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~What’s wrong with me?~
I woke up feeling hungover and someone’s arms wrapped around my waist. Shit, what the hell happened last night? All I could remember was that I was dancing with Tanner on the dance floor, at the club. Did I fuck Tanner, again? I thought, but the only problem was, that is wasn’t Tanner that I slept with, it was James.
I carefully moved James’ arms from around my waist, to realized that I was completely naked. Great. I quickly gathered my clothes, from his room, and went into my room. I finally found my phone and checked the time. 5:43 in the morning?! What the hell was I doing up? I tried to go back to sleep but, I couldn’t. So, I decided to get dressed and go make some coffee.
As soon as I walked into the kitchen, James had already gotten to the kitchen before me, again. When he saw me, he smiled and poured me a cup and handed it to me.
“How you feeling, today?” He asked.
“I could be better. I just wish I didn’t drink that much, but then again, Tanner was buying me drinks.” I said as James’ handed me the cup of coffee.
“So.” He said. I knew it was coming. One of us was going to bring it up sooner or later. “What would you like for breakfast?”
Breakfast? What the hell? I was hoping he would’ve asked me how my night was. Well, you know. I went to a club with Tanner, got drunk, and then came home and slept with the guy I’ve loved since the first time that I met him.
“Eggs, bacon, and toast sounds good.” I said, taking another sip of my coffee. James started to gather the stuff and started to cook. It was silent for a long time. I waited, hoping that I wouldn’t be the one to break the silence.
“So, about last night.” James said as he was putting the eggs, bacon and toast on plates. “I’m sorry that I took advantage of you last night. We shouldn’t of did it last night.” He then handed me a plate and he then sat down next to me and began to eat. Advantage of me? I was drunk and I’m pretty sure I agreed to it.
“No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t of gotten that drunk last night.” I said. God, now I just screwed everything up for us.
“It’s not your fault. I should’ve gone with you.” he said as we looked at each other. Why couldn’t I kiss him again? It just felt so good and right. I never thought that he would be okay with it, but he is a guy with needs. “But I have something that I want to ask.”
“Okay, what is it?” I asked as he took a sip of coffee and then began to speak.
“Do you have feelings for me?” I froze in my seat. Shit! I’ve never been confronted before, or like this anyway. What was I going to say? Well, you know, I’ve loved you since I’ve gotten to know you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship, but your more of an older brother type. Oh, and I lost my virginity because I knew that you wouldn’t be the one who would take it.
I took another sip of coffee and began to clear my throat. “Well, if you want the truth, then yes I do have feelings for you, but I didn’t want to lose our friendship or make anything weird between us. Last night was just a mistake.” Great, I guess I’m going to have to start looking for a new place to stay.
“To me, last night, wasn’t a mistake, but a beginning. I loved you since I first laid eyes on you, Jade. You were my best friend, a person I knew that I would always be with. To be honest, it killed me inside that that creep got to have you, before I even got a chance.” He then took a sip of coffee and faced his half-eaten plate of eggs. See, I knew this was going to happen. Fucking stupid drunk I am.
It was silent, again. I didn’t know how or what to say. I just finished my breakfast and then left the house. I had to get out of there before I say something that I might regret.
“Please just answer your phone, James. ” I said, tears falling down my cheek. He dumped me last night, without any reason to why. Plus, he made Tanner tell me that it was over? I just didn’t get it. I’ve been in my bed, since last night and it’s almost noon. I didn’t want to eat or sleep, nothing. I just wanted to know why.
“Knock, knock. You okay?” Tanner said knocking on my door and entering my room. He sat down on the side of my bed. “You hungry? I’m thinking about going out for lunch and I was wondering if you want to come with?” He wiped my tears away and I gave him a small smile.
“Yeah, I need to get out of the house anyway.” I said. “Plus, I was also wondering if we could stop by James’ house.” I got out of bed and went to my dresser and picked out an outfit. Tanner got up from the bed and started to head to the door.
“I guess we could stop by. I’ll be waiting downstairs when your done getting ready.” Tanner said as he left my room. I then quickly got dressed and met my brother downstairs. We then got into his truck and drove to Sandy’s. Sandy’s was like a old fashion restaurant that felt like home. I was my favorite place to eat.
As soon as we got it, we were seated right away. It wasn’t very busy today. Tanner order his usual, Bacon Cheeseburger with fries and I order a salad with Shrimp Pasta.
“So, Tanner. Do you know exactly why James broke up with me?” I said to break the silence after the waiter left with our orders.
“He loves someone else, Marie. I told you he was no good and besides, there are other guys who are better for you then he is.” As soon as Tanner said that first sentence, my heart started to hurt. Why would he lie to me?
“Oh,um, do you know who he loves?” I asked, Tanner took a sip of his drink and then began to speak. “He’s in love with Jade.” Tanner looked upset too. What wouldn’t he just tell me this by him own mouth? I would’ve understood.
“What’s wrong with you, Tanner? Seems like you and her had a little history going on.” I said. Then the waiter came out with our lunch and then left.
“Let’s just say, I really like her, but I can’t have her.” he said and then started to eat his burger. I have to do something, if not, then I wont be here anymore…
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Chapter 5: Uh, Oh –