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“Why are we cleaning out the garage, Mom?” Logan asked as we were all seated at the kitchen table. Mom was putting eggs and bacon onto our plates.
“Because, we need to get rid of some stuff in there. I don’t know when your father is coming back, but money has been really tight and I don’t want to go into you guys college funds to help keep us afloat.” Mom said as she poured herself some more coffee.
“I can get a job. We don’t have to sell our stuff.” Logan said as our mother shock her head ‘no’.
“Neither of you should get a job to help me out. Focus on school and I’ll take care of the bills.” Mom said as I finished breakfast. “Athena, I have some bad news. I won’t be able to take you to the craft fair next week. I’m really sorry, but work has been crazy and I have to work on your birthdays too.”
“That’s okay, Mom.” I said, my expression sadden. It was my favorite event that my mom and I would go to, but I guess we will have to try again next year. I got up from the table and pushed my chair in. “I’ll go start on cleaning the garage.”
Mom nodded, but her office phone started to rang as she quickly ran into the next room. I turned and walked out into the garage.
The garage was a mess, with boxes on top of boxes. Over to the left stood Logan and I’s very first bikes. Dad didn’t want us to get rid of them and that we should keep them for when we have kids.
I walked over to the back of the garage and figured I would start with the boxes that weren’t labeled, but there was something that caught my eye, something I had never seen before. A small wooden chest.
I don’t remember seeing something like this, but I was curious to know what laid inside. I moved a few boxes that sat in front of it. As I got closer to the wooden chest, all I could see was that it was very dusty. Mom and Dad must of forgot about it because it looks like it hasn’t been touched in a long time.
I was about to open it, when I heard a voice. “Athena, you in here?” Crap. It was Ricky. I stayed hidden a little longer, hoping he would just give up and leave me alone. After a few minutes, I heard him walk away. I sighed in relief.
I looked back down at the chest and opened it slowly. I was amazed to see how many books there was in here. As I picked up one and looked over the cover, I saw that there was no title or author on it. I opened the book and saw the inside.
My eyes got bigger when I saw that it wasn’t just any type of book, but a diary. Not just anyone’s diary, but my moms. I quickly put the book back and then closed the wooden chest. I didn’t want anyone to walk in on me reading my mothers thoughts.
I was too curious. I cleaned off the chest and quickly snuck it into my room. I place it on my floor. I then took the chest and placed it in my closet, quickly shutting the door before I heard. “There you are. I have been looking everywhere for you.”
I turned around and saw Ricky, standing in my doorway. “What are you doing here?” I snapped, he gazed at me as faced him. “I have to go clean the garage, so either tell me what you want or leave.”
He sighed as I crossed my arms. “Can we just talk, so I can explain myself?” He asked as I rolled my eyes.
“Fine, but we can talk out in the garage.” I said, pushing him out of the way and walking back outside and towards the garage. I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to him and have him explain that my mother was stopping him from expressing his feelings.
Once we reached the garage I started to go through a box, as I waited for Ricky to say something. It was quiet for a little bit until he finally spoke.
“I know that your brother told you why I couldn’t tell you how I felt because of your mother, but I’m going to tell you now.” He paused and I heard him sigh. “I love you, but I think it’s best that we just stay-” Before he could finish, I had to know. I don’t know what got into me, but I walked over to him and kissed him.
He was my first ever kiss, but it was worth it. It was breath taking. I felt my arms wrapping around his neck and his wrapped around my waist. I didn’t want it to stop, but he finally pulled away. Our foreheads were still pressed together. I finally opened my eyes, both of us still trying to catch our breath.
“Wow.” I said as I saw a small smile appeared on his face.
“Why did you do that?” He asked as I pulled away and thought about it. I then realize that I just kissed Ricky.
“I-I don’t know.” I said, sitting on the cold cement floor. “I just thought that if I knew what it was like to kiss you, I would be able to get over you easily, but I don’t think I can now.” I hugged my knees and covered my head.
I felt Ricky place his hand on my back. Rubbing it back and forth as he sat down beside me. “I don’t think I’ll be able to either.” I looked up at him as he smiled at me. He leaned in and kissed me again. We were so lost in kissing each other that we got interrupted.
“Athena!” We stopped kissing and turned to see my mother standing in front of us. “Athena Rose! Get your ass inside, now!” She demanded.
Never have I ever seen my mother get so mad before. I was scared. I quickly got up and ran inside. I ran passed Logan, I started to cry, but I didn’t know why.
“Athena, what’s wrong?” I heard Logan asked as I shut my bedroom door. I lean back against the door and fell to the ground. I didn’t understand why my mother was acting like this.
I stood up after Athena ran inside. I was face to face with her mother. I remember the last conversation I had with her, it was the night of graduation. The night I planned on telling Athena how I felt, but her mother told me it would be best if I stayed away and did my own thing.
“Look, I’m-” I figured I would apologize, but Jade had interrupt me before I could.
“Don’t sorry me! I told you to stay away from her! Now, she is going to think that you too are going to be together forever!” She yelled, a thought popped into my mind. I knew about her past because my mom and her were close friends, but they stopped talking for some reason.
I wanted to say it, but I kept my mouth shut. I didn’t want to bring up James…
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry that I fell in love with your daughter.” I said as I tired to stopped myself, but didn’t. “To be honest, but I think I remember being told that you fell in love with your best friend and your mother didn’t seem to have a problem with it.”
She looked shocked when the words came out of my mouth. I didn’t know what came over me, but deep down, it needed to be said.
“Leave Ricky! I never want you around Athena or this house again!” She screamed as I walked away. Logan caught me, before I got into my car.
“Ricky, wait!” He said as I opened my door. “What the hell is going on?”
I put my head down and looked back up at him. “Take care of your sister.” I got into my car, started my engine and drove off. The one thing that popped in my mind was Athena. How beautiful she was and how her smile brighten my day. Just seeing her, made my world stop.
I felt a tear slip, but I quickly wiped it away. I pulled over and cut my engine. I placed my head on my hand, that was still on the steering wheel. I just hope that Athena was alright.
I pulled out my phone and tried to call her, but it just kept ringing until it reached to her voicemail.
“Hey its Athena. Leave a message!”
“Athena, I love you. Don’t forget that.” I then hung up, turned my engine back on and drove home.
I walked back in my house, after Ricky left. My mother was in front of Athena’s door. “Athena, get out here!” She shouted.
Our mother has never been a yeller, unless I did something back, but for Athena, she didn’t know how to handle it. I walked over to my mother she turned and looked at me quick, before going back and knocking on her door.
“What are you doing, Mom?” I asked. She turned and glared at me.
“You.” She pointed to me. “You had to keep him around when I told you no! You said that you would keep Ricky away!” She slapped my face.
“What the hell!” I yelled. “What has gotten into you, Mom. What is so wrong about Ricky?”
“He is going to make her think that they will live happily ever after and then break her heart!” She said, I then noticed that she was walking funny.
She was drunk. We have never seen our mother drunk, so this was a first. I noticed that our parents wine collection was disappearing, but I didn’t think my mother had drank almost half of it.
“You’re drunk, aren’t you?” I confronted her. She then turned and walked away into her room.
Once she closed her door. I quietly went to Athena’s door. “Athena, its just me. Open up.” I said as the door slowly opened. As I looked into my sister’s face, her eyes were red from crying. I walked into her room and closed the door.
Athena hugged me as tight as she could. I didn’t mind, but it made me angry that Athena was so scared. “I want daddy.” I heard her say. I missed him, too.
I waited until she finally let go of me to speak, but there was nothing that I felt that would help her. She sat on her bed and I sat down next to her. I noticed something that was peaking out of her closet. I got up and opened it.
“What’s that?” I asked as I looked at the weird little wooden chest. “I’ve never seen this before, where did get this?” I looked back at Athena, as she wiped her tears.
“It was in the garage. It’s a bunch of journals.” She spoke. I looked back and grabbed the chest from the closet and placed it on the floor.
“Who’s journals?” I asked as I opened the wooden chest and grabbed one of the many books that hid inside.
“Moms.” I looked up back at Athena. “I know I shouldn’t of taken them, but I was curious and I feel that she is hiding something from us.”
Athena got down from her bed and sat on the floor with me. “These go back to when she was a teenager.” Athena explained. I opened one of them and she was right. Mom’s name was inside for sure.
“How do you know that?” I asked, but when I looked on the outside of the book, on the edge of the book, was a year. No date or month, just the year. “Have you read any of these?”
Athena shook her head no. “I haven’t yet.” She then looked through and grabbed the earliest year. That must of been when mom started to write in journals. “We should read this together?” Athena asked.
I nodded as we sat together and turned the first page of her journal:
2004 – June
Today, I finally graduated from high school. It took long enough, but I’m glad it’s over. James and I are going to move in to our own place. We figured it would be cheaper than living in a dorm with some strangers.
I wish he knew how I felt about him. I love him, more than he knows. I’m just glad he has stayed by my side after all the stuff that happened the night my sister died.
But I know he only sees me as a friend, nothing more. Or does he?
I figured I would write in a journal as a fresh start. After what happened when I was 12… I know it has been years, but I still have nightmares of that night. The night I lost my sister and my virginity…
I’m glad Lucas is in hell for what he did…
2004 – July
We are moved in, finally! I get to enjoy the short time of what’s left of summer before I have to go back to school.
I got my first job! I’ll be working at the bookstore. My mom knows the owner and thankfully he was hiring. I think that would be a wonderful place to start a job. It’s only going to be part time, so that I can go to college. Not sure what I want to do, but I need to figure out quick…
The night mares just don’t seem to go away… About that night… I feel terrible to abort that baby, but I had too. I wasn’t going to raise a child that came from one night that I was drugged and raped…
James says that I have to move on, but I can’t. So, tonight, we are going to have our first ever party at our house. I figured a night of drinking and dancing with friends can help me forget.
Savannah can’t come over, but that’s okay. She’s got little Ricky to take care of. I feel bad for her…
Connor still doesn’t want anything to do with Ricky that he moved to LA AFTER he was born. I still can’t believe that his parents tried to pay Savannah to have an abortion…
I’ll write later, need to go to work!
We both looked up from our mother’s journal. I wanted to cry. I never knew that about her or Ricky. Logan pulled out his phone and checked the time, it was almost 2pm. An hour since my mother was caught Ricky and I kissing.
“That’s sad though.” I broke the silence. Logan looked at me.
“About mom or Ricky’s father wanting his mother to get rid of him?”
“About Ricky.” I paused. “I’ve always wondered why he never talked about his dad, now I know why.”
“I know.” Logan replied. “Who’s James?” I wondered about it too. The way mom was talking about him, made me believe that she really did love him, but she never talked about him. What happened to him? Did they fall in love?
“I don’t know, but I want to read the 2008 one.” I said, grabbing it and flipping a few pages until I saw our dad’s name. “Look! Here’s dad’s name!”
Logan looked closely, but once he read a little in, he turned the page. “I don’t think we need to know about that.”
“What was it?” I asked.
“Something that should stay between mom and dad.” Logan replied as I peaked over and read a little before going to the next page. “Yep, let’s leave that there.” I never wanted to picture my mother talking about her first time with dad, but now, it was frozen in my brain.
“Do you want to keep reading?” Logan asked. I nodded as we looked back down on the next page in our mom’s journal:
2008 – January
Tanner took me out, last night, but I ended up in James’ bed. We made love and I don’t know what to think about it.
Tanner has been so sweet to me and has made it clear he wants to be more than friends, but I just don’t know. James took advantage of me when I was drunk and let it happened. It brings me a flashback back to that horrible night when I was 12.
I just don’t know…
2008 – February
Well, I don’t know how to say this, but I’m pregnant…
I don’t know who the father is. I have a feeling it is Tanner’s but still.
I feel like I should be on one of those shows that call out women who sleeps with more than one man and finds out that they are or aren’t the father.
I didn’t mean for it to happen. I’m scared and don’t know what to do… What happens when I tell them? Both James and Tanner.
God, I feel like such a whore. No more heavy drinking… Not just for my health, but for my future baby.
2008 – March
I told them…
Actually, Tanner’s sister saw me buying the tests with Savannah. I moved out, too.
James called me a whore for sleeping with both of them, but he took advantage of me when I was extremely drunk! How is that my fault? I don’t know why I got so drunk, so it’s just as much my fault as it is his.
Tanner has been really sweet towards me. He’s already starting to save up money for the little one. It makes me feel that he is going to be a wonderful father. I have a deep feeling that he is the father of our child.
At least I can try and be a good mom, unlike mine. She decided to not tell me she was getting married and that she was pregnant! Whatever, I’m done being lied too.
“I can’t read any more, Logan.” I said, putting the book back in the chest. “W-We could’ve been someone else’s kids?” Logan the book from me and went through a few pages and then he then read out loud.
“Don’t worry. James’ isn’t our father, just listen.” Logan cleared his throat. “I found out I was having twins and they are both Tanners. James can’t have kids because of all the abuse he suffered as a child. I felt horrible that James wouldn’t have any kids, but I’m more shocked that I’m having twins.”
“Thank god.” I sighed in relief. “I have had enough reading. Too much we have found out at once.” I said as Logan kept looking back into the book. He was skipping pages, then looked up at me.
“Dad’s never mention in having a sister to you, has he?” I shock my head. Logan took a deep breath in. “She’s alive, sort of.”
“What? What do you mean sort of?” I asked as I took the book from him and saw what he saw.
‘I don’t believe it. The only family Tanner had was now gone… More like dead, as in vampire.’
Chapter 3: TBA
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