder than I expected. You see, I can’t cast a spell on someone who is already in love with someone else. I could, but it’s dark magic. My grandmother told me that if I keep using dark magic, my heart will slowly begin to turn black.
Sadly, that’s how she died. Too much dark magic she was casting.
There must be another why to have him fall out of love with Jade.

Next chapter will be out next week! As usual, if you don’t want to wait for the next chapter, look me up on Wattpad for the story ‘Unclear’ by katieasehl. Thanks for reading!

Chapter 3: Does He Love Me? –
https://katiesblog96971617.com/2018/06/04/my-writing-unclear-does-he-love-me-chapter-3/

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Podcast – KatiePurrPurr Update

Today is the day my dearies! I have been trying to get ready and prepare myself for this night! I will be going LIVE on Facebook, look up my page, its Katie’s Blog!

I am very nervous, but excited! Something I have always wanted to do for a really long time and now, I am going to be able to start making my dreams come true!

For this podcast, since, unfortunately, I don’t know how to make myself go live on WordPress (If anyone can help me out, it would be great!). I’ll be doing it on either YouTube or Facebook.

This podcast is to just get to know me a little bit, it won’t be long. It will also give you the chance to ask any questions that you are dying to get answered.

In the future, you would like to be interviewed by yours truly, message me or comment down below so that we can figure out our next move. You might need Skype for this. And we can talk about anything: a new business, your lifestyle, your hopes and dreams, etc.

What my plan is to switch between Facebook and YouTube every other week, but I’m not sure what I want to completely do yet, but if you have any suggestions, please feel free to suggest.

I’ll be going LIVE on Facebook, on my page(Katie’s Blog), tonight at 9:00pm EST.

It would be greatly appreciated for all the support!

I will keep you guys posted for anything new or if anything changes!